#01 - Motion
Sonny is faster than Fillmore, but back then he would slow down to keep pace with his friend.
#02 - Cool
Sonny didn't think being gangster was cool; it was just all his family knew how to do.
#03 - Young
Back then, with both their dads unemployed, they split one lunch between the two of them every day.
#04 - Last
Every time that he goes out to do wrong, he swear it'll be the last time he ever hurts someone.
#05 - Wrong
And as Fillmore points out, voice full of anger and betrayal, every time Sonny says that, he's lying.
#06 - Gentle
After all is said and done, his reformed partner will stand there on the free side of the detention cell, and gently ask if this is really who he wants to be.
#07 - One
One day, Fillmore used to maintain, Sonny will change permanently.
#08 - Thousand
A thousand years might as well have passed since then; Sonny's got a gun pressed to his former friend's head, and his finger shakes on the trigger.
#09 - King
Way back then, when life was simple, Sonny was the king of crime and the world was a playground.
#10 - Learn
"Well," Fillmore spat at him through clenched teeth, "I guess I learned something today: there isn't good in everyone after all!"
#11 - Blur
Sonny wants to say he's sorry, but in a sudden black and white blur of motion he finds himself pinned down by a white girl with green eyes and a police pistol, and he knows it's too late.
#12 - Wait
Every time they pass each other in the halls, Fillmore tells himself that he just has to wait for karma to kick in, and then Sonny'll be sorry.
#13 - Change
"I want to change, Cornelius, I really do, I just can't with things looming over me!" Sonny pleaded, eyes full of tears.
#14 - Command
Suddenly, Fillmore yanked the younger man to his feet and commanded him to tell him who had what over Sonny's head.
#15 - Hold
It's easier to tell icy, gruff, blunt Officer Fillmore everything if he closes his eyes and holds on to the mental image of twelve year old Fillmore, trusting and caring and familiar.
#16 - Need
He needs to save Sonny, because even now that they're in their twenties, he feels he has to earn his redemption for how he used to be.
#17 - Vision
Somedays, they look at each other and get visions of how things could have turned out if Wayne had never changed Fillmore; the resulting mental images aren't pretty, to say the least.
#18 - Attention
Fillmore laughed out loud in the school counselor's office when she said Sonny was attention whore.
#19 - Soul
Somewhere down there, under the hatred and greed and fear, there's a soul worth saving - but when he thinks that, Fillmore isn't sure if he means himself or Sonny anymore.
#20 - Picture
There's a picture in his NYPD locker of him and Sonny circa grade five.
#21 - Fool
"Let me tell you something right now: If you're playing me for a fool this time, I won't arrest you, I'll hand you over to Vallejo's SWAT team and tell them you're armed, and that's a promise, Sonny."
#22 - Mad
He was absolutely mad to think Sonny was being honest this time around.
#23 - Child
Somedays Fillmore wonders if he's really grown up that much from the naieve child he used to be.
#24 - Now
"Officer Cornelius Q. Fillmore, please tell the court, in your own words, what you saw the suspect do on the night of the twenty fifth..."
#25 - Shadow
Even though he's escourting his former best friend to prison, he can't look at him, so he looks at his shadow instead.
#26 - Goodbye
He says goodbye, but Fillmore doesn't answer, too disappointed and infuriated to speak.
#27 - Hide
During the media hayday surrounding Sonny's trial, Fillmore finds it easiest to go over to Ingrid's and hide out for a few days, eating Chinese food and ignoring the world.
#28 - Fortune
It hits him, laying awake one night, how fortunate he is that he isn't the one being executed right now.
#29 - Safe
Oddly enough, Sonny feels safest here in prison, where everyone gives the dead men walking wide berths.
#30 - Ghost
The Fillmore he used to know, he realizes quietly, is dead, without even a ghost of his thug self left behind.
#31 - Book
There was a time Sonny used to keep other kids from stealing Fillmore's books.
#32 - Eye
Sonny remembers the day that Fillmore nearly lost his vision; it's Sonny's fault, but no one else knows that.
#33 - Never
"You've finally done it," Officer Fillmore says coldly, escourting him to the electric chair, "You've finally been so bad even I'll never forgive you. Congrats, man. You're a real 'gangsta' now."
#34 - Sing
The days of rapping in the talent show together are how Sonny hopes he'll be remembered.
#35 - Sudden
About halfway to his car, he breaks down into tears, and Officer Third has to drive them back to the NYPD.
#36 - Stop
Sonny used to stop kids from picking on him; when did that compassion get choked out by greediness?
#37 - Time
In his own mind, Fillmore divided Sonny into two people from two different times, and thus disconnected himself from this current nightmare.
#38 - Wash
The bloodstains on his police uniform from where the victim's blood splattered never did come out, even in a cold wash.
#39 - Torn
Ingrid privately thinks this whole drama is like something torn from a paperback novel.
#40 - History
"If the words 'we got history' ever come out of my mouth again, Third, kick my ass immediately."
#41 - Power
Absolute power corrupts absolutely - and in Sonny's case, so did the vague dream of absolute power.
#42 - Bother
He doesn't bother to attend the funeral or send flowers; it's over as far as he's concerned.
#43 - God
Still, when he's in church he does quietly wonder if he did everything he could have, and hopes God understands that he tried.
#44 - Wall
Every brick wall with a chain link fence nearby reminds him of his fallen partner.
#45 - Naked
He's seen a lot of sick things on this job, but the naked and dismembered body in Sonny's trunk is the only thing that haunts him, because it's the only death he believes he truly could've prevented.
#46 - Drive
Every so often, he drives by their old neighborhood, just because he can.
#47 - Harm
Sonny was once the kind of kid who never harmed a fly that landed on him, but oh, how time can change a person.
#48 - Precious
Even though it all ended so badly, quietly he still holds precious those days where they were two innocent kids rapping lamely in time to even lamer songs.
#49 - Hunger
He'll never split a meal with someone, no matter how hungry he is; it brings up memories he'd rather not have replayed in his mind today.
#50 - Believe
In the end, he's not sure what to believe, or whether he was right or wrong - and that is what keeps him up at night.