~'Cause that's all he wrote
I wish that I could turn this car back around
But he's got a boyfriend now~
Finn sighed as he lay down on his bed, thinking about how only days earlier, something amazing had taken place, and of course he had realized it too late. If only he had realized that the most amazing, passionate experience he had ever felt in his life, would never happen again.
Their lips pressed roughly together as Finn continued, he and Kurt were overcome with lust and passion and it had come out in this...this incredible feeling that was new to both boys.
With a final grunt, Finn collapsed beside him, panting heavily. He held the smaller boy in his arms.
"Oh Kurt…that was amazing."
"You're amazing."
"So are you."
Why couldn't he have said 'I love you' then? They could've been together, had each other, and none of this would be happening.
But he didn't.
Kurt has Blaine now.
And now Finn's sitting at home, alone, while the love of his life is off doing god knows what with his new boy toy.
Finn was upset, hurt, torn. Part of him stubbornly believed that Blaine wasn't good enough for Kurt, and that no one else would ever be.
But deep down he knew Blaine was a great guy, and he truly cared for Kurt and Kurt loved him.
Finn sighed; it wasn't that long ago when he was the object of the boy's affection.
"I honestly love you."
Oh how he wished he could go back to that day so he could say "I love you too." He wished he could hold him in his arms forever, never letting anything hurt him, keeping him safe and warm, always.
~What hurts the most was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing what could have been
And not seeing that loving you was what I was trying to do~
Kurt sat down on a bench, his head resting against his hands. He loved Blaine more than anything, but after he had had such an intimate and passionate moment with Finn, the guy he was completely in love with before, the thought of him lingered in his mind. The taste of his hot, deep kisses still lingered on his lips. The touch of his strong, calloused hands still lingered on his skin.
And the love he had still lingered in his heart.
"Kurt? Are you okay?" Blaine was asking, seeing the distress on his boyfriend's face.
"Fine," Kurt sighed. "Just tired."
Blaine wasn't dissuaded by Kurt's dismissal. "I'm not blind, Kurt. Or deaf, or dumb, or completely oblivious, now out with it." Blaine demanded.
Kurt bit his trembling lower lip. Even though what happened took place right before he and Blaine became official, he still felt like he couldn't tell him something like this. He slept with his step brother; many people wouldn't take well to that, especially his boyfriend.
But Kurt was a terrible liar, and he knew he couldn't hold the truth back for long. "I-I…I had sex with Finn….right before we got together." He finally admitted.
The colour drained from Blaine's face. He didn't know how to react. Part of him wanted to be angry, part of him wanted to be disgusted, but most of him was just hurt and confused.
"He's your step brother for crying out loud!" He spat with more animosity than he intended to.
"I was in love with him before you and I met." He admitted in a shy, sheepish tone.
Blaine started pacing, but stopped when he was facing away from Kurt. "Are you in love with him now?"
Silence.
"Are you?"
Silence.
"Kurt, say something!" He turned to face the smaller boy.
"I don't know."
Blaine turned away, coldly. "Well let me know when you do." He said and walked off.