Title: Inner Turmoil Part 1/?
Author: Lady Grimms
Email: ladygrimms@hotmail.com
Summary: Bonnie is sick, and finds she faces a life or death decision. An aspect of this came from The Secret Vampire. Since the characters all belong to L. J. Smiths anyway, it all meshes into a nice pile of warm, happy goo. Enjoy! Rating: PG-13
Based on: Vampire Diaries. Everything and everyone mentioned in this story belongs to L. J. Smith
Spoilers: VD (A bit of NW)
Chapter One:
Bonnie sat in an uncomfortable chair, waiting to hear the results from her examination. She knew it was bad, worse in fact. Her grandmother's prediction kept running back and forth across her mind.
She had told no one of the fevers, weakness. Not even Matt, who had been her steady boyfriend since two years ago. She wouldn't have been able to handle the pity in anyone's eyes.
She jumped as the doctor's office door opened.
"Miss McCullough? If you could join Dr. Wakefield in his office?"
Bonnie stood on trembling legs and walked towards the office. She already knew what was going to be said. She could see it on the face of the nurse.
She took her place in front of his desk.
"I'm sorry to tell you this but your test results were positive. You do have Adult acute myeloid leukemia. You once mentioned that another member of your family had died of cancer."
"A distant relative died recently from it."
"The type?"
Pancreatic."
Dr. Wakefield watched her silently. Finally, he said, "Normally we start to take the steps toward sending a patient to chemo, radiology or anything that would help the survival rate." He paused and said, "The amount of immature blast in your system is terribly alarming. We recommend that you come in for treatment as soon as possible."
Bonnie swallowed nervously. "What are my chances?"
Dr. Wakefield lifted up his hands and dropped them in his lap. "I'm afraid that it is hard to say for it varies from patient to patient. AML can be quite aggressive so as I mentioned before, your only chance is to come in for treatment as soon as possible."
"I see." Her voice sounded hollow.
"Is there anyone to take you home?"
"I'll be fine. I don't have far to go."
"I truly think it would be best if we called you a cab. Nurse, would you-"
"No!" Bonnie shouted.
The doctor jerked like she'd hit him. His eyes were mildly glazed. "Right. You'll be fine."
The nurse was looking at the doctor like he'd lost his mind but before the woman could act; Bonnie picked up her purse, shoved the folder into her bag and was out the door. She quickly rushed through the office and down the hallway towards the elevator. Just when she was about to reach it she decided to take the stairs instead, not wanting to see anyone right now.
She reached her car and jumped in. She dumped her purse and stared at the folder like it was something alien. An irrational urge to tear it up took hold but instead she opened up her glove box and shoved it in, not caring that the pictures inside would be damaged.
Unfortunately, she had a party to attend. Elena and Stefan's happy return from Europe.
Bonnie finally felt all her strength flow out of her and she leant her head back onto the headrest. She had to tell matt.
Finally, she found her keys and started her car, heading towards the outskirts of town and Mrs. Flowers Boarding House.
*********
"Your sure she said, she'd be here," Caroline asked Meredith for the third time.
"I told you she has a doctor's appointment."
Caroline smiled slyly. "Wonder why?"
Meredith almost lost her cool exterior when she understood what Caroline was implying. Finally, she couldn't hold it in and started to laugh. Stefan watched her oddly but turned his attention back to Elena and Matt. The two were standing a small distance away from the gathered guests, talking in low voices.
Meredith stopped laughing and eyed them. To anyone, it was obvious that Matt still had feelings for Elena but tried to hide it as best he could. He was failing miserably.
She hoped that Bonnie wouldn't see what was obvious to everyone else.
The mere thought of her best friend, seemed to conjure her out of the silent, cool evening air. The small Volkswagen bug pulled up beside the sleek Porsche.
Meredith frowned when she noticed how long it was taking Bonnie to get out. Finally, the door wrenched open and she stepped into the night air. The slight redhead was wearing a short flowered dress with little straps. It was odd, but she actually looked thinner than normal.
