Separate Ways & New Beginnings I Love You Too Much To Lose You, a zoey 101 fanfic

A/N: I'm listening to Say Goodbye by Chris Brown now. A bolt of inspiration just hit, so enjoy this one-shot. It'll kinda sad, but kinda happy at the same time. Currently, I have the next chapter of Hollywood Rivalries written (or half of it) in a notebook. It should be written out by Friday afterschool…I'll try to write between classes…and it will be most likely updated by Sunday night, depending on if I can finish my English report…

Damn school… Luckily, Thanksgiving in Canada isn't until October 9.

Anyway, I've rambled… so I'll shut-up and let you read now.

Oh, and 2 DAYS till season 3! –screams-

Oh, and this takes place in season 3…my take on what happens at the end of Chase's Girlfriend. No, I don't own the song Say Goodbye by Chris Brown, and Cold by Crossfade…and I don't own Zoey 101 either, kay? Kay.

Title: Separate Ways & New Beginnings

By: x3 I Heart December x3

Pairing: Eventual Chase/Zoey

Genre: Romance

Rating: T

Summary: TWO-SHOT Chase and Zoey have always been best friends. They have gotten through everything and survived through thick and thin…even the Tekmate ordeal, but Chase does something stupid can he fix it, or will he and Zoey be torn apart?

SEPARATE WAYS AND NEW BEGINNINGS

PART ONE

CHASE'S POV

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

I sat on my bean bag, doing my history homework. Today wasn't going too well for me, and something tells me Michael and Logan are coming to give me an earful. I did something I now think is the stupidest thing ever. I've done a lot of stupid things… but this is beyond stupid. I know like, no love, her, but… I just had to be to that desperate. Stupid, stupid me.

I'm not smart, but I'm incredibly stupid right now. I was going to tell Zoey about Rebecca honestly. I wasn't hoping Zoey wasn't going to see me and Rebecca making out, and finding out that way. Anything but that.

Rebecca kissed me as I kissed back regretfully, but the damage had already been done. The sound of my dorm door opening was heard.

"Chase, I gotta- " a familiar voice said. I recognize that voice. Please don't let it be who I think it is. I pulled away from Rebecca as Zoey stood there. I looked at her…and she looked at me. Silence hung over Maxwell Hall, okay, not really…just Room 48 (my room). I decided to speak. I felt so ashamed of myself… after everything that went on with Gender Defenders…and Spring Break. "Oh, I'm sorry…"

"Zoey…this is…Rebecca…" I said, pointing to the brunette beside me. I feel like an ass. Then the two words I thought I'd only associate with Zoey came out of my mouth. I wish I could take them back. "…my girlfriend…"

"Um, nice to meet you," Zoey said, with a small smile. I know she was just trying to be friendly, but she was my best friend (I think. I'm not so sure anymore.) I knew her better than anyone. Zoey and I locked eyes. I don't know what it was, but there was an unreadable look in her eyes. That made me feel like crap.

Chase Matthews: Idiot extraordinaire.

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

See, what did I tell you? Michael and Logan came in. They're probably fighting over the single bed even though Michael won it (coin toss settled by Dustin), or a girl. Most likely Lola. Lola told me and Zoey how they get sprayed by a skunk last year. Geeze, I still hang that over their heads, and laugh at them too.

"How could you like Lola?" Logan asked, obnoxiously. Michael rolled his eyes.

"And tell me what's wrong with that?"

"Ok," Logan explained with one of his smirks. I've roomed with them for two years straight. I'm used to it by now. "She can't like you back… because she'll all over me and you'll be heart broken…'cause she'll be all 'Michael who?'"

"Man, shut up…" Michael shot back at Logan. "Don't hate just because I got the single bed and you didn't…"

Logan retorted, "I can knock you out again if you like…"

"Yes, I'm great. How are you guys?" I said, sarcastically. Both of them turned to face me.

"Oh, hey Chase," Michael greeted. Logan did the same thing. Then silence. Logan broke it, and when I mean broke it, I mean full on rant.

"Ok, if Michael won't say anything…I will. Chase, you're a moron!" Logan yelled at me. Wait, what?

