I own nothing
My World my Creation
Chapter 1
"Please, please forgive me,
but I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
and, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"isn't something missing?"
Naruto was out. He was on his roof, staring at the beautiful moon up high and singing for its glory. Even though he was tired, he didn't want to sleep. He had a lot to be tired about.
But, one thing stood out more then the rest.
Naruto was most of all, tired of that feeling.
The feeling that must be kept secret, the Embarrassing Humiliating Overwhelming feeling.
Naruto closed his eyes as he thought of the last month.
After a very much needed hot shower, naruto got ready for bed. Be put on his night shirt and laid down, there he started to dream. He dreamt of a chest, with a soothing sound of a heartbeat lulling him to sleep. He imagined strong arms wrapped around him, and warmth, the Amazing Lovely Warmth.
Naruto's eyes snapped open immediately.
He was lonely
Looking around his room after waking up from that dream, he felt nothing but pure loneliness.
He thought it would be a one time thing, but he was wrong. The feeling kept coming back. Night after night, stronger than the last. Naruto never thought he would have these types of feelings, he didn't know he could produce these types of feeling, and it was driving him insane!
He started screaming.
It was tearing him up inside. How many nights did he spend awake, hands in his hair and just screaming to somebody!? Anybody.
This feeling. Nobody can know about it. He didn't know what he would do if they found out. They would torture him with this knowledge, laugh at him. And although he confided that he was bi, he could not erase the thought that it was a mans arms he wanted, a mans chest he desired! He wanted that feeling of protectiveness, possessiveness.
But he couldn't have it.
He could not, under any circumstances, let his feeling be met and satisfied. It would be too selfish of him to ask. Hell, it was selfish of him just to think these thoughts! Besides the point, there was nobody who would take him seriously. They would brush this off as a prank, or him being stupid, it was too embarrassing.
So naruto is forced away from his desires.
Forced away from his comrades, the villagers, the village,
even reality itself.
He will go to a place where he can suffer in silence. A place where nobody can hear his painful screams and judge him.
Yes, naruto seeks refuge, in the one place no one is allowed to go,
in his mind.
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
you won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
but I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Here we are, the redone chapter, let me know what you think.