AUTHORS NOTE: Ok, so this is the first fanfiction I've ever published, so don't be expecting gold. I've spent weeks on this chapter, trying to make it as good as I can, but without reviews I wont know what to change, or what I'm good at or am lacking in. Oh well. Even reviews saying how awful I am at writing and how I should stop trying, or something like that's encouraged. I want honest opinions. And It's rated M for a reason. the first chapter is T, but I have plans for later on (MUAHAHAHAHAHA) But seriously. the farther chapters get, It will be very, detailed and inappropriate ;). Well, enough of me. Happy reading!
SUMMARY: Nico's liked Percy for years now, but he's starting to get desperate. He'll do anything to get the boy of his dreams, but never knew how far he'd have to go, but with help from his friends, it might all work out... Or become a smoking crater of despair in his mind forever...
Chapter 1: Something Secret
I never meant to have a crush on him. I mean, I know you don't choose who you have a crush on, but have like, almost no friends, one best friend, and you fall hopelessly in love with him. No, no, no, love is a strong word. It's just a crush. I hope it's just a crush. *sigh* Good job Nico. Oh well, what can you do. Anyway, in case you couldn't figure it out already, I'm just a little bit, barely, the teensiest bit... Completely gay, but no one knows. I know what you're thinking "Oh just another coming out story/love story, filled with fluffy rainbow mush" but hey, just hear me out.
So my friend Percy Jackson, heard of him? Of course you have, who hasn't. Well, I've known I've had special feelings for him since the eighth grade, but he's sadly, hopelessly straight. What chance do I have, right? Why don't i just give up on him, right? Because it's not that easy! Four years I've been friends with him, three I've like liked him, two I've been trying to like what he likes, and nothing special happened within the past year. It's hopeless though, he likes sports and parties, I like reading and listening to music. Yippee. So we're really good friends, we hang out after school, sleep over at each others houses, play sports together (I know, awful right?) But recently my feelings have grown. I've resorted to creeping sneak peeks while he's changing during gym, sleeping over more often, joining him when he plays things like Soccer or Frisbee, maybe the odd time I've 'fallen' on top of him during sports, and trying my hardest to always sit by him in , however, after school, we had a little awkward conversation.
"Hey Nico! Get your butt over here!" Percy yelled playfully at me from across the soccer field. I put down my book and walked over to him, and he said "We're gonna start a soccer game. Wanna join?"
"Oh, um... Sure, I guess. Yeah lets play." I said, trying to sound enthusiastic, but secretly wanting to go back over to my book. Mary just broke up with Jeremy, and Lucas is glad! Who could walk away from a book like that! Anyway, I went to get onto the field and take my place when he grabbed my wrist, pulling me back.
"Dude, you don't have to play if you don't want to. I wont care." Percy said, smiling, somehow sensing my discomfort. "I wont be offended or anything." He added.
"No man, I love doing things with you. Anything for you." I said, slightly dreamily at the last bit, without thinking. I suddenly looking away, desperately trying to hide my burning cheeks.
"Erm... ok. Yeah... We'll hang out later to make up for it, I'll buy pizza. We can invite Rachel and Grover and Annabeth! A little Friday night party! You up for it?" Percy asked. I can't believe how easily he gets carried away. I agreed, hoping he didn't catch my little slip of the tongue. We started the game, with Percy and I on a team with the Stoll brothers, against Charlie Beckandorf, Silena Beauregard, Grover, Rachel and Annabeth. Charlie had the ball and was racing to Travis Stoll in the net. Percy and I were running to stop the behemoth, and i had an idea. I ran faster and passed the ball to Connor Stoll and 'tripped' onto Percy. We rolled and tumbled, laughing, until I was lying on my back, and Percy above me in a push up position, our faces only a few centimeters away from each other. We started laughing again until our sides hurt, and Percy got up and extended his perfect hand. I grabbed it and he pulled me up, seeming blissfully unaware that I was blushing like mad.
Our team ended up winning five to three, and our little gang met up, allowing Charlie and Silena to go off and be the perfect, happy, lovebirds they were. I accidentally sighed, loud, while watching them leave. Annabeth looked at me and asked what was wrong, Percy and Grover were still talking about the game, but Rachel... She was watching me, in a weird way. I looked back at her and quietly said nothing to Annabeth, and Rachel just went back to doing whatever it is the Rachel does. Annabeth still looked concerned, and was about to say something when I interrupted her, saying "So guys, Pizza, My place, Right now." They all said yes as quickly as they could, and we hopped on the bus, me beside Percy, obviously.
