Title: Such Short Forever
Pairing: Hisoka/Tsuzuki
Summary: Hisoka has a book of "forever"s, pages and years that he loathes and fears and never wants to read again.
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"Forever", infinite in depth yet so very, very shallow. Hisoka has a book of "forever"s, pages and years that he loathes and fears and never wants to read again.
"Forever" was a night, a few short hours, a pair of silver eyes and white, white hair. "Forever" was an intricate design woven on pale flesh, burning and painful and so very, very humiliating. "Forever" was the bright, blinding pain and the white, sterile hospital sheets. "Forever" was the look of absolute and complete hate burning in his mother's eyes, was the feeling searing his heart and mind and soul because he could feel her anger like a tangible substance sliding down his throat and sinking angry, angry claws into his lungs and heart.
Because in those few short moments, the world had stopped and eternity had weighed down on him and he felt, tasted, became a part of that "forever".
But "forever", those "forever"s, were chased away by purple eyes and puppy- dog smiles, and Hisoka decides that "forever" is a flimsy, weak thing. Hisoka doesn't want to spend "forever" with Tsuzuki, doesn't want that chapter to close, scrawled words covered by the flip of a page, he wants to spend now. Because no matter how long, it is always now and always will be now, and that will never, ever change.
And somehow "I'll love you for now" sounds so much more truthful, anyway.
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Fin.