Started: May 30, 2002
Finished: June 21, 2002
Last Episode Seen Before Writing: Tempest
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters! If I did I would be writing movies, not stories. Don't even get me started on that topic!
Beloved Forgiveness
Author's Note 1: Thank you to all my betas! LaCasta, you are a true gem! I couldn't have gotten the story to this point without you. MaryClare (a.k.a. IloveClarkKent) you have such a pure talent for writing Chloe. You are amazing. This story wouldn't have the Chloe that we all know and love if it wasn't for you! Much thanks to Zinaya (Shannon) for being a great beta. This one definitely knows what betaing is all about! She managed to tell it like it is, point out mistakes, and still make me feel like a princess. Thanks so much all of you.I owe you one!
Author's Note 2: This is a companion piece to my songfic 'Lost Soul.' I wrote that songfic and thought to myself.Hey, that would make a good story. Unfortunately the story has started with following the songfic and totally branched off. It will eventually meet with the songfic again down the line, though. So, here's the story! (You do not need to read the songfic to understand the story! I will attach the songfic as the last chapter!!)
Chapter 1- Range
Clark was rearranging his loft when he found a small blue book. It had been stuffed under one of the floorboards, but he easily removed it and brushed off the thick layer of dust. The silver nameplate on the front made him gasp. It read: CHLOE.
Chloe had left over two and a half years ago without saying goodbye. Just disappeared into thin air. Clark had gone to her house the day after graduation to find it completely empty. No one knew where she went, or why she left. All Clark knew was that Chloe was gone.
He couldn't understand why Chloe would leave without telling him. Clark had considered himself Chloe's best friend, but she hadn't told him where she was going. That's what hurt Clark the most. Clark waited for Chloe for over a year. Not until that year was up did Clark give in to Pete, Lana, and Lex's insistent pleading to give up and try to move on. It had hurt to do so, but Clark couldn't live day by day in hopes of something that would never come.
A single tear fell from Clark's eye. He hugged the book to his chest, as he rose and carried the book to his room. There, he tucked the diary firmly under his mattress. It haunted him there for three weeks before he forced himself to open it.
'I have a confession. I bought you for the sole purpose of venting about Clark. Is that lame? Yes. Pathetic? Yes! I know it's unlike me, but I have no one to talk to and can't keep my feelings in any longer. This seems easy enough, right? Wrong! With all my experience in writing I still can't be straight when talking about my feelings. Hence, this is why I am talking to a book and not to Clark himself.
Want to know my problem? I really don't care if you do or don't, So I'll tell you anyway. I, Chloe Sullivan am in love with Clark Kent. He's my best friend. I know, I know. How cliché is that? I can't help it. He's so kind, caring, and selfless. Almost perfect.
Yes, I said almost. Almost because he's in love with Lana Lang. Miss Perfect. Head Cheerleader. Quarterback's girlfriend. Yes, she
does have a boyfriend! She is taken. Does that stop Clark? No! It almost makes me feel bad for him.
Yes, again almost. At least he's feeling the same way I am. Even if it isn't about me! I know it's mean! I can't help it! I feel a strange sense of pleasure when I see the pain in Clark's eyes when he looks at Whitney and Lana. I may be a masochist. Or maybe I'm just his best friend and his secret admirer. Either way this can't be good
Well, now you're up to date! More later!'
Chloe had bought a diary for the sole purpose of letting out her feelings for Clark? That had to be wrong. Clark couldn't see Chloe being that insecure. He suddenly had a feeling of dread. These pages were filled with Chloe's flowing script. Every word in the diary was centered around himself. He wished he had never found the diary. He should have just thrown it out. Clark had finally gotten used to the fact that Chloe wasn't coming back, but now these feelings would be pulled to the surface. He didn't know if he could deal with that again. Clark decided to go talk to Pete. Pete knew a lot about Chloe, he was the one she had confided in.
Clark could have gotten to Pete's within seconds, but he opted to walk so he could collect his thoughts. It took him almost ten minutes to get to Pete's. Clark took a deep breath before opening the door.
"Hey, man. What's up?" Pete asked a moment later.
