Look a new story:) I've written almost half this story and the other half I'm struggling with :/. Between trying to get ready for publishing and edits.. I'm going to update when I can, please bare with me... :) But I will do everything in my power to finish this story.
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Being a billionaire isn't what it's always cracked up to be. Sure, I have money, cars, houses, but I'm alone. I have women around to fill my needs, but the void I have has never been able to be replaced. There's only one person that can fill it and she's out of reach.
I recently had to hire a new COO for my company. I started GEH three years ago, dropping out of college, and starting my dream. The company took off overnight and I was practically a millionaire overnight. My last COO Ros Bailey left when her girlfriend was offered a job in Tokyo. It was a huge opportunity for Gwen, and Ros wanted to be there with her. Ros still works with GEH but now handles the overseas operation. GEH has a small office in Tokyo and hopefully, in the next five years we can expand bigger and hire more people.
When it came to picking who I would want next to me there was no other choice then Miss Anastasia Steele. We went to college together and unlike me, she graduated with her MBA from Harvard. For the last year, she was working as a Finance Manager at a Transportation company in New York. I showed her how much more she would be appreciated here in Seattle, along with the much larger salary, and she took the bait. She's been working with me for two weeks now and it's been going great.
Tonight, she came over to talk about a new acquisition, but really we have been spending hours going down memory lane. We haven't had a chance to actually talk since she came on board. She was thrown into the deep end and didn't need a life jacket once to save her. She came through swimming on top. I knew she would be an amazing addition to my team.
She's laughing her head off remembering the first time we met. "I still can't believe you walked into my room buck naked, and drunk." She's giggling so hard and lays her head on my chest, clutching my shirt.
"What better way than to get into a girls heart then crawling to bed with her, then getting mad because I thought you were in my bed. You were a feisty little thing." I chuckle back. "You pushed me to the ground, then in the morning belted me with a bucket full of cold water."
"I've never seen a dick shrivel up so fast." She snorts with her laugh. And it's still the cutest thing in the world.
"It's was fucking cold. No person can withstand the ice that you poured on me. I still get flashbacks when I take cold showers." I shake my head, remembering the moment like it was yesterday and not five years ago.
It's one of those memories that will never leave my mind. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the clocks and go back to those days. Everything changed that day, the first time she touched me, the first time in my life I wanted something more.
"I thought you were some psycho. You be glad Tom came in and saved your drunk ass, so I knew you weren't some predator. AND be glad that at least I let you sleep." She reminds me as I push a strand of her hair behind her ear, which causes her to stop laughing.
"Best day of my life though," I tell her softly and lean into her, wanting to kiss her. Ana's about to say something when her head turns at the sound of someone in the hallway.
"Master?"
Fuck! Haley's voice echoes into the room and I cringe when she uses that term for me. She knows better than to call me that. But I have a feeling she was thinking her territory was getting stomped all over. But honestly, I forgot she was here.
I look at Ana and she's rolling her eyes, and untucking her body from the couch.
"Go back to your room…" I demand and she quickly obeys and scurries away.
"I should go, let you get back to your plaything." She says standing up. I grab her hand and stop her.
"No, please. I'll get rid of her."
"It doesn't matter Christian. It's fine."
"It's not fine. It's… that's nothing…a mistake...please" I beg. I don't want her to leave. If I had known she was coming over I would've kicked Haley out. Hell, I should've ended her contract the second Ana came back fully into my life.
Ana sighs and steps closer to me. She runs her hand up my chest and leans into my ear. The fragrance of lavender and honey hit my nose. "You know, there's a time I remember when you only liked to be called Christian in bed…" she whispers in my ear before stepping back. Our eyes meet for only a second and it's not long enough for me to get a reading on her before she turns away. "I'll see you at the office tomorrow, Sir." She snips before walking towards the elevator.