"I can't believe I'm sayin' this but I agree with him, man," Michael nodded. My day just got worse. I'm sure that there is some sick, twisted person controlling me… one that clearly gets a kick out of watching me drown in my own misery. Michael sighed. "How could you get a girlfriend?"

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

"Well…I, uh, don't know…really. One thing happened and…leave me alone, 'kay…" I said, slightly irritated. Just then my phone went off. I fished for it, and the ID read REBECCA. I groaned. Man, I hate being tied down…ok, not really but I don't want to answer it. Not right now.

"Well, answer it already…your ring tone is starting to bug me," Logan retorted.

"It's better than hearing 'Wanna Make Out?' a hundred times," I shot back, before flipping my cell phone open to answer… as much as I didn't want to. I put on the fakest happy voice ever. I answered, as Michael gave me raised eyebrows. "Hello? Yeah… ok… oh, really? Ok, bye."

I hung up and screamed, "She's too clingy! HELP ME!"

"Well, you made your own bed…you lie in it…" Logan said, as he sat on his bed, typing furiously on his laptop. Wonder what he was doing?

"Gee thanks. You're a lot of help, Logan," said Michael, sarcastically.

"Yeah, yeah, no problem. Now shut up…I'm doing something…" Logan said, absentmindedly. I turned to Michael with pleading eyes.

"Seriously, what do I do? I know…it was stupid, but I did it, and agreed to go out with Rebecca. Zoey, sorta, found out in a way I didn't want her to…and she's acting weird ever since," I explained, running a hand through my curls.

Michael looked at me, and shook his head, "Please tell me, Zoey didn't see you kissing Rebecca…"

Silence. I avoided his eyes.

"Chase!" Michael yelled, hitting me on the upper arm. "I said tell her not show her."

I sighed, putting my head in my hands, "I know, I know. I screwed up. Now Zoey's been avoiding like me the plague. Apparently, Lola and Quinn found out about my PDA, because Lola told me Zoey was mad at them now, which confuses me even more…"

Logan looked up, "What have you been smoking, man? There's only one explanation for that."

"She hates me?" I questioned, sadly.

"No…"

"Than what?" I asked.

"She likes you!" Michael and Logan screamed at the same time. No, no. They can't be serious. NO… Zoey likes me? What? This can't be…

But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

"No…she can't like…me," I stammered. My head hurts.

Logan sighed, closing his laptop. He got off his bed, and pulled me off the beanbag (with Michael's help). Why didn't anyone tell me it was "Let's Annoy Chase" Day? I was standing now. What the hell are they planning? Why are they looking at me like they haven't eaten in days?

"That's it! I don't want you all mopey, so get your ass to Fulton Hall now!" Logan instructed.

"Ok…Chase, we're only doing this because we're your friends, and we're here to look out for you," Michael said, in a weirdly calming voice. Ok, I'm scared. I slowly backed away.

"Um, thanks," I replied, slowly backing away. I hoped I was going into the direction of the door. "…and since we're all friends and we're all 'looking out' for each other…I guess now would be a bad time to tell you, Michael…that Logan's been selling your chip stash for profit, and Logan, Michael broke your mirrors a couple days ago! Ok, I'm going to go! Bye."

I bolted, out of my dorm before I could see the battle going on in my dorm. I knew Logan would get me back for selling him out, but it was worth it…and I had to save my own butt, but there was something more important. I had to save my friendship with Zoey. I couldn't watch it fall apart… but Zoey likes me?

For some reason, my mind is unable to wrap its self around this. Or maybe it's unwilling to. I'm just weird like that.

I walked out of my dorm to the boys' lounge, when I was stopped by her.

And my nightmare begins… now…

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

"Hey, babe…" Rebecca said, as she wrapped her arms around my neck, and she gave me a kiss on the lips. She pulled away. God, I feel like such a user…

"How was your day?" she asked.

"Good…" I lied. Okay, I can't act like this anymore. I pulled away from her grasp. "Uh, Rebecca?"

"Yeah, Chase?"

I sighed, running a hand through my curls, "We need to talk…"

We walked over to the couches, and she sat beside me. I took a deep breath, mentally preparing for what I was about to say. She looked me in the eyes, which made me feel worse. I can't believe I'm saying this, but I wish I were Logan at the moment. He dumps girls the way he breathes.

I can't do that. I'm a pushover.

