It is still dark when I wake up, but I suppose the sun will rise in about an hour. Maybe I should go check the traps I put yesterday and see if I have something for breakfast.
I get out of the cave I was hiding in. My bag can stay here, I doubt this will take too long and I should be getting back in no more than two hours. How I wish I had my bow and arrow right now. That way I could go hunt myself instead of using those lousy traps I'm still working on. anyways, I'm walking through the forest when I hear steps. I stay still and try to see where it comes from. My right. Who is it? It is impossible to recognize anyone with the poor light thats in the sky at this time in the morning, but I think it is a boy. He's making too much noise! The animals are running away! What is he trying to do? I've just stepped over a branch and broken it. Has he seen me? I think he has because he is getting nearer. Now he has started to run towards me and I regret I haven't brought anything more than a knife. I jump to the side to evade him, but his arm goes straight to my stomach. Wrestling is not exactly my best resource, but is the only thing I have. Besides the knife. I try to stab the boy in the shoulder, but he pushes me against a tree. I find myself face to face with him. He suddenly sights in surprise and I take this as an advantage and try to cut his arm with my knife, but he only gets a tiny scratch because he grabs my right hand with his left and throws me to the ground. He is much stronger than I am and for a moment I am afraid. But then I remember Prim must be watching this. I don't want her to see me die. So I tackle my enemy and he falls to the ground. I hurry to get my knife in position, and kneel on top of him. Im pointing my knife to his throat when I'm able to see his face in the sunlight. It's Peeta. I can't kill him, his from my district! Don't be stupid, he is probably trying to figure out a way of killing you, I think to my self.
"Do it, kill me." he says. His blue eyes staring into mine.
"You..." is the only word I manage to get out of my mouth.
My left hand is on the side of his head and my right is trying so hard not to let go the knife. But I find myself fighting the urge to close the gap separating our lips. His face is jut a few inches from mine. Finally I give up. He seems to be lost in my eyes and his left hand is on my waist. I put my right hand on the ground, still holding the knife and my left is sudenly on his cheek. I lower my head and kiss him. I'm pleased to feel him kissing back and I want more. I forget about the knife and use my right hand to play with his hair. I can feel his hand on my scalp, gentle and warm. I dont want this to end, but it has to. I try to pull myself out of the kiss, but his hand on the back of my head won't let me. Then I insist more, and he let's me go. I look him in the eyes, then I stand up and start walking away. What have I done? Am I really that stupid?
"Wait." Peeta has stood up but I don't bother to turn around.
"This is wrong." I say "Don't you realize? We will both die soon or later."
"Katniss, don't say that"
"No! Stop lying to yourself, Peeta! This can't be." I turn around to look at him. His arm is bleeding. "We can't be!"
And then I go running back to the cave, leaving my knife behind. Not wanting to see him again. Not wanting to see any single trace of life on this world. When I get there, I sit down and burry my head on my knees. Trying to erase every feeling from my face. Not wanting to show any weakness because im sure all Panem is watching me right now.