Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters. Stephenie Meyer does.

Date: July 14, 2010
Title: All I Need is a Strong Heart
Summary: Inspired by this quote: "Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak...sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go." In Bella's POV on what she should do to forget about Edward. Set in New Moon. A oneshot.
A/N: In this oneshot, Edward has no intention of coming back. It's during Bella's darkest hour, and Jake is the only one with her.

Inspired by this quote: "Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak...sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go." –Unknown

I sit up in bed, waking up to the rare sunny sky of Forks. It's been so long. Since… he left me. The pain soared through my heart and my torso. I bent over in pain and let hot tears roll down my face. Eventually, I pulled myself together. I got up and went to the bathroom. I stared at myself. I didn't look any better. The same matted hair, dull eyes, dark circles underneath them, and the thin pale lips.

I closed my eyes, his face flashed before my eyelids. He was smiling at me. His hand open towards me, like he wanted to hold me. Hug me tight. But, he was leaving. Going back. Why? He was saying something. But it was so quiet I couldn't make out the words. His expression was blank, and then turned mean. He turned away from me and walked away. Into the deep darkness ahead of me.

I open my eyes. I couldn't let go of him. It was too hard. He was a part of me. Actually no, he was the whole part. I need him with me. Jake had told me multiple times to just give up on him. He's never coming back. But I can't. Giving up would mean ending my life. Giving up would be too hard.

I would somehow need to forget everything we did together. Forget about my feelings for him. Forget about our short-lived love. I would need to forget… him. I fell onto the closed toilet seat and clutched my torso again. Forgetting him would be so difficult. I would have to forget… me. Myself. I would need to forget my being and who I am. Jake said it would be easy… like giving up reading a certain book. But no, he's wrong. I won't be able to give up on him. I won't be able to stop thinking about him. He haunts my dreams every night. No matter how much I suppress him, he always comes back. He will never leave my mind. You can never escape yourself. Your other half. No. Giving up on him, not thinking about his face, how he made me feel, it would be too much. Though he doesn't love me anymore, I always will. Nothing can change that. To give up on him, I would need to be strong. Strong enough to leave myself. To become a different being. A different self.

I will never be strong enough to forget him.

A/N: Hi! I am new here, so sorry if I disappointed you. But, how did you guys like it? I know it's short, but this idea was spinning in my head for a while now. Please review! Tell me how it is! I love you all! 3