This is eventual Seamus/Dean, Fred/Hermione, Neville/Luna, and Draco/Blaise. There will be some non-con and abusive relationships as well as Seamus being in a 3-way (consensual of course). OCC for some characters. There will be some Ginny and Lavender/Ron bashing but not the entire story. This will not follow canon during HBP.

Summary: Watching Dean and his on-again, off-again relationship is becoming too much for Seamus. He takes up on an offer McLaggen offers him and it slowly destroys him, will Dean and some allies put a stop to their 'relationship,' or will it destroy him completely?

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter but if I did, I would make Seamus and Dean officially canon.

It's not like he blows things up on purpose but every time it happens, he lets out a giggle that brightens his day up. He doesn't care that all of the others in his class laugh and point at him. He doesn't care when the teacher looks at him with disappointment. He doesn't care the his face is covered in soot and his eyebrows are singed because he laughs and his dark eyes are shining with glee. He doesn't care about anything except his smile because Seamus Finnigan is in love with his best friend, Dean Thomas.

It all began in their first year of Hogwarts, where Seamus first met Dean. He could tell they were going to be close and once properly introduced, they've been inseparable ever since. From their second to forth year, he was beginning to feel odd when ever Dean wrapped his long arms around his smaller frame. His face would heat up and his palms got sweaty. His smile was the brightest smile Seamus had ever seen and he could stare at it forever. Whenever he blew something up, he wasn't embarrassed like he would have been when the others students begin laughing at him. He would giggle and once he caught his breath, would pull Seamus toward him and use his robe to wipe away the smoke and soot around his face.

Being this close to Dean would always make Seamus nervous as he could count the darker freckles on his beautiful brown skin. He could see tiny flecks of gold within Dean's dark eyes. Aside from being so close to Dean and having him touch his face, the best part of it all was the radiant smile Dean would always give him once he was done. Ever since, he would always wish for something to explode to have Dean care for him.

It wasn't until fifth year when Seamus realized how much he missed Dean.

Watching him talk to Neville, Harry, and Ron about Dumbledore's Army always hurt. While he did feel bad that he yelled at Harry, he realized his mistake when he realized that his classmate was telling the truth. Before then, Dean was distant from him but it was Seamus' fault for pushing everyone away the first few weeks of the year. Having Dean so close but yet so far had Seamus missing his best friend. When he finally joined Dumbledore's Army and stopped being such a jerk, Dean was right back at his side as if nothing happened. When he apologized to Dean, Dean scooped him up in a hug and claimed that he was forgiven and that he missed him. Seamus' heart was pounding in his chest and he felt the sudden need to press his hands against Dean's face and kiss him. The thoughts frightened him, especially when people around the school have been taunting the two of them about how gay they were for each other, which Seamus would frantically deny. He wasn't gay for Dean.

He really wasn't.

Until he realized he was.

And it was too late the moment Dean flooed into his house one day to announce that he and Ginny were dating the summer before their sixth year.

He was shocked. More than shocked. His heart was being ripped away by some unknown force and he felt the sudden need to hide into his room and cry. He give a fake, shaky smile before halfheartedly congratulating him. Dean hugged him tightly, before cheering, jumping, and swaying happily. That night, Dean stayed over an told Seamus' family about the news, they cheered as well and congratulated him.

"Now if Seamus can get himself a girlfriend, things would be perfect," Seamus' mother adds once the table quiets down.

His uncle nods, "he's a handsome lad, it wouldn't be surprising that Seamus may have some of the ladies chasing after him."

Seamus mutters to himself so quiet that not even Dean, who is a bit too close to him can hear him.

Mrs. Finnigan leans forward, her hand cupping her ear, "speak up Seamus, you know we raised you to speak loud and clear."

The table is silent as they wait for Seamus to open his mouth. "I don't think I'm into women."

An awkward silence stays at the table for a minute before his uncle clears his throat, "well, I didn't see that coming but either way, you should be having a handsom lad in your arms by now."

"Thanks Uncle Lan, but I don't think the guy I'm into feels the same."

