"Didn't give an inch when I gave a mile!" shouted Joanne.
You gave a mile? You were the one who gave a freaking mile? I gave up all my bad habits for you! I commited to you! I freaking loved you Joanne! And now... I sucked in a shaky breath, those thoughts racing through my head, though I would never say them. I promised my life to you! Are you saying that doesn't matter?
"I'd be happy to die for a taste of what Angel had. Someone to live for - unafraid to say I love you!" Joanne shouted.
Joanne was right. I didn't know it, but I had been afraid to admit I loved her, even though I lived for her. Did she not live for me? Did she not love me?
"You all said you'd be cool today, so please, for my sake!" Collins interrupted. He pulled me into a hug, somehow understanding what I'd never dare to admit. We were like brother and sister, of course he understood. I peeked at Joanne, who had tears streaming down her face. I sniffed and turned away again. "Look, I can't believe he's gone."
Yes, Angel was gone. I had to accept that.
"I can't believe you're going."
Roger was gone, too, going to Santa Fe, like he'd always dreamed.
"I can't believe this family must die."
Yes, the bohos were gone. Our tight-knit group of 7 (Mark, Collins, Roger, Angel, Mimi, Joanne, me) had become 2 groups with a total of 5 put together. There was Collins, Mark, and I, and there was Joanne and Mimi. Joanne and Mimi. But Mimi and Joanne weren't close. They were both alone. Mark and I hadn't been close since we dated, and Collins was broken without Angel. Yes, now, we were all alone.
"Angel helped us believe in love."
Yes, Angel was the glue that held us together.
"I can't believe you disagree."
But I don't disagree. I thought love existed, too. With Joanne.
"I can't believe this is goodbye," we all said. I half-whispered the words.
For once, I really was alone. The superficial drama queen who everyone loved, but no one knew. Except the only people that were leaving me. I looked at Joanne again. She was so caught up in tears. I walked over to her silently as Mimi and Roger left. I wiped away her tears and gave her a shoulder to cry on.
Yes, this was it.
The Bohos were no longer.