We got off and went up to my apartment. I went in first, greeted by my father, Hades, about to leave. "Oh. Hello son. Good day?" He asked, ignoring the group of people behind me.
"It was ok, I guess. Are you leaving?" I asked, confused. He never leaves the house. He works from home, writing.
"I, well. I... Have a date" He admitted, blushing. Two things. One, I've never seen my father blush since Mom and Bianca died. Two, he's never dated anyone since Mom and Bianca died.
Not wanting to have this conversation go on any further, I stepped out of his way, muttered "good luck" and went inside with my friends.
Right when we stepped in, Percy pulled out his debit card and laid it flat on the table. "what types of pizza do you guys want? Make it quick, I'm staaaaaarving" He said. And yes, by the way, he did say staaaaaarving, not starving. Rachel and Annabeth said Vegetarian, Grover said Meat lovers, and I said Pepperoni. Percy picked up the phone and ordered three large pizzas. All Pepperoni.
Grover didn't mind, I certainly didn't mind, but Rachel and Annabeth groaned. "What?" He asked. "You guys aren't vegetarians, you can eat meat."
"But meat is more unhealthy!" The girls said in unison, making me smile Percy simply said "too late" and stuck out his tongue, making me giggle. Yes, I can giggle! Just because I look gothic or whatever doesn't mean I cant giggle! Uggh.
So we all sat down, but i only own a three person couch, and a love seat, but guess which two people got the love seat! Damn right, Me and Percy! Right when Percy and I sat down, Rachel asks, out of the blue, "So Nico, ever had a girlfriend? You've never talked about one, but we've been friends since, like, grade nine!"
This surprised me, and i simply said "Never." Sparking oohs and ahhs, and a bit of chuckling from everyone. "What about a boyfriend?" she asked, raising an eyebrow. A skill I could never, for the life of me, learn. So that little comment made the other three burst out laughing, but Rachel sat there staring at me, with her damn eyebrow still raised. I hope she couldn't see i was redder than a tomato.
When Percy stopped laughing he just smiled, mussed up my hair and said "Lay off him guys, he'll find the perfect man someday" Again, making me blush more than i thought was possible. The weird thing was, Rachel never laughed or smiled. She just sat there with the eyebrow raised.
Before I could say anything, Grover cut me off asking to play truth or dare until the pizza arrives. Everyone agreed and Since it was Grover's idea, we let him go first. He asked Annabeth, and she said truth. Grover thought for a little bit, then asked the simplest thing in the history of truth or dare. "Who do you have a crush on?"
Annabeth blushed and muttered something that nobody could hear, causing a chorus of boos and thumbs down. "All right all right! It's Luke!" she exclaimed. She looked sad though. Must be because Luke moved away last year, and forgot to give anyone his phone number. But she perked up as soon as she remembered the game and said what I was fearing.
"Nico, truth or dare?"I said dare, because I knew she would ask me the same question that she was asked. Wouldn't that be fun, saying you like the guy next to you. She smirked and said "Pick a song on your Ipod, play it, and sing it all. No mistakes allowed!" I looked through my phone, but looked at Percy for just a second, but that look decided what I would sing. I picked my song, turned up the volume as high as it would go, stood up and faced my dream boy, and began to sing "Missing" by Evanescence
Please, please, forgive me
But I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious, you'll say to no one
"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please, forgive me
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
When the song ended, everyone looked at me like I had two heads. Everyone was just looking at me with jaws dropped until Rachel (of course she would be the one to speak up) said "That was... Deep. You're a great singer Nico, but, interesting song choice..." After saying this, her lips turned up, just slightly. 'Finally, the enigmatic Rachel Dare has smiled' I thought. I looked back at Percy, who was... Looking confused.
'OH MY GOD' I thought. 'I sang the entire song looking at him! I chose the song because it was how I felt about Percy, but did he understand that? Now he's going to ask about it when everyone leaves! What will I say? Oh my g...' my thoughts were interrupted by Annabeth reminding me about the game. I sat down as fast as i could and we continued the game, but I wasn't enjoying it anymore. Every so often I could see in the corner of my eye, Percy was looking at me, Still confused looking and red-faced. Fuck.