Dean wrapped an arm around Seamus shoulders and gave him a supportive smile, "I'm sure he'll feel the same, after all, who wouldn't want to be with a guy as great as you? Surely he must be dumb or blind to not notice you."

Seamus' face flushed a bight red before he lowers his face down in embarrassment. Dinner continues as usual and Seamus is relieved to not have all the attention on dinner ended, he quickly locked himself into his room and fet his eyes water up the moment he lays himself on the bed. He cried for a few minutes before feeling exhaustion flood his body. He fell asleep to the sound of the door opening slowly and Dean whispering a good night's sleep.

After that night, things began to change as Ginny pushed herself more into the picture. Whenever Dean promised to hang out with Seamus, he would cancel the last minute, explaining that he and Ginny were going somewhere to hang out or to go on a date. When the summer ended and the new school year was starting, Dean didn't even board the Hogwarts Express with him. He was all over Ginny and Seamus could feel himself boil over with jealousy. He goes into the nearest compartment and stares into the empty seat across from him. He spends most of the train ride alone, aside from Luna Lovegood speaking to him for a couple of minutes about The Quibbler. With 15 minutes left to arrive at Hogwarts, Seamus begins to change into his school robes. When he was about to put his shirt on, the compartment door slid open.

"Shit," Seamus curses, "I knew I should have locked the door."

When he looked up, he was surprised to see Dean rushing in and quickly and tearing off his already messy clothes quickly.

"What happened to you clothes Dean?" asks Seamus, quickly turning his head away when the dark and muscled chest of Dean is revealed.

Dean nervously chuckled and give a devious smile, "Ginny and I were just having some fun before school."

The smile Seamus wore on his face slipped off quickly the moment Ginny's name was mentioned. "You two had sex on the train?"

"She suggested it."

Seamus rolled his eyes and continued to dress himself. When Ginny rushed in, her hair a mess, Seamus felt himself flinch. He watched the two flirt and touch each other and Seamus felt his heart getting tighter each second he watched. The moment the train whistled, Seamus rushed out of the compartment and into the empty cart and took deep breaths to calm his rapidly beating heart. As he was walking into the next cart, he pauses when he spotted two figures through the next cart's window walking to each other so intimately close. He couldn't see them unless he wanted to give himself away, so instead he slowly raised his eyes to the window at first, his eyes blur but when they clear, he squints to try to recognize them.

Both were wearing green Slytherin robes, which obviously told him that they were from Slytherin. Based from their figures, Seamus could tell that these two people were men. One was dark skin and pitch black hair while the other had platinum blonde hair and pale skin. The only guy with that kind of blonde hair and pale skin that Seamus knew was Malfoy and the closest person to Malfoy nowadays was Blaise. Now that he had the full view available to him, he could definitely confirm that it was Malfoy and Zabini.

But why were they so close to each other?

His answer was handed to him when Malfoy wraps his arms around Zabini's neck and pulls him in for a kiss, which Zabini returns with a returned passion. Seamus' jaw dropped and when he backs away from the door, he tripped over his own feet and landed on his ass. He rapidly tried to get himself up and when he finally get up on his shaky legs, a wand is pointed at his throat. When he looks up his surprised green eyes meet Malfoy's furious silver ones.

"I could kill you right here, right now."

"Calm down," says Blaise, who rests a hand on Malfoy's shoulder while carefully watching Seamus.

"What did you see," Malfoy growls out.

Seamus puts his hands up in surrender, "I won't tell anyone. I swear. What you do isn't my business at all?"

"And why should we trust you. I bet you'll be running off to your Gryffindor losers and tell them everything you saw," says Blaise

"I swear I won't."

"Then tell us something that no one knows," Malfoy offers

"WHAT?!"

Blaise steps closer to Malfoy, "think of it as trading secrets. You don't tell anyone what you saw and we won't tell anyone your big secret. It could go the other way if we tell anyone your biggest secret. Well?"

"Okay" Seamus agrees before taking a deep breath, "I'm gay..."

Blaise and Malfoy stare blankly at him. "And?" Draco asks.

