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A/N: I hope you like this, I might continue with this, but this can also be considered a stand alone.
Moments in time of a girl who just stopped giving a fuck
This sucks it is cold as fuck here and why?! Just why did I decide that today would be a good day to wear my favourite dress? Yeah I don't know why either. I really do not appreciate the stares of these people. At the least, I appeared near Whiterun, at the least it is a simple cotton dress and not like one of those my cousin likes to wear, to flowy and fluffy, and bless the existence of leggings.
I am glad that I found work at the Companions Hall, Jorrvaskrar, now I only have to get Vilkas to get off of me, it is not working. Why did I decide to work here? O yeah because I thought it was a good Idea, well it is, but! These moments make it hard. I get payed decently, and Tilda looks less haggard, which is nice. She is an elderly lady and a wonderfully kind one at that. I am glad that I helped her with the groceries.
I arrived in Helgen today, it makes me uncomfortable, I don't want to be pulled into the story line. I am not warrior far from it, just a simple maid at the Companions hall, though to admit I am a good sneak, have to be. With them being Werewolves and all, wouldn't do to wake them of their well earned rest. Really light sleepers the lot of them. And a good point as well! My acne receded! Probably the healthy eating and actually being productive, loosing a couple of kg's makes it even better. If only my family could see me now. They surely would be proud of how I am dealing with all this. They would be right?
Fuck I shouldn't have gone today, just my luck. Alduin came and now … now I have to possibly deal with all the consequences concerning that shit storm of a bag full of dhiarea. Disgusting and all around a pain to deal with. Fuck why are most of the men and women surrounding me so fucking attractive, like seriously! This isn't fair! To that I will probably get the returning statement "Girl, life ain't fair!" and "What the fuck?! Bitch you better be runnin or you will be fucking dead." Si I do not know why my brain thought this was a good idea to think about. Blame Ralof's butt. It is a VERY nice butt.
"You gotta be fucking kidding me, you absolute idiots!there is a mother fucking dragon destroying this fucking place and you are worried about 'Whose the traitor to the country.' Like really!?" I am glad that I managed to drag both of them into the baracks, they stared at me before drawing their weapons I threw my hands up into the air exasperated "Fine you idiots go kill each other, at the least I will somehow manage to get here out alive, compared to you two milkdrinkers." Ahhh the Companions really had gotten to me and they didn't really seem to take that well, too bad for them; I am DONE giving a fuck. Alduin was here and I just wanted to survive this fuckbucket.
I am just glad that in the end both sides of this stupid civil war choose to be sensible for once. Really, those journals at the Thalmor embassy where desperately needed.