I want to bleed.
I want nothing more than to bleed.
To see crimson liquid leaking out of me.
The blood feels hot underneath my skin.
I want to release it.
I want to let it flow away, let all my secrets be washed away.
I want to die.
I want to see my life flashing before my eyes.
I want to leave this harsh reality.
Where I can get any girl I want,
But not the one I actually want.
Lucy.
Her blonde hair shimmering in the moonlight.
Probably coming from a date with that pink-haired bastard.
I want her to casually glance at the alley.
I want to be found by her.
The one girl that could make me do anything.
I want her to find my bloody remains.
See her name carved into my chest.
and think of how she did this to me,
and how if she only reciprocated my love,
none of this would have happened.
I want her to scream.
I want her voice to get caught on the end of my name.
As she yells to the stars above.
"Gr-... Oh god, Gray! GRAAAAY!"
She'll shriek.
Music to my dead ears.
I want to Natsu to be distraught.
I want to see him sink into depression
Over how badly I loved her.
And how he took her from me.
I want their lives ruined by my love.
It I can't have her, no one can.
Even in death, she's mine.
Lucy.