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Chapter 1
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I'm currently seven years old!
I'm a grown adult, being 26 years old.
I have a cute little brother, but we're twins! We look a lot alike, but people say I look really girly. I'm a boy!
I'm the youngest child in my family, having an older sister and brother. I was always teased for being the baby in the family. It didn't change even though I was a grown woman.
I'm always told that I'm incredibly smart and how I'm such a dependable big brother.
I was a slacker when I was still in school. I had never gotten serious about my life until the death of my best friend.
I love cartoons! Iza-chan and I watch them together every Sunday morning!
My parents didn't like how I obsessed over anime during my teens. My friend had introduced me to the world of anime and I was hooked. I gave all that up after I turned twenty, I had to grow up after all.
I want to protect Iza-chan from anyone who wishes to harm him! Iza-chan is my cute baby brother and I'm his big brother! No one will hurt him when I'm around!
I wasn't able to protect him, even though he protected me so many times. I couldn't stop those bullies, I couldn't stop their cruel words or the pain they brought us. He had committed suicide on the spring of our junior year. He died...leaving me all alone.
I had to protect Iza-chan. Some bullies called him out, they were jealous of my brother. Even though we were kids, he was popular and smart...they didn't like that. They saw him as some sort of showoff. I wouldn't let them hurt him. I'll protect him, no matter what.
I was going to visit my friend that day. I always visited him on the day he...on that day. I liked talking to him, telling him I was okay even though he wasn't around anymore. I told him that he should have at least came to talk to me, that way...he wouldn't have been alone and I wouldn't have been left behind.
The older kids, they thought I was Iza-chan. I didn't bother to correct them. I was pushed around until I ended up being pushed down the stairs. I saw the look of horror on their faces when they saw me falling. When I woke up again, I was told it was a miracle I even lived.
I was walking home after visiting him. I heard shouting and I turned my head in time to see some stupid kid with a gun, he was running from the police. He pushed me and I began falling down the stairs I just finished climbing. I snapped my neck before I even hit the bottom steps.
Who am I?
Am I still me?
Am I a child?
Am I an adult?
It's strange.
It's confusing.
I don't know who I am anymore. I don't want to know...which one is the real me.
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"Orihara-kun, how do you feel?"
"..." This again...? "I'm alright."
"No pains or aches?"
"...I don't feel anything."
"Nothing?"
"I don't feel pain anymore..."
"I see...It's most likely temporary. We'll continue to run tests, if that's alright with you."
"That's something you should talk about with my parents. I'm a minor."
"Ah, right..." I get the feeling he keeps forgetting he's talking to a seven year old boy and not a grown adult. Well, it's not like I act like a child. "I'll speak to your parents later on then."
"Please do so then."
"Y-Yes..."
I think I unnerved the good doctor. Understandable, when I first woke up...well, let's just say I acted ten years older than I am physically. Seeing as I was more 'adult' than I am 'child', many forget that I'm a child unless they're looking right at me. My voice, though soft, was quite high pitched and childlike, but the words that came out were more suited for a grown adult than a young boy. I glanced up at the clock, it was about time...for him to be here.
"Psyche, I brought you today's homework!"
"Thanks, Izay-Iza-chan."
"How do you feel?"
"I'm fine, still sluggish."
"You're coming home next week, right?"
"Un."
This boy...is going to be the Orihara Izaya I knew from the series Durarara! However...there is a big difference between this world and the world that this story took place in. It was the fact that those who are 'pure' have animal ears and tails. Izaya and I both have cat features, but my cat ears have cute fluffy white puffs on the inside of it. It was similar to another manga I know of called Loveless...hold on...don't tell me...!
"What's wrong, Psyche?" Izaya asked staring down at me.
"It's nothing, just a bit tired." Izaya hummed, moving to sit beside me on the bed. His tail instantly wrapped around mine and I wondered why mine responded in the same way. "Iza-chan, why do adults not have their ears?" I asked glancing at him.
"They're not pure anymore. I don't know how they get rid of their ears, but once they get rid of their ears they're no longer pure." Izaya said snuggling up against me.
"I see, I think Iza-chan looks cute with his ears." I said rubbing our cheeks together.
"I like Psyche with ears too. I want to be the one to take your ears so you can take mine."
