And yeah, i dont know. its my frist FF, and i write as it comes to me, so i dont know how the followup are gonna fit in but i felt like start with just mostly MerDer felt right.
Life never goes as we expected does it?
We take of exactly where the finale ended.

Cristina looked at Meredith when she came out from the locker room.
"Are you okay; you seem to be a little down?" She asked Mer with concern in her voice, a voice she rarely used.
Mer nodded quick, "yeah, I'm fine... but can you go tell Der I'm coming in 10 mins, just got to run and eh… fix a thing first!" she said quietly as she walked to the elevators and pushed the up button
Cris looked after her and took three quick steps after and laid her arms around Mers neck, and giggles "this is a hug", and as she looked into mers face she said "we don't hug, so tell me what happened" her voice came out more serious than last time.
Mer looked at her, and took a deep breath.
" I was really excited, I really wanted this. Now, I can't have it. "She sighed
Cris looked Mer in the eyes, "you can, just tell Derek about it, and you can have all the mcbabies you want, I lost my first and I only have one ovary. You have two, and it was caused of Avery's way for saving your guy, and I bet you'd rather have mcdreamy than mcbaby?"
Mer sank her eyes, starring down in the floor and whispered "You are my person, and I am a fraud"
April came running down the stairs at the exact moment Mer shout her mouth and pulled Mers arm, "come on, Derek doesn't shut up, and he's on bed rest for the next two months"

Cris followed them both one step behind, "hey, Kepner leave... this is a person moment and.. you are partly a reason for her deep down depression, if she goes back to tequila you'd be the one to blame" she rambled loudly when they passed the corner to the ICU. Mer turned her head back to Cris and gave her the look, but she then looked at April who took off as a scared little deer.
Cris dragged Mer to the door and left her outside, while giving Mer a shot of Der in the bed, all pale and weakly looking. She whispered "I'm never going to tell him Cristina" and then she went in to the room and sat on his bedside, kissing him softly in the forehead.

Derek looked at Meredith, "you wanted to talk about something before?" He smiled at her, and she looked away. "no, there wasn't anything.. " she sighed. Derek looked at her back, and lifted his arm and stroke down her hair. "Meredith, talk to me, please… you never say anything.. you keep everything inside you! .." she turned to him and said acid "Derek Christopher Shepherd, I do not have anything to talk about.." Derek got a shocked gaze "Mer, dearest… are you ..?" Meredith looked at him, "No, I most certainly are NOT pregnant, and now I'm leaving you, goodbye Derek, get well!" she said before she went out of the room. She turned just outside the door and she started to cry, she cried for almost an hour before Nurse Olivia came. She sobbed quietly, and didn't realize that there was someone there until Olivia knocked on her back "Meredith? Derek is asking for you, he's been for the past hour..." Meredith looked up, "yeah, I just can't go in there.. i hide to much from him" she whispered. Olivia gave her an understanding look, and nodded "what shall I say? He knows you're here, "Meredith rose from her position, "I'm going in, got to talk right?"Olivia looked at her, and nodded carefully.

Derek turned his eyes to the door when Mer entered again "Not so much Mcdreamy over me?" he looked really sad, Mer took the two steps to the bed and gave him a hug, she kissed him on the lips and smiled. "I love you, okay?"
Derek moved in the bed, and Mer sat down on his bedside. Derek gave her a suspicious look, as she sat on the edge of the bed. She took a deep breath and lay down beside him, and smiled a nervous smile. "I'm going to ask for a bed later" she whispered and softly put her lips on Dereks shoulder. He smiled at her, and nodded "do that, I can't let you go home alone my love". He yawned and looked at Mer at his side that already closed her eyes, and he slowly fell asleep to.

When Mer woke up, three hours later her first reaction was that she felt the smell of her husband who she knew were in the hospital. She opened her eyes and realized she was in a bed in the hospital to, and she felt a tube under her arm. She looked at Derek who was sleeping and she put her arms around him, kissed his neck and fell back into her dreams.

okay, what do you think? rewievs 3

now, we are gonna jump back in the bginning of the next chapter, only a few hours and i dont think we'll bother, but just so you know!
comig up when i feel its done! awesome :)