What had Meredith walking swiftly towards her was when she saw Bonnie pull out a pack of cigarettes and light one. In all her life, she'd never known Bonnie to smoke. Stefan seemed to notice something as well, for his attention was no longer focused on Matt but on Bonnie.
Meredith met her halfway. Bonnie was terribly pale but managed a smile. It was obviously forced. Even though she had never been the hugging type, Meredith placed an arm around her slight friend.
"Something wrong?"
"Now what could possibly be wrong?" Bonnie replied, blowing out a smoke ring. She started moving towards Stefan when Caroline called out, "So are you expecting?"
Bonnie didn't so much as crack a smile. "No."
"Good, then have a beer."
Bonnie waited for Caroline to open it and grasped the bottle in trembling fingers. Then she turned her attention to Matt.
No, Meredith corrected herself. She turned toward Matt and Elena. Meredith could see a flash of pain cross over Bonnie's fine features.
Elena looked more than uncomfortable and kept glancing over at Stefan. Matt reached out and tried to brush a lock of hair from her face. Elena stepped away from him and quickly moved towards Stefan.
Matt approached more slowly. Once he reached the group, he had the decency to look mildly uncomfortable when he noticed Stefan and Elena's cool looks, Caroline's smirk, Meredith's raised eyebrows, and Bonnie's carefully controlled expression.
Without one sip, Bonnie placed the drink onto the table and started walking back towards her car. Matt grabbed Bonnie's arm and stared to haul her towards the house.
Once they had disappeared, Elena said, "She saw us?"
"Unfortunately. Matt doesn't have a subtle bone in his body," Meredith said irritably.
"I truly didn't realize that he still-"
Meredith's expression softened. "It's not your fault. We all saw this coming a mile away. So did Bonnie, but she chose to ignore it. Not that this is her fault either."
Elena leant into Stefan and he wrapped an arm around her waist. It was a natural movement to them. It was only then that Meredith noticed the lapis- lazuli ring was back on Elena's finger.
Summary: Bonnie is sick, and finds she faces a life or death decision. An aspect of this came from The Secret Vampire. Since the characters all belong to L. J. Smiths anyway, it all meshes into a nice pile of warm, happy goo. Enjoy! Rating: PG-13
Based on: Vampire Diaries. Everything and everyone mentioned in this story belongs to L. J. Smith
Spoilers: VD (A bit of NW)
Chapter One:
Bonnie sat in an uncomfortable chair, waiting to hear the results from her examination. She knew it was bad, worse in fact. Her grandmother's prediction kept running back and forth across her mind.
She had told no one of the fevers, weakness. Not even Matt, who had been her steady boyfriend since two years ago. She wouldn't have been able to handle the pity in anyone's eyes.
She jumped as the doctor's office door opened.
"Miss McCullough? If you could join Dr. Wakefield in his office?"
Bonnie stood on trembling legs and walked towards the office. She already knew what was going to be said. She could see it on the face of the nurse.
She took her place in front of his desk.
"I'm sorry to tell you this but your test results were positive. You do have Adult acute myeloid leukemia. You once mentioned that another member of your family had died of cancer."
"A distant relative died recently from it."
"The type?"
Pancreatic."
Dr. Wakefield watched her silently. Finally, he said, "Normally we start to take the steps toward sending a patient to chemo, radiology or anything that would help the survival rate." He paused and said, "The amount of immature blast in your system is terribly alarming. We recommend that you come in for treatment as soon as possible."
Bonnie swallowed nervously. "What are my chances?"
Dr. Wakefield lifted up his hands and dropped them in his lap. "I'm afraid that it is hard to say for it varies from patient to patient. AML can be quite aggressive so as I mentioned before, your only chance is to come in for treatment as soon as possible."
"I see." Her voice sounded hollow.
"Is there anyone to take you home?"
"I'll be fine. I don't have far to go."
