I have always wanted to do a Kuroshitsuji fanfic and now I finally got an idea.

Enjoy!

Grell didn't know what to do. In his arms was a nearly newborn child, his newborn child. He knows he couldn't keep her, William would never let him, even if it is his child too. Grell is standing on the roof top, looking down at the people, holding the child close to his heart, he know one person who can take care of her. A person that will let him visit her as many times as he wants. He jumps down into an alley and walks out on the street. He knew where he is going, he has been there many times, and now it will be harder to leave this time.

He stood outside the shop, he looks up and reads the very familiar sign. Undertaker, an old friend. He looks down on his daughter, her beautiful sleeping face. He kisses her forehead and then walks into the shop. He looks around and sees all the coffins as always. A voice was heard and Grell turns around to see his old friend.

"Heeeellllooooo, Greeeeeellllll!" undertaker says and comes out from one of the coffins. "What brings you here?" Grell looks at him and then down at his daughter.

"This, this is why I came here." He says and holds out the child. Undertaker gets up from the coffin and walks to Grell. He looks at the child and then gasps.

"This is a… child. A child of a shinigami." He strokes the child's head and then looks at Grell. "Is it yours?"

"Yes, mine and William's." Grell says and holds the child close. "he doesn't know, and he will make me give her away to a human."

Undertaker walks away and sits on one of the coffins, he gazes into Grell's eyes, like he's asking him what he is doing there. Grell's eyes watered and threatened to spill over.

"Oh Undertaker, please take care of her for me. If not, I will never be able to see her again." Grell cried, he knows that if Undertaker doesn't take her he will never see her again.

Grell's sobs woke the child up and she started to cry herself, feeling that something was going on. He turned around and rocked the child back and forth while trying to sing a lullaby, but he was still crying and sobbed.

The child had stopped crying and so had Grell, but he still rocked her and tried to make her fall asleep. Grell felt a hand on his shoulder and turned his head and saw Undertaker with a smile.

"I'll take her, don't worry."

…Some days later…

Grell sat quiet at his desk, his co-workers started actually getting worried for him. He usually is loud and annoying, trying to flirt with every hot guy he saw. But now, he's only sitting at his desk playing with a pen and stare at their boss's door. William has an office on his own, because he is the boss. Grell usually sneaks into it and bother William as much as he can. But not today and not in the past days either. He hasn't been himself for a long time, he has even done his paperwork lately, and that is serious. Is he getting sick? Is he still sad over the demon butler? No, it can't be, it was several years ago, he has to get over it sometime.

Grell took away his yellow-green eyes from the door and met the eyes of his co-workers, who immediately turned away. Grell sighed and stood up, it was late and there were no more missions.

"I'm done with my paperwork now, I'll be leaving." This drew all attention at him again, he is the one that usual gets done last, and now he is first.

Ronald, the newest and youngest of them followed his senpai with his eyes when he walked out of the office and walked home. He looked at the others when he had left and they just shrugged their shoulders. Ronald got up from his chair and made his way to Grell's desk. He took up the finished paperwork and went through them fast. He then looked up and was shocked. He had actually done his paperwork that fast.

Ronald took the paper and went to the door to their boss's office. He knocked and he heard a voice say 'come in'. He walked in and closed the door after him. He had his eyes attached to the figure that was leaned over the desk in the room and wrote on some papers.

"Yes what is it Ronald?" William said without looking up. Ronald adjusted his glasses and then took a breath.

"Grell just left," he said and William stopped writing and looked up at the younger shinigami. "and all his paperwork was done correctly."

William dropped the pen and leaned back in his chair, holding his chin while he was thinking.

'This is not like Grell, he never does his paperwork and he is always the one who goes last'

"You can give me his work and then go, Ronald." He said and Ronald did as he was told. William continued thinking.

'He has been acting strange lately, and now when we finally have gotten together, he ignores me and avoids me as much has he can. He also doesn't come home at some nights. Is he cheating on me? Wasn't it this he wanted? Wasn't it me wanted?' William wondered and stood up. 'I will have to find out.'

…

Grell didn't go home, instead he went to Undertakers. He spends all his free time there, to see his lovely daughter. On his way there he thought of how it had happened.

It was one year ago.

Sebastian and Ciel had disappeared some years earlier and Grell were still mourning the loss of never see the one he loved again and being rejected over and over again. He had been searching but didn't find anything. One night he was walking aimlessly along a river. He had found the river when he started his quest for Sebastian.

Grell had started to feel sick and looked more dead than usual. He's a shinigami so he doesn't need to eat or sleep, but even a shinigami have feelings, and they works just like humans. He felt heart break for two people now. The first one happened before he met Sebastian.

It was with William. A strict workaholic, who always goes after the rules. Grell had been in love with him ever since they reaped their first soul together. Even though he didn't show it from the start, he showed it step by step. But William didn't noticed and then Grell had enough and told him straight out. William rejected him harshly and Grell still haven't gotten over it.

Then it was that lovely demon Sebastian. Grell fell in love the first time he saw him and tried the hardest to get him to fall too. But mostly it was to piss off William. But then he once again was rejected and William didn't really care if Grell was nearly killed.