"And I'm in love with Dean."

Baise's head tilts slightly in confusion, "isn't he dating Weaslette?"

Seamus nods.

"You tell him?"

Seamus shakes his head. "No one knows this. If he knew, I would hate myself. I don't want to ruin what he has with Ginny. That's my secret and I promise I won't tell anyone yours."

Blaise looked around the train cart, "we should leave. Someone is probably waiting for us to arrive."

Seamus nodded and turned, waiting for the other two to follow.

Malfoy shook his head, "you go ahead, I need to go back to our compartment and get something."

Blaise nodded and walked ahead, pausing until Seamus began to follow. They separate once they are check by Flitwick and walk to the castle and into the Great Hall. Seamus finds an empty seat between Neville and Dean, who both look at him and question his late arrival. Dinner ends quickly with the late arrive of Harry and Malfoy, the first of the pair sporting a bloody nose. When Malfoy sits next to Blaise, he watched him give a questioning look to Malfoy, who shrugs and piles a stack of food onto his plate. Dinner finished with Dumbledore giving a speech before the students leave and they leave to go up into their dorms.

Seamus slept the moment his head hit his pillow and woke up feeling slightly peaceful like a weight has been lifted from his shoulders. He goes his classes for the day and not much happens the next couple of weeks. When quidditch tryouts were starting, Seamus was in the stands to support Dean as a friend. He sat next to Hermione Granger, who seemed to be there for her friends as well.

It took nearly two weeks for the result to be posted and Dean was positioned as a Keeper, which he and Dean celebrated together for a short moment before Ginny came over to congratulate him in her own special way.

Once again, not much happens for a couple of weeks aside from having Dean taking care of him for a while due to some unexpected explosions and some cancelled hangout days for himself and Dean. It wasn't until the quidditch party after Slug Club when Seamus was fed up with Dean's bullshit. He was one hundred percent sure that Ginny and Dean were done forever after the terrible fight they had before one of the Slug Club meetings. They didn't speak to each other for a long time and they would glare when one got too close to the other. Dean was spending more time with Seamus again and it seemed like they were closer than ever. Dean gave plenty of lingering touches that had Seamus shivering and sometimes spent the night in Seamus' bed, holding the smaller man close to his body. Seamus felt like he may have a chance with Dean.

He made a decision. He was going to tell Dean his feelings after their first match against Slytherin. Which is where we are now.

The celebration was great at everyone was cheering and having a great time. Seamus ends up starting a conversation with Neville, who was a lot smarter than most people thought he was. When he was about to respond to a question Neville throws his way, cheers erupt and Seamus looks up to see Lavender kissing Ron. He cheers and whoops as well until he sees Hermione in front of him, turn and walk away with tears in her eyes. Shit. Didn't Hermione have feelings for Ron?

Seamus thought about chasing after her but the moment he was about to step away, more cheers echo and when he looks up, his heart shatters. Ginny and Dean and pressed together and kissing passionately. He turns and runs away with Neville shouting his name but he could hardly hear anything aside from the cheers and awwws surrounding the room. He keeps running until he blindly enters an empty classroom and lets the never ending tears slip from his eyes, falling to the floor and wrapping his arms around his knees and hiding his face.

There are hands that land on his shoulders and he was too hurt to do anything. Two bodies sit beside him, one on his left and the other on his right. When he opens his eyes and he meets a pair of anxious, silver eyes and another pair of concerned, brown eyes.

"I..." he can't even finish a simple sentence.

"We got you. Let it go," says Blaise.

Seamus does what he is told and cries, leaning on Blaise's shoulder and holding Draco's hand as they support him and give him the care that he needs at the moment. He would be lying if he said he didn't need this but he'd never guess that these two men who were supposed to be his enemies comforting him and holding him like this.

Letting go was so much easier than he thought it would be.

Well, this is the first chapter! I hope you all enjoyed it! I would love to hear feedback!

Also, I will try to update as much as I can! POV will switch sometimes in Draco, Blaise, Dean, Neville, Luna, or Hermione's POV but will mostly be in Seamus's POV