Beautiful nightmare. That is the perfect way to describe my life right now. It's beautiful and amazing and exciting and new. I have amazing powers, nine lives, and two amazing guys like me... well only one now I guess. And sometimes I can embrace that, I can embrace my life and how wonderful it can be, I get excited to go to practice and train with Alek and Jasmine... But then I guess thats where the nightmare begins. I guess it will just be me and Alek now I wonder if Alek will still make me train, knowing him he'll probably make me train harder than ever before. Alek, well Alek is just Alek he's another part of my beautiful nightmare. He's beautiful, heartbreakingly so, and he loves me, and will do anything to protect me and the ones I love, and he loves me but as much as I want to be able to say I love him, I know I can't because I'm in love with Brian, a dead man that I killed. All because of some stupid curse that makes it so mai can't kiss humans. And the worst part is that I wish that Brian never existed or that he stayed in that college of his or whatever he wanted to do, I just wish I never met him because if I had never met him I would have never loved him and right now I would be somewhere with Alek madly in love with him and we would be grieving the loss of Valentina and Jasmine together. But most of all if I had never met Brian, if I had never loved him, I wouldn't be heartbroken right now, and neither would Alek.