"Ana?" I try to stop her, but she waves her hand back at me, telling me no. Seconds later the elevator is taking her away. It was like our final moments together years ago when we went our separate ways. When the fire went out on my heart and I became lost. She was the only person that could ever touch me and she will only ever be the only person.
I'm furious. I couldn't even remember the last time I've been this pissed. I had to pace the foyer for what seemed like hours to calm myself before I did anything crazy. Because all I want to do in the moment is tie Haley up by her ankles and whip her with a cane, and there would be nothing sexual about it, but to take out my aggression on her. The bitch should've stayed in her room.
Okay, I really should've ended our contract.
I tried calling Ana and it went straight to voicemail. I knew she wasn't going to answer, but I need to explain.
Then I remember there's nothing to explain. Ana knows exactly what Haley is and that I'm a fuck up. She'll never trust me now.
She was in my arms and I blew it.
Still fuming I march to the Sub room. I find Haley sitting on the edge of the bed twiddling her fingers. When she hears me, her head pops and she moves to me.
"Sir," she says breathlessly and bows her head.
Fuck, this bitch probably thinks I'm here to give her a punishment for disobeying me.
The rage builds up again, the vein in my neck pulsating with my anger.
"What the fuck gives you the right to disobey me and call me Master? You have not earned that right to do so. Nor have you earned it in front of my guests". I yell loud enough the pictures on the walls shake.
"I'm so sorry, Sir." She snaps her head up, looking me in the eyes, my anger doing nothing to shake her. "I heard you laughing with her and I've been waiting for you for hours. I wanted to be noticed." She says blunting, and with a hint of sass.
I've only been with Haley for two and half months. She irritated me from the second I met her, but I didn't have any interest in trying to find someone else. I just wanted someone to fill the hole in my life, anything to ease the ache and the loss I felt all the time.
It only took me till the third submissive to realize that it was never going to happen, that the void would never be filled. That I was to live with my past mistake. Sex with them was a means to an end, meaningless, the dominance was the control I needed to handle the fact that Ana was still gone from my life.
I take a steady breath, trying to cool down.
"Haley our contract is now null and void. I need you to pack your things and whatever is left behind I will have sent to you." I say, as calmly as I can, like talking to an employee.
"Sir, I promise you I am sorry, and will accept my punishment." She bows her head again but remains to look up at me through her lashes.
"There will be no punishment. I no longer need you." I say firmly. If I have any chance of getting Ana back, I can't be living my past lifestyle. The lifestyle that I lied to her about which was one of the downfalls to our relationship.
"Is it because of her?" she snarls, falling completely out of sub-mode. I give it to her, she's brave, especially in the mood I'm in, or she's hoping I'll crumble and give her what she wants.
"Who and what is none of your concern Haley. Our time is over." I seethe.
Haley marches over to me and reaches for my chest with a pointed finger. I grab her hand and toss it back. "You know better than to try and touch me."
"She can touch you. She was all over you all night. I saw her. Why can't I? Haven't I pleased you, Sir?" She whines.
The nosey bitch was watching us the whole time.
"You pleased me fine, but it's not working anymore. Please gather your things and I will have Taylor take you home." I dismiss her and start to turn around.
Haley starts to laugh, "I've pleased you, but yet you have a huge picture of her hanging up in your room. How many times did you wish I was her? I thought we were supposed to be monogamous, but it seems like you're holding on to a person who doesn't want you." She says angrily and I clench my fist together.
The little bitch has been in my room. It's the one place none of my subs are allowed to enter. My blood boils. But she is right, I always wished for them to be Ana, then who they are.
I turn around and glare at her, she cowers under my look. Finally. "You need to get out of my house before I have you forcibly removed. And it would be wise to remember your NDA the second you cross my threshold, Miss Garrett." I turn on my heel and leave the room.
I inform Taylor that if Haley isn't out of the penthouse in five minutes to have her thrown out.