"I truly think it would be best if we called you a cab. Nurse, would you-"
"No!" Bonnie shouted.
The doctor jerked like she'd hit him. His eyes were mildly glazed. "Right. You'll be fine."
The nurse was looking at the doctor like he'd lost his mind but before the woman could act; Bonnie picked up her purse, shoved the folder into her bag and was out the door. She quickly rushed through the office and down the hallway towards the elevator. Just when she was about to reach it she decided to take the stairs instead, not wanting to see anyone right now.
She reached her car and jumped in. She dumped her purse and stared at the folder like it was something alien. An irrational urge to tear it up took hold but instead she opened up her glove box and shoved it in, not caring that the pictures inside would be damaged.
Unfortunately, she had a party to attend. Elena and Stefan's happy return from Europe.
Bonnie finally felt all her strength flow out of her and she leant her head back onto the headrest. She had to tell matt.
Finally, she found her keys and started her car, heading towards the outskirts of town and Mrs. Flowers Boarding House.
*********
"Your sure she said, she'd be here," Caroline asked Meredith for the third time.
"I told you she has a doctor's appointment."
Caroline smiled slyly. "Wonder why?"
Meredith almost lost her cool exterior when she understood what Caroline was implying. Finally, she couldn't hold it in and started to laugh. Stefan watched her oddly but turned his attention back to Elena and Matt. The two were standing a small distance away from the gathered guests, talking in low voices.
Meredith stopped laughing and eyed them. To anyone, it was obvious that Matt still had feelings for Elena but tried to hide it as best he could. He was failing miserably.
She hoped that Bonnie wouldn't see what was obvious to everyone else.
The mere thought of her best friend, seemed to conjure her out of the silent, cool evening air. The small Volkswagen bug pulled up beside the sleek Porsche.
Meredith frowned when she noticed how long it was taking Bonnie to get out. Finally, the door wrenched open and she stepped into the night air. The slight redhead was wearing a short flowered dress with little straps. It was odd, but she actually looked thinner than normal.
What had Meredith walking swiftly towards her was when she saw Bonnie pull out a pack of cigarettes and light one. In all her life, she'd never known Bonnie to smoke. Stefan seemed to notice something as well, for his attention was no longer focused on Matt but on Bonnie.
Meredith met her halfway. Bonnie was terribly pale but managed a smile. It was obviously forced. Even though she had never been the hugging type, Meredith placed an arm around her slight friend.
"Something wrong?"
"Now what could possibly be wrong?" Bonnie replied, blowing out a smoke ring. She started moving towards Stefan when Caroline called out, "So are you expecting?"
Bonnie didn't so much as crack a smile. "No."
"Good, then have a beer."
Bonnie waited for Caroline to open it and grasped the bottle in trembling fingers. Then she turned her attention to Matt.
No, Meredith corrected herself. She turned toward Matt and Elena. Meredith could see a flash of pain cross over Bonnie's fine features.
Elena looked more than uncomfortable and kept glancing over at Stefan. Matt reached out and tried to brush a lock of hair from her face. Elena stepped away from him and quickly moved towards Stefan.
Matt approached more slowly. Once he reached the group, he had the decency to look mildly uncomfortable when he noticed Stefan and Elena's cool looks, Caroline's smirk, Meredith's raised eyebrows, and Bonnie's carefully controlled expression.
Without one sip, Bonnie placed the drink onto the table and started walking back towards her car. Matt grabbed Bonnie's arm and stared to haul her towards the house.
Once they had disappeared, Elena said, "She saw us?"
"Unfortunately. Matt doesn't have a subtle bone in his body," Meredith said irritably.
"I truly didn't realize that he still-"
Meredith's expression softened. "It's not your fault. We all saw this coming a mile away. So did Bonnie, but she chose to ignore it. Not that this is her fault either."
Elena leant into Stefan and he wrapped an arm around her waist. It was a natural movement to them. It was only then that Meredith noticed the lapis- lazuli ring was back on Elena's finger.