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I never liked wandering around alone. I'm always watching other people hanging out with their friends, laughing their heads off, acting like there's no one in pain. In the end, they're the ones who'll be in pain.
I just wish for all this to end... I need someone to care for me, love or friendly- I don't care! I need someone to hang with, girl or boy, even an alian!
My parent wouldn't understand... They just say its all just a phase, that I'll go through it in a couple of days, but I know better. My father just treats me no different; we train, eat, school, eat, train, homework, eat, train, and sleep. They don't even notice that there's something wrong with me, and they act like it's nothing or a phase! I need attention!
I need friends... not attention... I need to speak out a little more... Yet, what if I make a fool out of myself? What if I make myself even more miserable... I can't take that chance! I can't! I need too, but I can't! I'm trap in a voild of thought, I can't do a thing unless someone breaks the void for me so I could be free and no longer miserable!
I need to break out of this prism... I have to be free and do my things! I want to join sports, I want to go to after school programs, I want to go to the movies with friends, I want to play pranks on adults, go to parties, and even sleepovers!
Yet, I know it'll never happen... All these things are just wants... wishes... dreams... And I've learned from the past few years that... that... that dreams don't come true... wishes are never granted... wants are never given... and you'll end up miserabler...
I never wanted to become this person that I am. I never wanted to hurt others by making them cry. I never wanted to betray my family... I never wanted to destroy the ones I love... Now its too late... Just a few hours ago, I've taken the pill to end my pain... I've suvived for two hours hen what was expected... I know I'll die any minute know...
And I'll miss my family and my first and last friend, Goten... I'll miss the evening sun go down... I'll miss the earth move under my feet, causing mortols to fall while I stand without stubbling... I'll even miss watching my sister get what she wants in front of my eyes from my father... Things I never recieved...
From my father, I never recieved affection, emotion, he never played with me; only sparred, and now its too late...
I see blurred faces as tears stream down my face... My vision has failed me, and I only see pitch black. I search for lights, but find none.
"Am I dead?" I muttered as my mother's arms hugged me. "I'm sorry, mother..." then, my hearing goes out, and I can't hear her soothing words, her sobbing words, her painful words. I sense my father come in the room. I can sense him staring at me. "Father... I'm sorry too..." I manage to blurt out before I couldn't speak.
Unheard voice shouted as I drifted away from them all. I was falling into darkness... the light was far away and I couldn't reach it... it was too far away... I tried to get up but a pair of invisible arms held me down as the light ran away. I felt my soul being tortured as my body was being jerked up and down by my father's raged arms.
"I'M SORRY!" were my last words as my heart stopped beating and I was never heard from again...