A/N: Hey, SibunaMockingjay here with a oneshot for Girl Meets World. Rated T for eating disorders such as bulimia. Please don't read if triggered. You have been warned. Eventual Lucaya at the end!

Disclaimer: I do not own GMW or Dove Cameron's amazing song 'What a girl is', just the plot.

Maya's POV

I look in the mirror and sigh. If perfection is such an impossible goal, then why is it everywhere I look except in the mirror. I glance at my fat and ugly body one more time before leaving my flat to pick up Riley before we get the train to school.

Riley's POV

I grab my bag and count to five. Upon reaching five, I turn around and see Maya sat on the window sill. I smile.

'Morning, my perfect girl,' Maya says with a half-hearted, wistful smile.

'Hey, Maya,' I say taking her hands and sitting down beside her 'I am not perfect. There is nobody in the world that possibly could be'

'But you're the closest to it' and this time, Maya gives me a big smile and I become carefree Riley again.

-LINE BREAK-

Maya's POV

Here we are, down in the subway. Me and Riley are on the train and as we hold onto the poles I lower my gaze. There is a young woman sat with good posture reading a mag. The picture on the front is of a beautiful woman with perfectly toned skin and shaped body.

Maya, you're no good. There's no way you could ever look as pretty as that or ever get a guy who is as good as Lucas.

My stomach does a somersault at the thought of his gorgeous, unusual eyes.

Maya, he likes Riley, not a ugly little whore like you.

My attention is grabbed by a few words on the front cover of the mag.

'Lose weight fast! See page 5'

-LINE BREAK-

Huh, school was as lame as usual. I pass the mirror and see my overweight body (A/N: She's not really, this is what Maya feels she is) staring back at me. Lucas never noticed me today, I just had to watch him and Riley flirt.

Nobody ever notices you, Maya, which is a miracle considering how fat you are. You a short and fat and you make me sick.

I think back to earlier- the mag I saw before. Losing weight seemed to be my only hope. I decide upon a strict low calorie diet and am determined to stick to it.

Riley's POV

Maya is due to come over to dinner today.

'Riley, honey, would you mind laying the table?' calls Mom

At that moment the buzzer rings 'Hey losers, it's Maya'

'Ok mom, give me a sec,' I respond to my mom. I press the buzzer and reply 'Come on up, sis!'

I lay out the plates and fill up the glasses before Maya enters.

''Sup?' she says 'What's for dinner tonight?'

Maya has been eating at ours a lot lately. Her mother Katy has been struggling with the bills and having to work extra shifts means that she won't be home in time for dinner. Dad suggested that she could come to ours until things get sorted and maybe Katy gets a more stable job.

'Chicken casserole, Maya, you like?'

'Um, yeah,' she replys 'thanks for having me '

'Anytime, Maya,'

Maya's POV

That mealtime is filled with continuous conversation and I am so engaged that I eat my entire meal without noticing. I glance down at my plate in horror.

'What's up? You still hungry?' says Topanga's concerned voice

'No, thank you, Mrs Matthews,' I hurriedly say 'I'll be back' and speed off to the restroom which is next to Auggie's room.

I shut the door and kneel by the toilet. I hurriedly force my fingers down my throat and the evening's dinner leaves my system. I wipe my eyes and reapply the eyeliner which had been streaked by the door, I'm taken aback to see none other than little Auggie Matthews stood outside the door.

'Maya, are you okay?' helooks at me concerned

'I'm okay Auggie, really.' I reply with a smile.

He blocks my way back and says

'I know you puked, Maya'

I look at him and say 'I'm fine,'

'No Maya, you have to tell Mommy that you're not well,'

'Here catch,' I say and toss him a five bucks

'Okay, fair enough,' he says and walks back without a word.

-LINE BREAK-

1 MONTH LATER

I stare in the mirror once more.

Maya, why can't you stop being weak minded and really lose weight. If this is your idea of perfection then you'd better realise you are far from it.

And from that moment, I begin on a long fast which I don't intend to break unless I achieve perfection.

-LINE BREAK-

It's day six of my fast when I press the buzzer to Riley's flat.

'Come on up, Maya!' says Mrs Matthews voice

As I approach the door, my vision begins to blur and I collapse, the world growing into an unbreakable darkness.

Riley's POV

'Hey, Riles, Maya's headed our way!' calls Daddy

I'm worried about Maya. I intend to have a long talk at the window and find out what's going on with her. The ast two months , she hasn't seemed...like Maya.