"So, what do we need to talk about?" Rebecca asked me.

"I'm sorry," I blurted out. "I can't do this!"

She raised an eyebrow in confusion, "Do what?"

We were now standing. I could feel myself getting frustrated. Not frustrated with Rebecca, but with myself because I couldn't sort my feelings out in time.

"I'm sorry. I can't do this to you…" I finally said, looking away.

"Are you breaking up with me, Chase?"

"Yes…" I managed squeak out.

"Why? Was I not good enough for you? Is there someone else or did you just wake and decide to dump me today?" she asked, angrily. This, in turn made me kinda angry… and no girl has made me angry before. Maybe, my older sister…but she doesn't count.

"Ok, listen up, Rebecca… you are way off here—" she cut me off.

"Am I really, Chase? I'm not stupid, you know. Why would you string me along like this? Especially we made out yesterday! Remember! When Zoey walked in on us… remember that?"

Why? Why would she throw that in my face now?

"Why?" I asked, slightly peeved. "Why of all times would you choose to throw that in my face?"

"Now that's a pretty stupid question, considering it's the truth!" she screamed. A crowd was starting to gather around us. I didn't care. I needed to get all of this of my chest. I know this relationship wouldn't last but I agreed to go out with Rebecca so I could get over the drama of Spring Break. I went home thinking that I could get over Zoey, and rekindle my romance with Rebecca.

I lied. I lied to myself. I'm not over Zoey. Actually, far from it. Like it or not, Zoey Brooks holds my heart captive! Hear that, PCA? I still love Zoey!

"Now you're being incredibly selfish, Rebecca. So far you've only thought about you… You don't think I feel bad. Why the heck do you think I'm dumping you? You need someone that can love you unconditionally," I explained, traces of anger still there. I said, the last part softly though, "…and that guy isn't me. Why? Because my heart is…with someone else, and I have to fix with it and make things right… I'm sorry."

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Do you hear me crying?

"I don't want to hurt you, by lying to you," I finished. My eyes averted ahead to the girls' lounge. Rebecca's eyes' widened, as she backed away from me. I saw a tear slip down her cheek, and she wiped it away. Then she spoke in the most chilling voice ever.

"Who is it?"

I said nothing. Maybe if I don't talk, this will all disappear and rewind itself. She crossed her arms as her foot tapped impatiently.

"Well… I'm waiting…"

I sighed and answered truthfully, "Zoey…"

"You may have not meant to hurt me, Chase…but you did…"

"Don't make this any harder than it already is, please? I'm so sorry. It was great while it lasted, but I'd lying to you if I told you I loved you…because… I don't," I said, softly. We locked eyes, and I didn't hate that Rebecca had this painful look in her eyes, but I hate that I put that there. That's the same look Zoey gave me during Spring Break, when I took her Tekmate and she found out, but I had a reason…a valid reason.

We stood there in silence. I felt like I had to officially end my relationship with Rebecca. Hopefully, she will find someone else. I took a step toward her, and she remained there.

I took her hands in mine, and placed a kiss on her cheek. Not one of those romantic kisses with meaning… more like a goodbye kiss. I pulled away, and let go of her hands.

"See you later… I guess," I said.

"No," she replied, shaking her head as a tear fell. "This is goodbye. Goodbye forever, Chase."

I shrugged, with a small smile, "I guess that's fair. Goodbye, Rebecca."

And I shuffled through the crowd and walked away…

I walked away from all of my problems…

I don't know if it was just me, but the sun is brighter, and the air smells like daisies. Daises… Zoey told me that was her favourite flower. This must be a sign. I broke out into a run, as I headed for the girls' lounge…

Logan's voice rang in my head: Get your ass to Fulton Hall now!

I ran as fast as I could to Fulton Hall. I just hope I'm not too late…

I'm coming, Zoey. I love you too much to lose you…

A/N: I've decided to make this into a two-shot. Next part will be in Zoey's POV. I'm not happy with this because it's my first two-shot, but I hope I get a decent amount of reviews for this. I'll try to work on my multi-chapter story, and get those on track. I promise.

Anyway, I'll have PART TWO by Tuesday, so go nuts and review.

Song For the Next Chapter: I Think I Love You by Kaci Brown.

Thanks again for reading.

--Erika