She's Aware…
She sits at her computers too aware of the horror.
Too aware of the pain
Too aware of the fear…there's so much
Too aware of the hurt.
She sees so much she's scared.
She's scared she'll become numb
Scared she won't feel emotion anymore
Scared she'll become like him…Hotch.
Scared she won't find a love who understands.
She sits at the computer typing, looking
Looking for those missing
Looking for those hurt, lost
Looking for those who don't want to be found
She has her façade, the one she shows people, her happy one.
They don't see her cry,
They don't see her scream
They don't see her having nightmares..
She tries to help those she can
The ones no one helps
The ones people ignore
The ones the police pretend don't exist.
She sits at the computer and watches the cameras..
She watches her team mates sleep
She watches them fight
She watches them laugh, its how they cope
Tonight she drags them out for a party
So they let the steam go
They let the fear go
So they can be human again
She can rest now they've closed the case
Now they've caught the bad guy
Now they've saved a life
Now they've solved a murder
She breathes a happy breath
She is free again
Free to be happy
Free to be her
Free to realise she's still human and can feel.
No own criminal minds….dammit!