We kept playing until the buzzer rang, saying the Pizza guy was here. I buzzed him up and took the Pizza, and we all sat on the couch, but now I wasn't to glad I was beside Percy. He stopped looking at me after a while though, which is good, because he started talking and smiling again. We picked up our game and Rachel dared me to kiss Percy, on the cheek.I stared at her until Grover just said "Well, go on then!" I looked at Percy and he just laughed and shrugged his shoulders. I leaned over slowly, unsure of if i should kiss for a long time, or just a quick peck, or in between. When my lips reached his flawless cheek my face tingled. It was the most amazing moment of my life! There I was, kissing the boy of my dreams!
The kiss lasted only a second, but it was a second I'd remember forever. Rachel just laughed while Percy and I were blushing so much, you'd think we had a tanning accident. The game kept going with little things like what Grover likes in a girl (he just said Juniper, his girlfriend), how Rachel prefers guys to be hairless, and Percy and Annabeth had to slow dance (one of the worst moments of my life).
Right before I started my dare from Rachel to give Percy a lap dance (We're talking tomorrow, she and I) My father walked in. A second later and I would have died, but everyone started laughing at the close call. "You're all still here? It's midnight! I think its time for you guys to go. Percy, are you staying the night again?" Hades asked. Without even asking me he said "Sure!" We said our goodbyes to our friends and Hades kicked us off to bed, and went to his room, not saying anything more.
Percy and I walked over to my room, and I grabbed my sweatpants and went to go to the bathroom to change for bed, when Percy said "Dude we change in front of each other all the time after gym, just strip to your boxers and go to bed." He said, yawning. I looked over my shoulder, and he was doing just that. I watched as he grabbed the base of his tight V-neck tee-shirt, pulling it up and over his head, messing up his jet black hair. He had sculpted pecs, perfect abs, and the same black happy trail. Percy undid his belt, and took off his pants, slowly, but probably because he was tired. He was wearing loose, plaid blue boxers, showing his toned legs with a minimal amount of body hair, a perfect, round butt, and... Well, a large bulge in the front. He started to look over at me, but I quickly turned back around and took off my shirt and pants, leaving me in grey boxer briefs, showing my near hairless body. I have pubic hair, the beginning of a happy trail, and a bit of under arm hair. Thats it. I Looked over at him, already in my bed (Yes, when we spend the night we sleep in the same bed. Shut up) and he said "Don't be shy Nicky, get in bed and go to sleep." I frowned at him, and tossed my pants on top of him. I hate it when people call me Nicky. He just laughed and pulled me onto the bed.
"Goodnight Nicky" He said with puppy eyes. He knows how much I hate that, so I hit him in the face with a pillow. "Oh, It's on" Percy yelled. He grabbed his pillow and started wailing on me. I laughed and pushed him onto his back by his perfect chest, and jumped on top of him. I beat him with the pillow as much as I could, until he us rolled over and was above me, like during the soccer game. He threw down his pillow and started tickling me! If you don't know, I'm probably the most ticklish person in the world. I was kicking and screaming while he moved his fingers all across my torso like spiders skating on ice.
I must have been laughing really loud because my dad walked in, surprising Percy, making him stop tickling. He sat up, and by that I mean he sat on my crotch. It took all my self-control not to get a hard on right there. Wouldn't that have been hard to explain! Shocked by our awkward position, Hades just said "Go to be, and keep it down" and left as quickly as he could. We just giggled and went back to our spots to sleep.
I felt Percy's fingers creeping towards me under the sheets and whispered "Any closer and you die in your sleep" half serious.
"Ok ok. Feisty, aren't we?" He said, with a hint of a smile on his face.