"..." That sentence was very dangerous. "Sure, why not."
Izaya continued to snuggle against me, acting very much like a cat. Eventually, he fell asleep and I let him sleep on the bed while I continued to fill out the schoolwork I got stuck with. I wasn't too sure who I was, an adult or a child. I had childish tendencies, but my adult mentality and soul tends to push the worst childish tendencies down. There was also the fact that the original Orihara Psyche was very mature for a kid, but he is still a child.
"Psyche-darling, is...oh, he is here."
"Okaa-sama, hello."
"Mou, I told you to call me Mama!"
"I'm sorry."
The pretty woman with long black hair and bright red eyes is my current mother. Behind her is a tall man that is quite handsome, with dark brown hair and deep brown eyes. While Izaya will appear similar to our father in the future, gaining a few softer features from our shared mother. I gained a rather soft and feminine appeal from our mother, but my eyes are a very much red unlike Izaya's reddish brown eyes. I can also understand where Izaya, current and future, had gained his childishness from if this mother is any indication.
"Hnna..." Izaya rolled and came closer to my side, hugging me around the waist. "Psyche..." Izaya muttered rubbing his nose against my hip.
"Ok-Mama, they asked to run tests on me due to the fact I am unable to feel pain." I said patting Izaya's head.
"Dear me!" The woman ran towards me, pulling me into a tight hug. "My poor baby!"
"I cannot breathe, release me."
"Psyche-darling!"
"Otou-sama."
"Sweetheart, Psyche cannot breathe."
"Oh! I'm sorry, sweetie!"
"...Iza-chan, Iza-chan, wake up." I began shaking his shoulder until he slowly woke up. "It's time for you to go home."
"..." Izaya looked at me for a few seconds before returning to his previous position. "No."
"Iza-chan, go home."
"No."
"Iza-chan."
"It's not the same..."
"This boy...Mama, please tell the doctors that Iza-chan is staying the night. Also, can you get him a change of clothing for school tomorrow?"
"Of course, Psyche-dear!" Okaa-sama kissed my temple before kissing Izaya's. "Your father will return with them in half an hour."
"Thank you, Mama, Otou-sama."
"Call him Papa!"
"I'll see you later then, Otou-sama."
"Yes, I'll see you later on, Psyche." Otou-sama kissed my forehead before patting Izaya's head. "Behave yourself, Izaya. Your brother is kind, but he'll be the one to get in trouble if you cause trouble."
"I won't..."
The two adults left and I stared down at Izaya for a few moments. Hard to believe this cutie is going to turn into a complete and utter bastard. While my old friend liked Izaya and his trolling, I found him annoying as hell. I liked Shizuo more, also...quite hot due to how strong and manly he is. I placed my hand against my cheek, a blush on my blank face. Damn, now I can meet him...will he have cute cat ears or perhaps dog ears? This wasn't so bad, especially if I can take his ears. Although I don't think he'll like me very much if I'm the twin of the Orihara Izaya.
"This child is incredibly cute though..." I said patting Izaya's head.
Izaya moved closer to my hand, my heart...actually skipped a beat due to his actions. Damn, this child is just too cute. I can't believe this child is the same bastard Izaya from the series I knew about. I placed the notebook on my lap on the table beside my bed before moving so I could lie next to Izaya properly. The boy immediately latched around my middle, burying his face in my chest. It didn't bother me so much since I no longer have boobs and it was actually...comforting in a way.
"Good night, Izaya..." I nuzzled the top of his head, a smile on my face. "My...otouto..."
I am neither an adult nor a child. I am both, mentally, physically, spiritually. I am Orihara Psyche, so this child is my younger brother. I'm Orihara Psyche, but I am not at the same time. I have his memories along with the memories of another woman. I am still Orihara Psyche and I am also that woman. I want to protect this child, because he's my cute...adorable little brother.
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This...isn't very good. Not very good at all. I found it...I found words written on my body. This world is like the world of Loveless, but it's also the world of Durarara. The words were located on the inner part of my left upper arm, in small English letters. Alma, it can be used as a name. It has many meanings, but one I know is soul. I thought tracing the words. This...is going to be difficult to deal with...if this world is indeed similar to the world of Loveless...then I'm either the Sacrifice or the Fighter. If that is also true, then someone out there...has the same name as me in the same location.
