Well a warm hello to everyone on and who happened to stumble into my fanfiction- thank you for taking time out of your spare time to read my story.
This story will be rated M for Language and Sexual Themes.
This story will be YAOI so if there are any of you out there that are not too fond of YAOI please I ask you to leave.
This will be my first post here at and I have put a lot of time into composing this chapter, and honestly- I do have to say that I am not a fan of YAOI but I read a few fanfictions and really did enjoy them ^^lll so out popped thi baby.
It is Grimmjow x Ulquiorra
Hope you enjoy~!
Chapter 1
It had always been this way… a life of solitude and loneliness, no chance of speaking my mind or expressing my true feelings—it was just something that I could not do, and I had many people to thank for that. I am being irrational here, not every person, made my life a living hell, but they all contributed somewhat along the way.
My petite, semi-muscular frame didn't help aid my isolation from the others—but I had a certain person to blame all of my troubles on. That man, my father, shooting ridicules and insults at me every waking moment he had didn't help my state of mind either, he pushed me farther and farther back from interaction with other people. He refused to accept the fact that he was a raging alcoholic, but that is not the only reason I despise the man, I have personal reasons that deal with his sick ridden mind. I have plans to deal with him later—if I can manage to make it that long without my whole being cracking under the immensely corrupted life I live in.
Oi— I want to break free of the life in which I live in. For now I will just keep on living the way I have, unnoticed and neglected by my fellow peers, staying average and neutral in the background, as I always had.
Ugh. The bags under my eyes feel heavy thanks to my sleep deprived nights at the hell hole I am forced to call my 'home'. I squeeze the bridge of my nose as a pounding headache enters the frontal lobe of my brain; I open one of the many text books that I have in my backpack—I am not even sure if it is the correct one for the class which I am in, but I prop it up anyway on the desk and rest my head on the cool surface. The teacher won't even care—I sure as hell know he doesn't care whether I sleep or not during class, the odds are he doesn't even know who I am— I am just scenery in the background to him, he doesn't have a care in the world. Neither do I.
My attempt at resting was futile, if the screeches from chalk being pressed viciously into the chalkboard weren't enough, roaring conversations were started pertaining to a new student that would be attending our class. I for one truly didn't give a care in the world, but it is odd for a transfer student to come in the middle of the semester. With a light sigh I placed my head back on the desk which was positioned in the back corner of the classroom away from most of the other students—see isolated. I only moved my head up once to catch a glimpse of the new student as he entered the classroom door; with a cocky grin plastered on his slender face.
"Class this is Jaegerjaquez Grimmjow—the anticipated new student. Show him just how fun this school is," Mr. Makoto talked to us as if we were a bunch of kindergarteners. Right away I knew this guy was going to be another trouble in my life, that cocky smile and lightning blue hair said it all.
Just perfect.
A light breeze from the window sent my semi-medium length raven black hair, in a cut most in my class refer to as the 'emo haircut', over my emerald eyes. I rolled my shoulders to loosen them before returning to my sleeping position.
"Jaegerjaquez you will sit," there was a long pause in Mr. Makoto's speaking. He was looking on the roster for my name. Ha, I was right—just a piece of scenery, that is all I will ever be. "You will sit behind Cifer." So am I so far in the backdrop to not have my first name called? That stupid, stupid man.
Why place him behind me? Is the teacher trying to make my life more of a hell than it already is?
I rubbed my temples with my palms as Grimmjow took his seat, and already the trouble begins.
With one swift movement Grimmjow took his seat and kicked the back of my seat sending my desk into the one in front of me. The action startled me, but my face remained emotionless as it always did when I was here, or anywhere else for that matter, though a light yelp escaped my mouth as I crashed into the desk before me and my books toppled to the floor with a loud thud.
Mr. Makoto looked up with an arched brow, "What's wrong…" another look at the roster, pathetic, "Ulquiorra?"
I looked up at him my face emotionless and my tone as always matched, "Nothing at all Mr. Makoto, my desk just slid. I shall put it back in the correct spot now." Slowly, I got up out of the metal seat and shot a glance at Grimmjow who still had that cocky grin on his face and belted out a smug chuckle, a light rosy colour dusting his cheeks. Grimmjow Just-An-Ass, ah not funny, I never had a sense for comedy, and whenever I tried my attempts gained no attention. My younger brother, Wonderwice, who is eight and autistic would have laughed with that genuine laugh that always brought a smile to my emotionless face. He is the only person in this damned world that can do that, he is also the only person in this world I truly care about and would do anything to protect him and keep him out of harm's way—the reason I am putting up with my father until I am of legal age to take custody of him and leave the world of his control.
My desk was back in its original position and I slid effortlessly back into it. And the day dragged on Grimmjow doing everything in his will to make me crack, not going to work jackass I have years of keeping my emotions at bay I think I handle you.
