Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed. TT

Hi! Although I've been visiting this site for quite a long time already, this is my first time to post my fanfic here. The fact is this story has been stored in my computer for months already and it's just now that I want to share this to anyone who might be interested in reading my fic.

Summary: It has been completely different since the end of the war. Kira and Lacus were finally engaged, they were preparing for their future together. Will they live happily ever after? Will fate be in favor of them? Read to find out.

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Troubled Lives

Prologue

(Kira's POV)

Now I'm here inside my room and, I'm pretty bored. Lacus told me that if I don't feel right, I must let it out or else I'll blow. She suggested that if I can't speak it out, I have to write my feelings down and then afterwards read it, letting myself be the author and at the same time the reader. This is because I can reflect easier and it can help lighten the burden. I want to check it out so I followed her advice and now I am writing the first entry in my journal.

A.W. Decmeber 14, 8:45 PM

Life has never been this good for me and for everyone. The war has finally ended. Peace has finally come to us, I desire this will last long. If ever another chaos will ignite once more, I'll fight until my last breath like what I've done before. Although I really hate it, I'll battle anarchy to protect the ones I love and those people who thought of it as despicable. I will never allow that event of destruction to occur again, never will anything take this bliss that I only experience now with her, with Lacus Clyne.

Lacus, you were my angel who saved me from insanity. Whenever I look into your eyes, I feel serenity. Whenever I hear your voice, I sense harmony. Whenever you smile back at me, I see the truth. I will no longer be afraid from now on because you were always there for me. It's just you, you are peace itself but I often wonder if I really deserve you. Many times I'd ask myself if why God is so kind to me for giving me this wonderful chance, of knowing you and letting you become a part of my life. Because I had a rough life, many times too I questioned myself if you deserve to be with someone else who has never taken the life of someone else for whatever reason unlike me. But all I know is that I love you more than my own life and that I'm glad that you love me too. You told me that you don't care about the things I did before. You always gave me an assurance that I am worth of your love, and I am thankful for that. I know I hurt you before by ignoring your feelings for me, but good thing I realized that I was stupid for dumping the chance for a better life and that you were the one who will help me move on. It's you that I will never come back to my old self, you patiently took care of me, you healed my wounds, you make me a new Kira Yamato, a stronger Kira Yamato. You banished all my fears, I am no longer afraid and I am ready to move on with my life together with you. I must tell you, you're the only reason I need to live each day of my life. I know I told you that I love you for a million times already, but you just don't know if how much I love you because I just can't explain this odd feeling. Without you, my life is incomplete because you were the one who always understands me, who always cares for me. I'll always love your kindness and sincerity. I already lost my loved ones in the past and it was hard for me. However Lacus, if you'll be taken away from me, I would desire not to live anymore because I will not be able to live a life without you in my side. Lacus, you'll always be the person I will forever respect, the only woman I'll love for eternity. Never leave me, never please. I love you, Lacus.

I guess I have to end it here. I am finally satiated at what I just wrote. I put my journal back inside the desk drawer when Lacus came in.

"Hi Kira," she smiled at me and headed to the bathroom. Yeah, every time she does that, I felt my heart twist.

I suddenly slipped my tongue out, "Lacus?"

"Hmm?" she responded.

"Errh, uhm…" 'Man, what's in me? ' I thought, "just later," I simply sighed.

"Okay," she finally entered the bathroom as I sat on the bed and waited for her to get done.

(Normal POV)

After a few minutes, Lacus exited the bathroom with her pajamas on. She came near to the bed and sat next to Kira, "Anata, what is it that you want to ask me a while ago?"

"Can you sing that quiet night' song for me, please? Because I don't want to have nightmares later on," Kira asked.

"You know you can be like a little child requesting to his mother for bedtime stories," Lacus giggled as Kira blushed, "Very well, wish granted," Lacus said as she began singing.

shizuka na kono yoru ni anata wo matteru no

ano toki wasureta hohoemi wo tori ni kite

are kara sukoshi dake jikan ga sugite

omoide ga yasashiku natta ne

hoshi no furu basho de

anata ga waratte irukoto wo

itsumo negatteta

ima tookutemo

mata aeru yo ne

Kira moved to his sleeping position while still listening to Lacus. Lacus covered him with a blanket as he replied a smile.

itsu kara hohoemi wa konna ni hakanakute

hitotsu no machigaide kowarete... shimau kara

taisetsuna mono dake wo hikari ni kaete

tooi sora koete yuku tsuyosade

hoshi no furu basho e

omoi wo anata ni todoketai

itsumo soba ni iru

sono tsumetasa wo dakishimeru kara

ima toukutemo kitto aerune

shizuka na yoru ni

At the end of the song, Kira finally slept. Lacus faced Kira nearer and listened to his calm breathing. She felt relieved to know that her beloved is now having a peaceful slumber. She then turned off the lights and lay down beside Kira, "Sweet dreams, Kira. Don't worry, I'll protect you from the nightmares. I love you anata," she kissed him lightly on the lips and dozed off.

A.W. December 15, 10:06 AM

"Tadaima!" Lacus greeted and planted a smack on Kira's lips as she neared the orphanage's beach house.

"Okaeri nasai, anata," Kira replied as he approached Lacus while he quickly savored Lacus' lips on his. "Let me carry the bags. What are inside these?" Kira queried while getting the two shopping bags that Lacus brought.

Lacus giggled while handing the bags to Kira, "Christmas decors. You know that Christmas is fast approaching and these will make the orphanage's atmosphere a little bit more colorful and merrier."

"Looks like you've done a lot of shopping. So when are you going to start on decorating?" Kira asked while looking over the load inside.

"Actually, the children will assist me decorating the house this morning. Care to join us?" Lacus said, inviting Kira.

Kira chuckled, "Well I can't let my angel do things without me… of course I will. I guess the children will enjoy with the activity later."

"Us too. Let's go inside and start the fun," Lacus beamed at him as she led Kira to the house.

Credits: Lacus Clyne's Shizukana yoru ni

Artist: Tanaka Rie (how I wished my voice was as wonderful as hers)

Album: Gundam Seed OST

Gundam Seed has been one of my favorite anime. For now, I've been relying on subbed versions so I can catch up with Gundam Seed Destiny.

I was listening to this song when I wrote this prologue. I got carried away and thought of writing my fic for GS. For me, I think this wasn't good enough but please tell me what you think. If there are some mistakes or if you would like to suggest anything to improve my writing, please do so and I'll be glad to accept them. Thank you very much for reading and until next update!