I wait five minutes then grow impatient.

Mom, didn't you say that Maya was on the way up?' I call

'Yes, honey, why, isn't she hear yet?' my mom asks, a hint of worry in her voice

'No,'

' Maybe she's talking to someone...'

'Maybe...'

Five minutes turn to ten, ten turn to fifteen and now I'm in a state of worry.

Maya would be here by now.

'Mom, I'm going to find Maya!' I yell and run for the door.

I open the door and yell in fright when I see my best friend unconscious outside our apartment door.

Cory's POV

I squeeze Riley's hand. I don't say anything, but I am seriously worried about Maya. Shawn, Katy, Topanga, Riley, Lucas, Farkle and I are waiting to hear the outcome.

'Hello, are you the friends and family of Miss Maya Hart?' question a young female doctor with a clipboard.

'Yes, yes, tell us the news!' says Shawn stepping forward.

'Well, after some tests, we have discovered that Miss Hart collapsed due to the lack of food. We found that she has been starving herself and throwing up what little calorie intake se had. She has not eaten for six and a half dayss. We have come to the conclusion that she is bulimic. I'm sorry,'

I feel sick. I failed her. I can see by Shawn's face that he feels the same. Riley buries her face in my shirt and sobs.

Maya, how could you feel like that?

-THE DAY MAYA CAME HOME-

Maya's POV

It's after a full, but small meal that I'm sat with Riley and Mr Matthews at the window.

'Maya, why?' Riley says. She's been quiet all dinner.

'I wanted perfection,' I say truthfully.

Mr Matthews gives me a long talk and afterwards lets me leave after promising him to never try something like that again.

I feel loved. Guilty for doing this to everyone.

-ONE MONTH LATER-

On the scale from one to ten,

I am perfect how I am,

I don't need your number

I don't need your number,

Recovery has been hard. But no matter what, I know that along with Riley, I have people there for me. Those who mind, don't matter and those who don't mind matter. That's what they said at support group.

And the stupid magazines
Want me to change my everything
It don't even matter
They're not taking my power (taking my power)

Every time I look at the magazines, I realise how badly I fell for it. Never again, I think, never again.

I'm so over all of these voices around,
They've said enough, it's my turn, let's get loud.

I have support group sessions twice a week. Shawn has been great, dropping me off and picking me up. He really cares. It's my turn to say my views on perfection. I stand up.

'I think, that, no matter who you are, you are beautiful, inside and out. The media, they try to influence us- not just girls, boys too,' I say and nod at two boys who are in the group. 'I think that I am as beautiful as I'll ever be and I'm not going down again'

I'll show you what a girl is,
'cause all of me is perfect.
Who cares about a dress size,
Its all about what's inside.
I'll stand up now
And won't back down.
We're breaking through the surface,
To show you what a girl is.

All my aims of becoming size zero all seem a waste. A costly waste. I Maya Hart almost lost my life to this. I Maya Hart, have a second chance to change the world.

I'm feeling flawless in my skin
Your words don't mean anything.
I'm done wasting my time (done wasting my time)
I can make up my own mind. (can make up my own mind

With constant reassurance from the people who I am honored enough to call my family, I am becoming unbroken.

It's been 4 months, a gruelling four months. But I know that I'll get there.

-LINE BREAK-

(THE EVENTS OF GIRL MEETS TEXAS HAPPENS ONE WEEK AFTER THIS. IT IS NOW TWO WEEKS AFTER THEIR RETURN)

Lucas and I are going on a date. I am wearing a teal dress, tights and black heels. I am also wearing a leather jacket.

I come outside Topanga's to see Huckleberry waiting for me. His jaw drops and I say,

'You don't like? I can go change-'

I'm interrupted by Lucas' lips crashing onto mine. And in that moment, that's all that matters to me.

'I love you, Lucas,' I say

'So I'm not a Huckleberry anymore?' He chuckles

'You'll always be a Huckleberry, Ranger Rick. But you're my Huckleberry now'

I'll show you what a girl is,
'cause all of me is perfect.
Who cares about the dress size
Its all about what's inside.
I'll stand up now, and won't back down.
We're breaking through the surface,
To show you what a girl is.
We're breaking through the surface,
To show you what a girl is.

A/N: Woah, that was way longer than expected. I hope you all enjoyed this! Please Review!

~SibunaMockingjay