"Thankfully it's in a place not easily seen even with short sleeves..." I muttered pulling my shirt on.
It's still necessary to hide this mark though, if Izaya starts asking about it...or starts investigating it then it wouldn't be good. I wonder though...does Izaya have a mark on him somewhere? If he does, I'll find it eventually. Izaya and I were quite close before memories of another life surfaced. The feelings Psyche had for his brother went beyond familial love, but the boy didn't know that. Psyche...rather I, still have those feelings. It was probably good that Psyche never acted on his love for his brother.
"Orihara Psyche-kun?" I glanced at the door and the nurse that is standing there. "It's time for lunch. After that, your medicine."
"Alright."
I quickly ate my lunch before taking my medication. Once that was done, I was left alone. I pressed my cat ears against my skull, a frown on my face. Why is this world so similar to the world of Loveless even though Orihara Izaya exists in a story he does not belong in. Maybe one of those weird crossover things you see in fanfiction or something. I thought tugging on my tail. I was seriously curious what it is like to lose one of these things, I mean...do they just fall off or do they disappear after a short amount of time? I really want to know, I can finally solve the mystery behind it now that I live in this world!
"Who should I lose them to though?" I questioned silently.
I'm mentally an adult woman with a small portion of a young male child. The female half prefers men, while the young male side only has eyes for his twin brother. The female me disliked Izaya, preferring Shizuo, but I must admit...the original Psyche's love of his brother already toppled the dislike I had for him so it is more of a 'brother complex' thing than a 'love for another person' type of thing. My tail was swinging about, showing my irritation.
"...I should be careful or Psyche's original personality might take over that part of our shared soul..." I muttered.
"Psyche, I'm here!" Izaya said standing at the doorway.
"Iza-chan, hey." I scooted over as he moved to join me on the bed. "How was school?" I asked leaning against him.
"It's boring without you." Izaya said nuzzling my shoulder.
"I'll be out in three days." I was now lying down with Izaya hugging me. "Are you tired?"
"Yeah..."
"Good night then."
It's actually hard to connect this Izaya to the Orihara Izaya that I knew of. We're twins, the Izaya I knew of told his twin sisters something completely rude that resulted in them becoming complete opposites just so they can gain his approval. I'm unsure if he'll try the same thing to us, but...I get the feeling he won't. Shinra mentioned something before...in the original series. Something about Izaya's heart being more fragile than anyone else's and how he didn't want it to break so he chose to love humanity to avoid it or something along those lines. I don't remember too well, I haven't read the series since my high school days when I was still a woman.
"Psyche...?" Izaya asked not looking at me.
"What's wrong, Iza-chan?" I questioned resting my cheek between his ears.
"Will you ever leave me?"
"...I'll be with you until you no longer need me."
"What if I need you forever?"
"I'll stay with you until I think you no longer need me."
"...Psyche..."
"Hm?"
"Don't leave me."
"...I won't leave you for a long time."
This child...he's going to become the informant Orihara Izaya. I can't shake the feelings of the original Orihara Psyche...and I can't just abandon him. This child is innocent...and Psyche loved him...loved him for all his faults. I want to protect this child...even if he grows up into a complete and utter bastard. Since I took over Psyche's body, with him occupying a very small amount of this body. It's like I'm 7/8 while Psyche is the last 1/8. I have more power compared to Psyche's side, but certain emotions of his over take me.
"...I'll protect you for as long as I can..." I owe it to the original Psyche...I felt quite guilty, taking over this body. "For his sake..." I whispered kissing his cat ears.
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Chapter 1 Ends
I've been going over old series I liked, Loveless being one of them. I absolutely adore Loveless! Ritsuka is absolutely adorable, the series is cute while also quite cool~! There is a big reason why I did this though, it's not just for the cute konekomimi~! A child Izaya is much purer compared to an adult one, who I admit is a complete and utter twisted bastard as an adult. It makes me curious how he slowly became who he is known as in the series as a child, so I decided to make Psyche-chan his twin brother to reveal how I thought it occurred! Well, that's it for today! Until next time, my dears! Bye-bye~!