"Tell me about Chloe," Clark said, pain filling his voice.
"Clark, I've told you every detail over and over. I don't know what else I can tell you," Pete said wishing he could help his friend.
"Tell me about how she felt about me," Clark pressed.
"Clark, I told you back in high school that she liked you," Pete said. He felt sorry for Clark. Clark had never been the same since Chloe left.
"I know you did. That's why I asked her to the formal. But I think there was more. I don't think that's the whole truth," Clark said.
"Clark." Pete said not wanting to explain further.
"I know there's something you're not saying. Tell me," Clark demanded.
Pete gave in. "She loved you, Clark. You meant as much to her as you thought Lana meant to you."
Clark took in a sharp breath. "I have to go," Clark said jogging around the side of the house. He didn't hear Pete calling his name as his speed kicked in.
Clark went straight to his room. He picked up the diary. As soon as he did he dropped it as if it had burned him, and began to pace. He wanted to read it, but at the same time Clark dreaded what he would find out. He longed to find out why Chloe had left him so many years ago. Clark took a deep breath and opened the diary to the next entry.
'Clark hasn't been spending much time with me lately. I finally confronted him about it. I'm so proud of myself. I asked him if he was outgrowing me. His reply was, "Chloe, I could never outgrow you. Other than vertically." I actually blushed when he said it! It's amazing how far that Kent charm will get him! I forgave him, I couldn't help it! I mean, I know that they have blinders for horses so do you think they could make blinders for the Kent charm? Must look into this..
I see him stare longingly at Lana and it breaks my heart! I vow to hate him for the rest of my life. Then, he does or says something like this. All past transgressions get wiped away.
I blame it on the Kent charm!'
Clark tucked the diary back under his mattress. When it was safely out of sight he left the house. He broke into a run and just kept going. Everything flew by in a blur. So many thoughts were racing through his head, it was hard to tie one down.
This news was a shock to him. He knew Chloe had liked him. He found that out when Ryan had read her mind, then when Pete had confronted him a few weeks later. Clark just never knew to what extent her crush had ranged. Obviously it was more than he gave credit for!
Finished: June 21, 2002
Last Episode Seen Before Writing: Tempest
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters! If I did I would be writing movies, not stories. Don't even get me started on that topic!
Beloved Forgiveness
Author's Note 1: Thank you to all my betas! LaCasta, you are a true gem! I couldn't have gotten the story to this point without you. MaryClare (a.k.a. IloveClarkKent) you have such a pure talent for writing Chloe. You are amazing. This story wouldn't have the Chloe that we all know and love if it wasn't for you! Much thanks to Zinaya (Shannon) for being a great beta. This one definitely knows what betaing is all about! She managed to tell it like it is, point out mistakes, and still make me feel like a princess. Thanks so much all of you.I owe you one!
Author's Note 2: This is a companion piece to my songfic 'Lost Soul.' I wrote that songfic and thought to myself.Hey, that would make a good story. Unfortunately the story has started with following the songfic and totally branched off. It will eventually meet with the songfic again down the line, though. So, here's the story! (You do not need to read the songfic to understand the story! I will attach the songfic as the last chapter!!)
Chapter 1- Range
Clark was rearranging his loft when he found a small blue book. It had been stuffed under one of the floorboards, but he easily removed it and brushed off the thick layer of dust. The silver nameplate on the front made him gasp. It read: CHLOE.
Chloe had left over two and a half years ago without saying goodbye. Just disappeared into thin air. Clark had gone to her house the day after graduation to find it completely empty. No one knew where she went, or why she left. All Clark knew was that Chloe was gone.
He couldn't understand why Chloe would leave without telling him. Clark had considered himself Chloe's best friend, but she hadn't told him where she was going. That's what hurt Clark the most. Clark waited for Chloe for over a year. Not until that year was up did Clark give in to Pete, Lana, and Lex's insistent pleading to give up and try to move on. It had hurt to do so, but Clark couldn't live day by day in hopes of something that would never come.
A single tear fell from Clark's eye. He hugged the book to his chest, as he rose and carried the book to his room. There, he tucked the diary firmly under his mattress. It haunted him there for three weeks before he forced himself to open it.
