"Why do you care"? "Why do you do this for me"? "Please…leave this place and never turn back, your heart is far too pure for such a wicked game". All this I think as I watch you fight for me duel after duel. You sweat and bleed but your opponents show no mercy. They stab and swing at you all the while catching glimpses of me in the corner of their eye. The grand prize should they succeed in defeating you. I pray you'll win. Pray I'll never spend another night being slammed against a bed and stripped of my clothing and dignity as they enjoy the spoils of their victory., rewards I am by duty forced to provide. They violate me in every way possible and when I think its done they do it all over again but, not you.
The first night we spent together I knew you were different. You never hit me never grabbed me and by the next day I almost wished you had. You made me feel empty and full at the same time. Showed me that touches and kisses were meant to be earned not taken and for that I want to give you every bit I have to offer. You are more of a gentleman than any of the duelist that battle here. It was you that taught me that love and pain are not one in the same though I had spent my entire existence believing the opposite.
Akio hates what you've done to me. He says you've contaminated me with the ways of this world but if it means being in that world with you I wouldn't have it any other way. Your blade is dull but the courage in you is far stronger and I have faith in every swing you deliver. Your close now and it takes every ounce of my strength to keep from cheering your name as you push back your opponent blow after blow. For a second nearly every time you battle I consider the possibilities of your failure. Juri's beatings, Saionji's twisted fantasies, Tougas careless use of me but I push back all that fear with thoughts of you.
I want you to leave almost as much as I want you to stay. I'm use to the beatings, the violation, the humiliation but I couldn't bare to see you feel the same. That day when Touga defeated you I wanted to fall on my knees and beg for forgiveness for what I had said to you. "Cheer up classmate". The words were far more painful to say my prince than they were to hear. Like a razor blade on my tongue they cut me deep spilling out what little humanity I had and for that I will always be ashamed.
The Rose Bride is not suppose to have feelings. No wants, no desires but and yet you bring up an emotion in me I never knew I could have, one that can only be described as…love. You swing again and I stare on as the last few petals of our enemies corsage is carried off by the wind. For that love I will stand by you, for that love I will help you, For that love I would gladly die a thousand times. Only for your love Utena. Only for you my prince.
Authors note: I hope you enjoyed this oneshot I have two others just like it and am working on more. I really enjoy receiving feedback even if its critical so please tell me what you think and wether of not you would like to see more of these in the future!