Hey guys. I want to write a fic just until April 26th when the show returns. I am basing it post 7.19 and around the recent promo that was released for the final four episodes. It revolves around Haley. If you haven't seen the promo, I suggest taking a look at it before reading.
Here is the link: .com/watch?v=zhg8H9MxGcg
In case it doesn't work, here is the title for youtube: One Tree Hill 7.19-7.22 Promo "Final Four"Please let me know what you think and if I should continue. Remember this is only until the 26th. Just something to hold us down until the show is back. Please review!
Here we go…
I can't breathe. Every limb in my body aches. My heart feels like it is suffocating me, bonding my chest in a roll of knots. It is not supposed to be like this. Life was finally solid. Our life had finally turned that corner, and it seemed like nothing could ruin it. I should've known better. I should've known not to get my hopes up. Life never has a smooth run for long.
The moment my mom told me she had cancer, my world stopped spinning. It was knocked off its axis and was done. My mom was superwoman. There was no way this disease could control her life.
Ever since my mom's funeral, I can't return to normal. What was normal? Do I even remember it? Maybe this is the new normal, this numbness, this overwhelming constant feeling of dejection.
"Hales? Baby? Where are you? I'm home." Nathan asked as he wondered through the empty house. He was constantly worried about Haley. He listened every night as she cried herself to sleep. He tried so hard to comfort her, but no matter how tight he held onto to while she emptied her emotions onto her pillow, nothing seemed to help. "Hales?" He heard sniffling coming from the extra bedroom. The extra bedroom her mother spent her last few weeks of life in. He turned to corner and carefully pushed open the door. There she was. She was lying on the bed that has still not been touched since Lydia James occupied it. "Baby…" Nathan said walking towards the bed. He kneeled down to the floor on Haley's side and consciously rubbed soft circles along her back. His movements stilled as she flinched at his touch, just then realizing his presence in the room. She slowly turned to her side and was met with his soft blue orbs, a tear falling from her eye.
"Hi." That was all she could get out. It was like her throat was capped off. Her eyes fluttered shut as Nathan reached over and gently placed a kiss on her forehead and grab her hand.
"Hales…" He started to say as she suddenly found her voice and opened her mouth to speak.
"It smells like her. This room. This bed. The pillow. It smells like my mom. It's like she's in her with me." She paused to let a few tears drop from her eye and Nathan reached forward and wiped them from her cheek and receiving a small smile from Haley. "What time is it?" She asked.
"Almost two." Nathan responded, reaching over and tucking a fallen piece of hair behind her ear. "Want me to go pick up Jamie from Skills?"
Haley slowly sat up, pausing a minute before standing. She quickly wiped away another tear and turned back to Nathan. "Yeah. I'm going to shower and go to Tric. I'm supposed to meet with Miranda."
"Oh, okay. Do you want me to pick something up for dinner?"
"Actually. I'll probably be late. So don't worry about me." She leaned up and pressed her lips softly against his. She pulled back and started to walk away when Nathan grabbed her wrist and turned her back to him.
"I love you."
"Love you too." Haley forced a smile and left the room.
Haley sat on the steps in the outside of Tric. She was supposed to meet Miranda twenty minutes ago, but couldn't bring herself to enter the building. She heard footsteps from behind her and she quickly turned around to find a young, bearded man standing behind her. "Aren't you Haley James Scott?" He asked, taking a seat on the step next to her.
Haley watched the man sit down, very confused as to why he was making himself at home. The man looked towards her waiting for his answer. Haley looked straight ahead very aware that she had not answered the young man but not caring. "Well. I heard about your mom. I'm sorry, that is a real bummer."
Haley turned her face glaringly towards him. "Uh, who the hell are you?" She asked.
"The name's David." He answered holding his hand out for Haley to shake.
"Well, David, is there something I can help you with?" She asked in hopes to get rid of the man.
"Nah, just thought maybe I could help you. That's all." Haley looked at him confused. "Look, I lost my dad a few years back. I slumped. I didn't care about life anymore. Nothing mattered. I didn't feel much but then all of a sudden I started to feel again."
Haley glanced at the man and then back to the parking lot. "How? I mean, why did you start feeling again?" She mumbled.
"You just gotta live life. I mean, go out there and feel a rush. It reminds you that you are alive, ya know? Go buy a motorcycle, drive past the speed limit with your window down. Put all fears behind you and just go for it." He looked at Haley one last time and without saying a word, stood up and turned to leave. "Have a good one."
Haley just sat there. Was he right? Did she need a rush? Would that knock the life back into her? The life that left the moment the woman who gave her that life left the world?
Nathan hung up the phone. He called Skills to ask him if he was ready for him to come get Jamie. Skills told him he was just about to take Jamie and Chuck to the rivercourt and he'd drop him off around six. With the sudden handful of empty time, Nathan decided to go visit Haley at Tric. On the drive over there, he couldn't help but think about all that Haley has been going through. He's so worried about her. She hasn't drawn back from him too much, but she was in no means herself. She was closed off. She wouldn't tell him exactly how she was feeling. Doesn't she know she doesn't always have to be the strong one? Not with him. He wants to be strong for her; he wants her to confide in him. He needs her to confide with him. As he entered Tric, he couldn't immediately spot Haley so he went and took a seat at the bar. "Hey, Grubs. How's it going?"
"Hey man" Grubs responded, placing a bottle of beer in front of Nathan.
Nathan smiled. Grubs was right on. "Have you seen Haley anywhere around?" he asked, taking a drink of his beer while looking around the club.
"No, I haven't. Is she coming in today?"
"Yeah, she should be here by now."
Grubs threw his washcloth over his shoulder and watched as Miranda approached the bar. He gave her a small smile and a wink as Miranda returned a smirk before turning her attention to Nathan. "Nathan, have you seen Haley?" she asked, obviously annoyed to the lack of Haley's presence.
"I was just about to ask you the same thing." Nathan responded setting his beer down and turning towards Grubs. "Thanks for the beer man, what do I owe you?"
"It's on the house."
"Thanks. Miranda, let me know if you find Haley, alright?" Nathan asked distractingly as he gazed over the gathering crowd and walked away. He turned the corner towards the parking lot, pulling out his phone to call Haley when he heard a loud rumble and a cloud of dirt surround him. He coughed and swatted at the dirt and back down the road. He watched as the red mustang he bought Haley took off like lightning. "Oh god." Nathan muttered as he hopped into his own car and followed the car down the old dirt road.