'I have a confession. I bought you for the sole purpose of venting about Clark. Is that lame? Yes. Pathetic? Yes! I know it's unlike me, but I have no one to talk to and can't keep my feelings in any longer. This seems easy enough, right? Wrong! With all my experience in writing I still can't be straight when talking about my feelings. Hence, this is why I am talking to a book and not to Clark himself.
Want to know my problem? I really don't care if you do or don't, So I'll tell you anyway. I, Chloe Sullivan am in love with Clark Kent. He's my best friend. I know, I know. How cliché is that? I can't help it. He's so kind, caring, and selfless. Almost perfect.
Yes, I said almost. Almost because he's in love with Lana Lang. Miss Perfect. Head Cheerleader. Quarterback's girlfriend. Yes, she
does have a boyfriend! She is taken. Does that stop Clark? No! It almost makes me feel bad for him.
Yes, again almost. At least he's feeling the same way I am. Even if it isn't about me! I know it's mean! I can't help it! I feel a strange sense of pleasure when I see the pain in Clark's eyes when he looks at Whitney and Lana. I may be a masochist. Or maybe I'm just his best friend and his secret admirer. Either way this can't be good
Well, now you're up to date! More later!'
Chloe had bought a diary for the sole purpose of letting out her feelings for Clark? That had to be wrong. Clark couldn't see Chloe being that insecure. He suddenly had a feeling of dread. These pages were filled with Chloe's flowing script. Every word in the diary was centered around himself. He wished he had never found the diary. He should have just thrown it out. Clark had finally gotten used to the fact that Chloe wasn't coming back, but now these feelings would be pulled to the surface. He didn't know if he could deal with that again. Clark decided to go talk to Pete. Pete knew a lot about Chloe, he was the one she had confided in.
Clark could have gotten to Pete's within seconds, but he opted to walk so he could collect his thoughts. It took him almost ten minutes to get to Pete's. Clark took a deep breath before opening the door.
"Hey, man. What's up?" Pete asked a moment later.
"Tell me about Chloe," Clark said, pain filling his voice.
"Clark, I've told you every detail over and over. I don't know what else I can tell you," Pete said wishing he could help his friend.
"Tell me about how she felt about me," Clark pressed.
"Clark, I told you back in high school that she liked you," Pete said. He felt sorry for Clark. Clark had never been the same since Chloe left.
"I know you did. That's why I asked her to the formal. But I think there was more. I don't think that's the whole truth," Clark said.
"Clark." Pete said not wanting to explain further.
"I know there's something you're not saying. Tell me," Clark demanded.
Pete gave in. "She loved you, Clark. You meant as much to her as you thought Lana meant to you."
Clark took in a sharp breath. "I have to go," Clark said jogging around the side of the house. He didn't hear Pete calling his name as his speed kicked in.
Clark went straight to his room. He picked up the diary. As soon as he did he dropped it as if it had burned him, and began to pace. He wanted to read it, but at the same time Clark dreaded what he would find out. He longed to find out why Chloe had left him so many years ago. Clark took a deep breath and opened the diary to the next entry.
'Clark hasn't been spending much time with me lately. I finally confronted him about it. I'm so proud of myself. I asked him if he was outgrowing me. His reply was, "Chloe, I could never outgrow you. Other than vertically." I actually blushed when he said it! It's amazing how far that Kent charm will get him! I forgave him, I couldn't help it! I mean, I know that they have blinders for horses so do you think they could make blinders for the Kent charm? Must look into this..
I see him stare longingly at Lana and it breaks my heart! I vow to hate him for the rest of my life. Then, he does or says something like this. All past transgressions get wiped away.
I blame it on the Kent charm!'
Clark tucked the diary back under his mattress. When it was safely out of sight he left the house. He broke into a run and just kept going. Everything flew by in a blur. So many thoughts were racing through his head, it was hard to tie one down.
This news was a shock to him. He knew Chloe had liked him. He found that out when Ryan had read her mind, then when Pete had confronted him a few weeks later. Clark just never knew to what extent her crush had ranged. Obviously it was more than he gave credit for!