Disclaimer: I own nothing and nobody. Only in my dreams. (Sadly.)
Authors Note: This is my first X Files fan fic. I do so very much like reviews, and know that this SHALL be a multi chapter fic.
Dear Mulder,
I just can't do it. I am so sorry. I just can't raise William with you anymore. I am not a good mother, though I know you would tell me otherwise. I know that you have noticed that I have changed during the past 6 months, ever since we had our son. You would be right Mulder. Ever since I had that little boy, I have been restless. I can't believe this is my life now Mulder, no matter how hard I try. I can't marry you now. It is not because of the lack of love, I never want you to believe that. But I have realized that this is not enough for me, as it is for you.
The truth is I am always afraid. Afraid that they will come back for you and take you away from me again. Or that you will wake up one day and go hunt for Big Foot or some damn thing, and I will never see you again. I'm tired of all the fear Mulder. I want a life without darkness and to do that I have to leave behind you, and our son. Please don't think that this is easy for me. It's the hardest thing I have ever had to do. But I know that you will raise our son right, and with as much love as one human being could possibly give to another.
You have so much love in your heart Mulder, and I am beyond grateful that I could be a recipient of that love for over nine years. Take care of our son and yourself my love. Please. Know that I love you more than anything else in the world, forever and always.
Love,
Scully