Dream and memories

letter

"talk"

-thought-

This is my first time writing something like this so please have mercy!! Once I dreamt something like this so I thought – hey! Why not share it with other people??- so here we are.

Hope you enjoy!!

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto. I only own the character that I made up, Kaen, and my shirt. Steal either and your ass is mine!!

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A tale of loneliness, happiness and love

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He was alone in a park. Other children were happily playing with each other and their parents were watching them with a loving smile on their faces. He went near the kids and said: "can I play with you??"

Suddenly all the people around him started to hit him. They didn't care that he was only a child. They wanted him dead.

"die demon!"

"you should have never been born"

"you're a disgrace!!"

"It's you fault that my husband died!!"

Terrified he ran away up to a beautiful clear lake near the Hokage mountain and started to cry. He thought that he was alone and that no one would ever be there for him. He envied all those kids at the park.

They didn't know the pain of going home and find it empty. They didn't know what was like not to know the warmness of a body hugging them. They didn't know what it was like to have no one that believed in them. He envied every bit of love that they received.

He was alone, just like always.

Suddenly he heard a soft noise and looked up only to find himself staring in a pair of impossible purple eyes. "wanna play with me??" asked the girl taking his hand.

He looked at her. She had red fiery hair and the most beautiful smile he had ever seen. A smile that held all the warmness and the love that he had always wished for.

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He woke up suddenly, covered in sweet. "damn that dream again". He let himself enjoy the warmness of the bed and laid still. –damn it!… what the hell is all this about??-

It had been two week since it all started. He was on mission when a little girl with red hair approached him and asked him to play with her because her parents were always away. Since then he kept on having the same exact dream every day.

What troubled him the most was that it was so vivid to resemble more a memory than a dream but he couldn't remember anything like this happening to him. What worried him even more was the fact that now every time someone smiled at him the girl of the dream one's came to his mind at full force.

He didn't know what he was feeling when he thought about her but it was surely something new.

Desperation?? 'cause he knew that it would eventually fade and that that smile would never grace him??

Warmness?? 'cause that was the smile full of love that he had always wished for??

Fuzziness?? 'cause it made him warm inside??

Longing?? 'cause if it was something he once really had now he won't be able to see it anymore?

It was all so confusing…

-do you really exist??

….I think that believing in your existence is much better than not doing it and closing my eyes in front of the truth-

Slowly he got up and went to the bathroom. Went he exited he dressed and made himself breakfast.

-today will be just like any other, empty and cold. Better not get my hopes up, I'll never met her.-

He was apathetic. He didn't give a damn about anything save a few people that he still treasured.

He wasn't happy and he will never be so there was no point in doing anything that wasn't protect the few he cared for and keep on living so that they wouldn't be sad and miss him.

If you want to be happy then put a smile on your face no matter how hard it may be, someday the god of happiness will surely come to knock at you door, never forget this.

He stopped in the middle of his living room. –wha…. What the hell was that?!- he immediately recognized the voice of the girl of the dream. -Kaen...-

-wha!... wait! were the hell did that come from??-

He already had a terrible headache so he figured he would leave it alone and go out. He kept on walking, not listening to all what was said behind his back. He was tired, so tired of all this shit and…. He was surprised to find out that he didn't care about it anymore.

For all he cared that hellhole could go and burn in despair. He had had enough. He went to the Hokage office and left a letter on the desk. Done that he started to walk towards the gates of the village.

The guard didn't even bother to try and stop him. In all truth they didn't care and thought that the village was better off without him.

They looked at his retreating back until nothing could be seen.

Uzumaki Naruto, genin of the leaf village, left.

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Tsunade entered her office and, as she sat on her desk, she saw a letter.

"Shizune- she asked at her assistant –do you know who left here this letter??"

Looking at it the woman shook her head "sorry lady Hokage but I don't know.."

Curious the blond opened it and, as she read her eyes widened.

Dear Tsunade-baa-chan,

I'm sorry to leave so suddenly but I can't take it anymore. Don't worry I'll definitely return so please make it seems like I am away for a long term mission.

I figured that I needed a little break. I'll train myself and I'll be stronger so that I'll be able to protect my precious people. And I still have to realize my dream and become Hokage but… once old man Sarutobi told me that for and Hokage the village is one big family.

I don't fully understand the concept of family and I hope to discover it during my travel. Don't worry too much about me. I'll be ok.

Love,

Uzumaki Naruto.

PS: you can tell the truth at Neji, Shikamaru, Kiba, Sai, Yamato, Shizune-nee and Ayame and Teuchi at the ramen stand. Since you're here give them some money because with their number one costumer gone they'll probably have some financial problems.

Oh could you tell it to Gaara and his siblings?? Thank you.

Tsunade passed the letter to Shizune who read it and broke down crying. "what do we do now??"

The Hokage got up and looked at the village. "we'll do what he asked us to do and… we'll wait for him to return home"

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Somewhere a girl with long red hair looked at his two companions. They had just killed the organization called Akatsuki and were ready to start again their travel.

"Shall we go??"

"you still want to find him??" asked the bigger figure with a big long sword on his back.

"shut up. Of curse she want!" said the other smaller figure.

The red haired girl got up from her sitting position putting away her jet black katana.

"I have to find him… Naruto Uzumaki."

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So what do you think?? Actually I don't know if I should continue this story or not so tell me.

Guessed who are the two guys with her??

Eheheh! I'll never tell you!!

Please R&R 'cause I'll be happy and I'll give you my lovely cookies!! XD

-kiss-