NOT ANYMORE

A/N: It is just my take, on 11 x 20.

Alex Karev wasn't sure, if this was a good idea or whether he should meddle, cause at the end of the day, he will be the one at awkward position, of choosing between his mentor and his fast friend. But after thinking or without thinking, the only thing that triumphed in the mind of his was care, worry for Arizona. So he barged through the supply closet, where Callie was frantically looking for the supplies that were required for the treatment of the plane crash victims.

"Hey, you know.., you should look out for Robbins, for just today, you know because of the plane crash ... and all." Karev asked hesitatingly.

"Yeah ...OK", Callie replied without giving a second thought and once she did, she replied again.

"I mean No, I really want to be that person for Arizona, but I can't, it's not my place, Not Anymore."

"Seriously!,Torres, at least check upon her!, you married her once and we just had a panic attack in the other supply closet, so for what its worth, you should check upon her!." Meredith demanded as soon as she came inside the supply closet, after overhearing what's her friend was discussing.

Even before Callie could formal a reply or state her reason, Maggie pierce barged into the supply closet.

"What's worth what?", Maggie Pierce inquired while searching for supplies.

"Callie should check upon Arizona", Karev laid it out simply.

"Yeah, for once, I am in agreement with Karev, you could always ask !", Maggie replied and Meredith nodded her in agreement.

And that was it, three years of calm, collected composure went out of the window, gates were now open! and there was nothing, absolutely nothing Callie could do, to control it, Not Anymore.

"Enough!...Enough of you all playing the victim's card, enough!" with that everybody in the closet went dead silent, cause nobody had witnessed Callie like this ever!, they also missed Arizona coming up behind them through the back door, Callie had her back to them, so that she could hold her ground.

"All of you,.. you think... as if, the crash caused you harm, you all have scars proving the same, but have you given a thought ...about.. others...

Four days, you were ..missing for four days, that were four sleepless days and nights, we had run out of different scenarios..., all of them,all.. them.. ended badly, four days of coaxing Zola, Sophia as to why and where there parents are, it was difficult to put them to sleep and all I could do was... watch and then, we found you.

Lexie, she...um,she didn't make it, I know she was your sister Mer, but in a way she was mine too, Little Grey was perfect for Mark, I knew that, Mark Knew that, Lexie knew that and even Sophia knew that, her loss was our loss too! and I... couldn't do anything...

Christina , your person, whatever you call her, she was my roommate, the only person beside Mark who were there, from the beginning , who supported me, she and I had seen tough times, she is my child's godmother for heaven sake! and she...wasn't coping well.., I was worried, so so worried, but again I couldn't do anything...and then she left even without saying goodbye.

"Callie, her intention weren't..." Meredith tried to get a word in but was stopped by Callie.

I know Mer, then there was you, who dealt with situations better..., but you were hurting, for everyone, but you never showed, I wanted to ease your pain Mer, and I couldn't do anything.

Derek, his hand surgery was something that gave me control, that I could finally do do something, that I can take away all this pain, but..the surgery failed...and I couldn't do anything, well not immediately anyways, everything...everything was out of control.

Mark.., my best friend, the father... of my child, he was slipping away slowly, I knew that, but I ignored the reality and prayed and prayed .. for a miracle, but.. it never came, I had to do it, take that decision... I wasn't ready for ...him to go way...he went...he left me alone...and i couldn't do anything..."

By this time Callie had tears running down her face, and not a single eye was dry in the room. And Callie continued

"Arizona..., my sweet , lovely, over the top perky, my roller skate girl, my wife, mother of my child, my life, she was hurting..., everyday she was hurting and then she asked me for one thing, for one promise...and I...I... broke that, and then...she..., us we could never...

Before, the crash I had papers ready...to finally...finally legalize our marriage..., but we never got to that point and then finally when I thought...that we were ...going to make it...I saw...saw, our wedding band pinned to some other's women scrub top... and I couldn't do anything."

Callie closed here eyes and tried to control her emotions that were running wild and f said

"So No, you don't get to play the victims here, its been three years, not now,not tomorrow, Not Anymore."

When she finally turned, she took notice of the extra member that had gathered, but Callie had nothing left to say, so she left the supply closet and went to save 's all she could do that moment.

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