Fifteen minutes later he was snoring. Loud. I took this as a chance to pretend I was asleep, roll over, and put an arm around him, like I try every night we're together (shut up). But just like every night, he woke up right after I put it on, and put it back by my side. The first few times, this saddened me, but now, I expect it. It still hurts deep inside, that he subconsciously shy's away from my touch. I woke up again a few hours later around 3:45. I'd taken all the blankets, Leaving Percy with none. I was about to put some back on him, when a cloud uncovered the moon, illuminating his body. It was like my own personal show (Shut. Up.) I got a closer look and noticed the faintest traces of chest hair. I must have missed that when we were undressing. I looked down, and noticed his boxers were slightly pulled down, displaying most of his pubic hair. It was just a shade darker than the rest of his hair. Unable to control myself, I lightly caressed the hair, and moved slowly downwards, onto the best part. He jumped at the touch, and I recoiled, but he didn't wake up, and I started up again. I could tell Percy liked the friction, because he almost instantly was at full size, and let me tell you, it was... Well, overwhelming. He had about two and a half more inches of length than I did, and more girth. Then suddenly I thought about what I was doing. Percy trusted me, and here I was, molesting him in his sleep! I felt horrible. I felt dirty. I gave him back his covers and turned to face away from him. I used my best friend, almost my brother, without him knowing, to help my sick, twisted lust! I felled tears pricking in the backs of my eyes, so I tried not to think about it and went to sleep.
I woke up to Percy shrieking"NICO NICO NICO. GET UP, YOUR APARTMENTS ON FIRE! WE HAVE TO LEAVE" I jumped out of bed and put on my pants as fast as I could and turned around to see Percy holding my shirt, laughing. I slapped him, saying something along the lines of 'you asshole' making him laugh even louder. "Your dad went for another date and wouldn't make me breakfast, so I want you too. And you make the best face when you're scared. You knit your eyebrows together and get all wide-eyed." I gave him a death glare, making him throw my shirt at me and walk away, saying "call me when it's ready, I'm gonna take a shower." I growled at him, put on my shirt and went into the kitchen and started mixing pancake batter and frying some bacon.
Right when I finished cooking and setting the table, he walked out with just a towel around his waist. "do you have any decency?" I said while smirking. I was perfectly all right with this, but he couldn't know that. He just grinned back and started eating.
When we finished eating (well, when I finished eating. He finished ten minutes before me) I looked up and smiled at him. "What? What did I do" he asked, confused.
"You have syrup dripping down your nipple!" I exclaimed, not able to contain my laughter. He looked at his chest and wiped it off, and smeared it on the towel, grinning again. After we cleaned up I said "Ok, you gotta go home now. I'm leaving."
"I have no plans for today, I can come" He said. "Ok then. I'm going clothes shopping" He said see ya later and left right then. Percy hates clothes shopping. When he was out the door, I called Rachel saying "You, me, mall, twenty minutes." She agreed and I left.
When we met at the mall we set down in the food court, but before I could say anything, she said "So you want to know what I was doing last night?" Damn it. How did she know? I nodded and she said "It's quite obvious you're gay Nico, It's no secret. We all know" she said with a smirk. I sat there, dumbfounded with jaw on the floor. "Are you gonna put your face together and talk or are we going to talk?"
I looked at her, confused for a second, then asked "How did yo..." but she cut me off saying "First off, just the general way you look at guys and play sports, when you obviously can't stand them, but get all excited when you get asked, and how you always happen to trip on Percy when we play games. And how you blushed when Percy and I made our boyfriend comments, and you sang a song about loving someone who doesn't know you love them. I mean, Duh. Could it be anymore obvious. So anyways, who do you like?" I couldn't believe her.
She knew everything that I was trying to hide. "No one" I said, but she shook her head.
"Yeah right. Hmm, lets see. Charlie, Connor, Travis, Lee, Grover, Luke, Percy, AH HA!" she exclaimed, making everyone around us turn and look at the crazy girl screaming.
"What's so ah ha?" I asked, confused.
"When I said Percy, you blushed, but didn't blush at any of the other names" she said, smiling, making me blush again. "Nico, Nico, Nico. your cheeks give you away, and I already knew it was Percy, but I wanted to have you show it. It's funny to watch you get embarrassed. You sang your love song, which was really good by the way, remember that, while looking into his eyes."
I turned away and said a quiet 'fine', almost a whisper, and thought 'I hate smart people'.
"I knew that one day you'd be asking me for help, so I already have a plan to get you your luscious boy toy. Get ready though. It's nearly foolproof, but you may be surprised with it..."
AUTHORS NOTE: So there we go. I hope you enjoyed it, and if not, tell me why you didn't so I can make it better. But I'm not taking out the bit with the song. I love fanfictions when someone sings, and you can read the lyrics while listening to the song and imagining the scenario. And I'll try to keep this going for a few chapters, but If no one reviews ever I might just give up, so don't hold back. I'm not an attention whore, just don't want someone to be like "Oh I liked that story. Why did they stop?"