What Lies Beneath
"You left me so broken, left me torn apart in the shadows of my so called life. I cried and cried my pleas to you, yet you stood by; did nothing about it. I believed in you, loved you for who you were supposed to be, not who you were, but all of my belief was in vain. No one ever cared, no one cared about the shit I did, about the pleas I cried, or about the pain that tore into my heart. Why? Why would you have done this to your own blood? Why would you cast me aside, make me feel as if no one was ever there for me? Like I was a fucking nobody! You never cared! None of you ever cared!
But its okay, I have myself to back me up along the way. You said that's all that mattered, what I cared about, what I did for myself. Life is all my decision right? Right? But you always need supporters, you need parents, friends; a family. Family supports those ideals that make a person prosper, yet I had no family. I had no support. I had no one to run to when I was hurt, no one to run to when my relations never worked out. All you ever cared about was the fucking war! Well are you happy with that now? Are you happy with the shit you put me through just so you could end one fucking race? No wonder Humanity hated us, you're a fucking monster! I hate you all! Every single fucking one of you! That bitch of a mother, you and your selfish desires, and that sappy, no-good friend of yours!
But what do my bitches and moans matter now? I'm 18; I can deal with my own fucking problems, right? That's how it works in your little fucked up world, am I right? Of course I am; I'm right in everything I've said. These scars that line my wrists, all of them were caused from your falters. All of them! All of this… this foreboding darkness that shrouds my mind is your entire fault! And don't ask me how; don't even begin to ponder why. I listed why, did you not hear me? You never heard me in the past, why should I expect such…..respect now? I didn't break apart on my own and if none of you will help me, then fuck you! This is what lies beneath! Beneath the perfect, calm daughter you tried to raise! Beneath that shell of a body that I now reside in! You, father, are a belligerent asshole! I don't even care what you do with yourself anymore! Go fight, go murder, go do what it was that enticed you those many years ago! Go fucking fuck that bitch that I called "mommy" for that horrendous excuse for a childhood!
I wish I were never born!"