These things still haunt him and he wish that the memorize could disappear. But they stay and he is tormented by them. No one cares and no one will ever do. He knows that he can be annoying and he pisses off people all the time, but all he wants is to be loved, to be wanted, to have someone that cares. But that's just wishful thinking and he knew it. But still, it would be nice.

He stopped and felt how his legs started to shake and how tears started to stream down his cheeks. He collapsed to his knees and couldn't take another step more. He felt so lonely, he wish that he would die. Btu as a shinigami he couldn't and had to live on for some more time.

Actually, he could die. He had forgotten that a shinigami could be killed by a shinigami's death scythe. He summoned his scythe and aimed it at his heart. It will be quick and beside no one will miss him. No one at all.

He started the chain saw and drew it closer to his heart, but suddenly someone grabbed it and prevented him from doing it. Grell looked up and saw William standing there, his eyes filled with rage. Grell sat there with dried tears streams on his cheek and watched his crush staring down at him.

"And what do you think you're doing, Grell Sutcliff." He said more a command than a question. Grell didn't answer, only started. "Do you have any idea of how troublesome it would be for everyone if you died," Grell shone up a bit just to be dragged down into misery again. "we are already outnumbered, if you're going to kill yourself, then wait till we get a new shinigami, at least."

Grell started to cry again, the man he loved had just saved him from death only to tell him to do it later, because they don't have a replacement of him. it was too much and William hadn't noticed it. In fact William hadn't thought that Grell would have done it and that he never will, but he changed his mind when he saw the red haired shinigami cry, he wished that he could take it back. he bent down to touch Grell's shoulder, but Grell stood up and ran away from him.

William were first shocked but ran quickly after. He felt such guilt and wanted to make it up for him. William was faster than Grell and he succeeded to grab Grell's shoulder, which not only made the flamboyant shinigami stop, but made them both fall. William fell on top of Grell and Grell tried to get away from him.

William tried to talk some sense into him but he refused to listen, so he did what he thought would calm him down. He quickly pulled his lips against Grell's and stayed there until Grell had stopped and started to kiss back. Grell did stop but he didn't kiss back. William opened his eyes and saw that Grell and closed his and were now crying harder. He took away his lips an started to hug him instead. Grell didn't hug he only whispered.

"I want to die, no one cares, I want to die please." He plead and William felt how his heart ached. What he hadn't told Grell was that he actually had fallen for him, but when Grell confessed, he had panicked and did something without thinking. When it comes to Grell he always does things and says thing without thinking. Grell just makes him that way, he is special. And now when he hears his love's wish he couldn't do anything other than cry too.

"Grell you're not going to die, I care." He whispered into Grell's ear.

"Why?" Grell answered between his sobs.

"Because I love you, Grell Sutcliff." He said and Grell stopped crying and widen his eyes, dared not to believe what he just heard and William held him harder.

…

They had then started to date and they had even moved together. But Grell wanted a child and William said it was never going to happen, for two reasons. One, they were both male and cannot carry a child, two, they wouldn't have time with a child. But Grell didn't give up, he had actually tried to found away and he did. He had found an old witch who helped him make a potion that made him carry one child.

He had drinking the potion, secretly, before he and William made love, and he got pregnant. Grell only had the child inside of for two weeks. The witch had told him that because none of them are human their child would grow faster inside of him, but then it got out it would grow fast in child age and then grow slower in older age, until it got immortal.

William hadn't noticed a thing and when the time of birth come, Grell went to the witch and she helped him. it was painful but he managed it and the child was a healthy little girl. But now the only problem was what William would say. Grell didn't want to give away his child and he definitely knew that William would make him if he found out. So his only way out was to give the child to someone close to him, someone that could take care of the child and letting him visit as much as he likes. That person was Undertaker and thanks God that he agreed with it.

Grell were now there again, outside Undertakers shop and he knew that his beautiful daughter was inside. He couldn't wait and stormed into the shop, he was met by Undertaker standing there holding the child. She was awake and played with Undertakers, long silver hair. Grell walked slowly towards them, his eye nailed on the child. Undertaker smiled and saw the mother instinct Grell had in his eyes.

The child smiled when she noticed her mother and giggled, holding out her hands towards him. Grell smiled, at least she knows who her mother is. Grell took her form Undertaker and rocked her back ad forth.

"She haaaas been and aaaaangel all daaaay. Buuut she has missed you." Undertaker said and walked over to the door. "I will be leaving, buuuuut stay as long aaaaas youuuuwaaaant." He said and walked laughing out of the shop, he closed the door and Grell was alone with his child. He stroke her head.

"Oh, my sweet little Welma, oh what I love you. And hopefully, your father will too. Yes someday he your father William will too." He said and to the giggling girl.

"Who did you say her father was?" a voice said from behind Grell and he turned quickly around startled of the unprepared man standing in the door.

Grell watched the man standing there with the moon right behind him, covering his face with shadows. But even if Grell couldn't see the man's face he already knew who it was.

"William?"

To be continued~