The elevator dings announcing me to the twenty-first of Grey House. It's Monday morning and my floor is buzzing with activity. The first thing I do is get my messages and schedule from Andrea.
I notice in the corner of my eye, Ana leaning over her assistant's desk, talking on the phone. The tight grey pencil skirt really shows off the curve of her ass. I want to sink my teeth into that juicy peach of hers.
I remember what her ass used to look like naked when she would be bent over my bed and I would take my sweet time plowing into her tight…
"Good morning, Mr. Grey," Ana says pulling me from my pleasant memories.
"Miss Steele." I greet. She gives me a tiny smile as she starts to pass me to her office. I touch her arm, gaining her attention back to me. "Actually, can I see you in my office for a moment?"
She looks at me curiously before nodding her head and going towards my office. I stay behind her while she sways her hips as she walks. My eyes then travel down her smooth legs to her heels, legs that I used to wrap around me on a daily basis. I can't help but wonder if her legs were always that long.
I've been trying to call her all weekend, but all I ever got was her voicemail. The only response I would get from her was from email correspondence about work. It's probably better that way because as I'm face to face with her in my office, I'm not sure of everything I want to say.
"Ana, about the other night…" I start and she raises her hand for me to stop.
"Christian, it's no big deal. It's not like I didn't expect you to move on. It's been three years. I did, so…"
I grind my teeth remembering the moment I learned about her and her fucking boyfriend, Owen. They've been dating for a few months and says she's happy with him. He actually moved cross country for her. I saw them together one night, kissing outside a restaurant after I offered her the job. My heart shattered and the main reason I kept Haley around.
I would have thought since we remained "friends" she would have told me. Then again I never told her about the Submissives I had, but my relationships were to fill a void, not find love again.
"Right." I snap. I watch as she presses her lips together and sighs.
"You told me that if I took this job that the past would be just that, the past. That we're friends. I expected you to move on Christian, maybe not with the kind of girl I saw yesterday, but it doesn't matter." She waves off flustered. "You have your life now and I have mine."
"Why did you agree to come back here?" I ask randomly, trying to end the conversation. I know she's disappointed I'm still in the life that I kept from her, but I don't know what she expects from me. When I sent her the e-mail asking if she wanted the job as my COO, never in a million years did I think she would say yes. I was desperate to find a way to get her back to Seattle and in my life again. Then when she told me about the boyfriend, it crushed my dreams of us running off into the sunset together.
She stands quietly, looking around my office, but not at me. "You asked for help, you were in a bind. No matter what happened between us Christian, I still care about you. Plus, you need the best, that would be me. The one that actually has a degree." She smiles brightly, finally looking at me.
I want to say something, if she just let me stay with her I would've had mine too, but I refrain. The mess of our break up still plays harshly in my mind. If I was just honest with her, trusted her, we could still be together. I might have stayed with her at Harvard, or maybe she would have gone with me to Seattle. But I lied and I hurt her. I shake my head, not wanting to remember that look on her face when I finally turned and left her, knowing I was the one that held the power to keep us together.
I lost her and I'm still paying the price for it.
"Should we get to work?" I say ending the conversation.
"Um, yeah. But are we okay? I could see your head about to explode." She walks up to me and fixes my tie. I close my eyes and relish in the feeling of her touch on my no-go area.
"We're fine, Ana." I give her my best smile, even though it's slightly forced.
"I hope so, the last thing I want to do is lose you as my friend, Christian. We have always been able to get along. I know it's harder now that we're around each other all the time when our friendship was only emails and a few phone calls. But know even with our history, I'll always support you." She sighs and reaches up to kiss my cheek. "I'm glad you're back in my life again. That's another reason I took this job."
I'm left speechless as she turns to leave my office. I can't help the smile that crosses my face, maybe over time I can win her back and make her forget all about that Owen asshole. I'm just going to remind her of how good we were together.
Next chapter is going to start with a flashback. I plan to do those here and there... it's pretty fluffy ;)