I knew him first… It was all coming back to me, every memory I had forgotten was there. The time Damon told me he loved me, when we first met. I didn't know how I was remembering all this but I knew it would change things between Damon and I.

I sat up looking around me, I was lying on Wickery Bridge. I could see Stefan and Damon arguing but not their usual kind of brotherly argument, they were upset but what about? I stood up and slowly walked towards them. They were shocked to see me, "Elena! How are you alive?" Stefan shrieked, "What do you mean?" Neither Stefan or Damon said a word, Stefan kept his same delighted expression but Damon was worried. I could tell from the way he was acting. "Damon what's wrong?" I was worried about what his answer might be, "Elena… I think you're a vampire." He didn't give his usual Damon smile, I could tell he was serious… A sudden rush of fear shoot through my stomach as I came to realise what this meant… It meant that I had to feed. On a person.

"Stefan what will I do? I can't kill someone!"

"You don't have to kill someone, you just need to know when to stop."

"Don't be stupid Stefan, Elena is new and she won't be able to stop!"

Damon's comment was cruel but he was just being realistic. I didn't know what was going to happen but what I did know was that I could kill someone and it would be no one's fault but my own…

One week later…

Ever since I became a vampire everything had changed. My feelings towards Damon had grown stronger, I was now sure that I loved him and I was now sure that I loved him more than I loved Stefan. This just made it so much harder to be with Stefan, I couldn't break up with him, not after all he had done for me, helping me to stop feeding on the random girl who played the main part in my transition to a vampire. He had helped me keep a balanced diet, drinking out of a blood bags some days and others I drank animal blood. He made sure that I didn't kill anyone. I couldn't leave him after he did all those things for me! So I made the decision that I would keep my distance from Damon and spend all my time with Stefan. This had to be just a phase I was going through, I couldn't really love Damon more than I loved Stefan...

For the next few days Stefan stayed at my house every night and we avoided his house where I knew Damon would be. But no matter how long I spent away from Damon, I couldn't shake the feelings that I had for him.

"Stefan, do you think we could stay at your house tonight? I don't feel comfortable doing what we do with Jeremy in the house."

"Yes that's okay but I can't say that it will be any less weird with Damon in the house."

I didn't reply I just got up and went to shower, leaving Stefan in my bed. I was excited for tonight because when Stefan went to sleep I planned to sneak into Damon's room and talk to him about my feelings. It wasn't something I would usually do but this love I have for him was controlling me. It controlled me more than blood. More than anything...

So just as I had planned I lay in Stefan's bed pretending to be asleep waiting for him to close his eyes and go into his usual deep sleep. When this happened I carefully slid out of bed and pulled on one of Stefan's shirts, then I tiptoed out of the room closing the door behind me. I made my way down the long hallway towards Damon's room, I had a nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach, it made me feel sick but my feet were still pulling me towards his room. I walked into his room without knocking, he was sitting on the bed shirtless reading a book and he looked up. Looking surprised he gave me his signature Damon smile which pulled me into his room. I walked over to him and sat on his bed which was a lot comfier than Stefan's.

"So…Elena, what brings you here?"

"Stefan's asleep, I got bored. I needed to talk to someone."

"Very Katherine of you leaving my brother for me. Though as much as it pains me to admit I think she would leave me for him."

"I'm not Katherine! I would never lead either of you on like that."

"Really Elena, well what do you call this? Walking into my room once your done with Stefan. I will not be second choice again!"

"Damon… I'm sorry, I don't know what I can do because I love you both!""Elena…"

"What?"

"Did you just tell me you loved me?"

It suddenly dawned on me that that is exactly what I had said. I had never told Damon that I loved him before. I was shocked and angry with myself so I got up and ran out the door. Back to Stefan.

After that I continued to visit him in his room after Stefan fell asleep every night. We agreed to never bring up the first night I came into his room and agreed not to tell Stefan of my late night visits. It was good to just go into Damon's room and just talk about everything. Everything was normal. But this night everything changed. I did my usual sneak out on Stefan move and walked into Damon's room just like I had been doing for a month now. I sat down beside Damon and he welcomed me with his Damon smile.

"Elena, I need to ask you something."

"Go for it."

"That first night when you told me you loved me, did you mean it?"

"Damon…"

"Elena please. I need to know."

"Yes I meant it. I love you Damon. I have for a long time now."

Everything went silent as he pulled me closer and then our lips touched. This kiss was different than the others, it was filled with love. It was a kiss that I never wanted to end. But the kiss just lead to more and before I knew it his warm hands were touching my body. That night was the greatest experience of my life, it was magic.

That morning when I woke up I hadn't snuck back into Stefan's bed as I usually did, I was lying in Damon's arms. On Damon's bed. I stared at the clock and I realised it was too late. Stefan must have woken up by now, woken up too an empty bed. What if he had walked into Damon's room and saw me with him? I had turned into my worst nightmare... Katherine. I was a cheater, a lying cheater and worse of all I had done it to Stefan…