Seconds


Days can be seconds.

But they don't feel like that then,
Only as they are lost, you realize
how quickly they went by,
Only then you miss them.

It was like that, when you and I met,
flower girl
Soldier
Didn't realize what you did to me,
didn't realize how much more there was
behind those green eyes.

Sweet and innocent hiding a secret of a forgotten heritage -
- Innocent?
Or just pretending?
As you followed me in a battle that was more yours than it was mine.

Seconds can be hours.

Now I wish I had known you better, didn't push you away,
They call my name, tell me to stop,
but I do not hear them,
I only hear him, and I hate it so -

yet you look at me as if you know, you know
you know what's going to happen,

and you smile

One instant, one moment,
emerald eyes go wide and then close.
One second,
and you are gone,
and he looks at me, and he smiles

like you did before

One second,
and it's all over,
but it was years to me,

That'll go through my mind again and again,
reminding me, never letting me forget,

that I love you
and I killed you.

And now I will kill him.