Title: Lion's Den
Author: Oriana
Pairings: Seifer + Squall
Rating: PG
Notes: Ah, this is my first FF8 fic, so I'm still getting a feel for the characters. A.k.a. this is short. Gomen ne! *sweatdrops* Um, Seifer introspection.
Spoilers: Um, a lot if you haven't gotten this far...
Disclaimer: Dey be belonging to squaresoft. *sob*
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I willingly threw the lamb to the lion.
She cowered against me, the little idiot; somehow she must have thought that by pleading for her life it would save her. Never. Never could that be so. She stole you from me, took you away from me in our moments of weakness.
So I gave her to Adel.
I thought it would bring you back to me.
But you fought for her, fought for her pathetic life. I watched, my beloved coat draping my body in tatters as you fell, unable to help as Quistis cast a Curaga and you rose again to you feet to continue fighting for her. Her, for -her-, always for her.
Why her?
Why is it that you react to her as you never reacted to me?
I was watching at the graduation dance; I knew she was looking for me. Apparantly, she found you instead. Fickle creature. I watched as she dragged you out unto the dance floor, watched as she wrapped her arms around you and watched as you gazed into her eyes.
Even then, she was pulling you away from me. Even though I knew, knew that you could never feel the same way I did about you - you were too perfect - she was planting the seeds of dissension between us. With one dance, she cast me aside in your thoughts as if I was a peice of worthless trash.
But I am a peice of worthless trash, to have tossed away her life like that for my own selfish desires. If she makes you happy, that's okay then, right? I just want you to be happy.
My clever (hah! clever?) plans are destroyed now, in any case. Adel is faltering and I can see the bonds she holds Rinoa to her with disolving. You've won again. You always win now. No more equal footing, Seifer; Squall's a prince and you're the pauper. Just admit it. Admit to yourself that you can never have him...
There may have been a time when I had a chance to be with him, for him to love me as I do him. But that time is over; it's time to give in and throw myself into the lion's den.
He's beaten me more thoroughly this time than he has before; more thoroughly than I let him see. He can't know that by now I'm under my own control; fully aware with the knowledge of what I've done to him, to everyone.
Fuujin, Raijin...even you've left me.
It's over.
It's all over for me now. Ultemecia waits for you, but for me - it's all over.
She's falling into your arms.
I want to be in those arms.
I'm so tired...I'll... just close my eyes, so I don't have to look.
Just for a moment.
Just until you're gone.