Chapter 1

"Say it's a paper moon sailing over a cardboard sea. But it wouldn't be make- believe if you believed in me. Yes, it's only a canvas sky hanging over a muslin tree but it wouldn't be make-believe if you believed in me." Frank Sinatra's voice sang from the lap top that was siting on the floor in front of Lily Sillizon. It was a lazy Saturday night for her she finished all of her homework and already studied for all of the test that would be given that upcoming week.

When Lily was alone she often thought back to that night in December when her mother and father went out for dinner for their 15 year anniversary, and how they never came back. Her parents who were both only in their forties at the time went out to celebrate the wonderful years they spent together, and the beautiful children that they had; their oldest Paul Michael Sillizon, their middle child Damon James Sillizon, and their youngest and only girl Lilliana Vanessa Sillizon. When Lily found out the news of her parents death she was barely thirteen, her older brothers at the ages of 19 and 15. Paul being the adult took his two orphaned siblings and became their legal guardian. Lily had lost her best friend, her partner in crime in that accident, her father. Lily was an athlete, she played basketball, volleyball, soccer, softball, track and field, even lacrosse. Her dad was the best cheerleader along with her mother. Paul began filling that role making them closer than ever, but she noticed that something had changed in Paul. Paul had become taller, more muscular, his temper was short and his attitude no better. Lily was completely alone after that, she felt as if everyone she knew thought she wasn't good enough. She learned early that trusting people led to hurt, suffering, pain, sadness and heartbreak, she never wanted to go through any of that. Instead of people Lily read her books, wrote short stories, and studied. Being the smartest girl in her class she led with a 4.0 GPA and many colleges on her door step for the many sports she played. It was a way to get out of "the nice part" of La Push. La Push was a small reservation with small houses, there were a few big houses that lined first beach; she lived in the largest one. Her dad had been a big business guru and had enough money to buy whatever he pleased, but mostly he took care of his family. She had everything her heart desired even when her father died. Damon ,like Paul, eventually turned eighteen, and left too.

He had been back lately and was more angry and violent than ever. Him and his friends went out and drank until they could barely keep themselves up, and then came home for her to take care of them. Paul was almost never home, and when he was him and Damon were fighting. They both hated each other, and it wasn't sibling hate, it was pure detest for each other's existence.

When Lily was fifteen, Paul had brought his new girlfriend for the 'family' to meet. She was beautiful, long ebony hair soft features, brown eyes, she was the quintessence of a Quileute girl. Lily on the other hand, while being a full Quileute was tall, with long brown hair with green eyes. Since both of her parents were Quileutes with brown eyes, she never understood where the green eyes came from. Paul loved Rachel and soon they announced their engament. Lily was jealous of the way Paul looked at his wife to be. He never even payed attention to Lily, but this girl Rachel was "special" he would say, she knew that Rachel was special because he never held a real girlfriend ; he kept girls for a week , then dumped them.

Even though Paul wasn't around, Rachel was. She spent ever second she possibly could with her. At her wedding in the Spring, Lily was going to be the junior maid of honor. Ever since wedding plans needed to be made, Lily found herself more alone than ever. Which is how she found herself inside listening to music.

The front door swung open revealing a smashed up Damon; he was disheveled in appearance. He scanned the room as his eyes set on Lily. Lily looked up to met his murderous gaze. The bear bottle in his hand, he smashed it into the wall making the bottom sharp. He came toward Lily with a commanding authority. He pulled her up meeting her gaze, she smelled the strong alcohol on him and wondered how much drinking he did over at his friend's house.

"Your a st-h-upid bitch, ugly trash." he slurred out. "Your the reason my mom died. Paul hates you, I hate you" He ranted.

Lily stayed quiet and let him continue. "Your lucky i didn't kill you when I had the chance, stupid bitch. I know the reason guys don't love you, your ugly, trash, and your a prude. You'd be no good in bed, go do your stupid homework. St-hupid bit-" He was cut off by a fierce growl. Lily knew that this was Paul, bringing Rachel here for the night.

"Leave her alone" Paul yelled and then the fight began.

Lily walked to the back porch. Her brother bringing up her love life situation hurt her. She knew her brother was low, but she didn't think he was that low. Rachel came after her hugging her, and telling her how wrong her older brother was. The words, though, were still imprinted in her mind.

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