Disclaimer: I don't own McFLY, Fletch, or their relatives - that'd be sick! But of course plot and some other characters are a product of my twisted imagination.
Summary: So, basically, Dougie did some things he wouldn't have done if he wasn't drunk, but those actions led him to discover emotions and feelings towards one of his friends - emotions and feelings he didn't know he had. They both spent a year together, but problems come when this other guy found out that he wasn't the only one in Dougie's mind. The fiction takes place around xmas time, a year before the following conversation in the prologue was held. The whole fic goes from that xmas eve to this conversation and onwards.
Feel free to check my other fictions, and I hope you enjoy this one! It will be a slash fiction, so be aware of that. Also, it's my first slash so keep that in mind while reading lol.
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Ellie
Prologue
It was a late Sunday night, and he had got home only a few minutes before. His eyes were glowing, and his lips were curled into a smile he couldn't prevent from appearing in his face. He removed his hood and took a chance to mess with his hair putting his blond fringe over his face, right above his perfect eyes. I looked at him from the door frame of the kitchen, where I'd been standing with that bottle of gin for a while now, thinking – or attempting to do so.
I'd been thinking about this for a while now, and although it would be the hardest thing I'd ever do, it seemed the perfect moment to tell him. I couldn't keep on acting like nothing was going on when I knew exactly where that glow and that smile came from. The time spent with Doug had both been the happiest and the saddest of my life, and even though I knew it was a low price to pay in order to be with him I just couldn't handle it anymore. I thought that Dougie and I weren't serious, that we were just fooling around like we used to do. Only with kissing and touching and – you know, experimenting. I thought that I didn't have feelings for him, besides loving him as my best friend, and that this would end sooner or later once the infatuation was over. 'I've got everything under control' I always lied to myself, wanting to believe that I hadn't actually fallen for him. How could that have been possible and when exactly it had happened, I didn't know but it would've probably have to be somewhere in the last three months, when the issues started and my head became aware of the situation.
Those blue eyes looked for me, and when they locked with mine, that smile changed. He gulped, and came closer to me.
It's now or never.
Dougie took his hand from his side and placed it on my low back, bringing me closer to him.
Tell him, you'll regret doing this later.
But when I opened my mouth to speak, his lips quickly pressed against mine – as if reading my mind and preventing me from taking that away from us. My hand had found its way to tug from his shirt and pull him even nearer, struggling on the inside. I couldn't help but want him there and then, but I knew I'd hate myself the next morning if I played along with him for the millionth time.
'Doug,' I said when I managed to escape his grip, looking away from him.
a year before