"C'mon pretty boy, ain't ya gonna at least say 'hi'? What's with you, you got problems in the head, hn, do ya?" Grimmjow growled as he threw a large ball of paper at the back of my head. The teacher looked up once but acted like he had not seen anything but a wall. Pretty boy… what the hell does that mean! Yet… hearing that out of Grimmjow's mouth caused my pale cheeks to gain a light rosy colour, I felt my cheeks gain the warmth and quickly put my head down to hide from the other students. Why was I affected by his words? With another sigh a turned my head to look out the window and try to block out all of the other annoyances that Grimmjow threw at me.
The bell rang and I was the first out today. I just wanted to get home, but I first had to stop by the elementary school and pick up Wonderwice, like I did every day. The blond eight year old ran out of the school doors, running towards me, wrapping his arms around my waist on contact. His piercing violet eyes looked up at me with anticipation. "Sorry no candy for today Wondereice," I said nonchalantly.
My brothers' eyes widened with shock. "Wahhhh. Nooo Kaa-diiii fooo Wanndaahwaaicee?"
I smiled lightly at his reaction and ruffled his hair then held up a bag. "Do you know what this is Wonderwice?" Carefully, I opened the top of the brown paper bag, steam rose to the air, as Wonderwice looked into the bag and took a sniff, his violet eyes lit up. "Taiyaki, chocolate flavored just for you," I said with a warm smile on my lips as I handed him his Taiyaki. His mouth opened wide, his two front teeth showing as he bit into the pastry and smiled warmly. With his mouth still full he mumbled his thank you; that sent the slight smile on my lips to grow warmer.
Wonderwice was a messy eater and chocolate had gotten everywhere on his face. I laughed lightly and that made Wonderwice smile. Licking my thumb, I cleaned the chocolate which painted his face. "Your such a messy child," I chuckled lightly grabbing his hand as we walked back to the place which I plan to escape from in the next two weeks—I'll finally be old enough to leave and take my reason for living with me for protection. Wonderwice kept pointing and made simple sounds which he tried to combine in to sentences but none of them making any form of sense. A smile crept at the corner of my lips as I ran my fingers through his blond locks.
It was then when a flash of lightning blue entered the crowd of pedestrians and the warm grin which had waited so long to appear vanished instantly back into my normal expression of nothingness. My eyes were cold and my face still as I continued walking down the sidewalk heading home. Wonderwice tilted his head up and looked at me with his vacant, innocent, violet orbs. "Ukaaa," he tugged on my school uniform sleeve in concern, I told him to go stray away from my side slightly until I tell him otherwise, and obediently he followed.
When the cocky bastard saw me the grin reappeared on his finely chiseled face—why the hell am I saying that? There was nothing nice about his face; I could feel a light blush lick my cheeks. I truly must be slowly losing my mind. "Well, well, well. Long time no see Ulquiorra—are ya finally gonna give that 'hi' I've been waitin' for? Hn?" The bastard wrapped his arm around my shoulders and his head hovered a good four inches above mine.
"Hi," I said emotionlessly as always. Why is he trying so hard to piss me off? What the hell did I do to him? Nothing. I don't do anything to anyone because I am forced to keep myself away and in solitude. Yes, that does cause me to get picked on and bullied every once in a while but I can deal with it—I have to… I have no other choice.
"What the hell Pretty Boy, that ain't what I meant!" He growled angrily, and his eyes held a tinge of pain, as if he was expecting something more.
"Can I leave now? I have somewhere I need to be." I said again emotionless. His perfect face contorted into a look of anger and his icy blue eyes glared at me. He raised a fist to my face.
"Are ya gonna give me a proper 'hi' now? Or will I have to beat it into you?" his cocky smile was back and his eyes stared at me intensely.
"Why do you even bother? And for the record I am not nor will I ever be scared and/or threatened by you." I explained to him in such a monotone tone—my face blank. And just like that his fist impacted with my jaw.
"Ukaaaa!" I heard the cry of Wonderwice in the distance. I didn't flinch when Grimmjow's fist slamming into the side of my face, I just stood still and took it.
"That felt wonderful." I mocked him—my voice the same tone.
Grimmjow brought his face close to mine and growled—his breath smelled of fish—"Pretty Boy, you are gonna get it." His face got closer until I placed my hands on his chest and pushed him away forcefully. He was too close for comfort—but at the same time… What the hell am I thinking? The lightning blue hair stomped off into the crowd, was that a blush on his cheeks? I joined Wonderwice again. He raised his hand to my cheek, asking if I was okay. I gave him a light reassuring smile as we walked home once more.
All I wanted to do at this moment was fall into a deep sleep, not wanting to wake up. I held my brothers hand firmly in mine as we entered the home. Luckily—my father was so intoxicated that even the loud slam of the door didn't wake him. That was a good thing. I helped Wonderwice with whatever the teachers gave him—wow even though he is autistic he was still a bright child—more capable than just colouring in shapes and writing the same word over three times. Once all homework was done I took him into my room as I did every night and started on my homework—which I always half assed, I didn't care if I got above a 'C', I would pass either way, so why try?
Resting my head on my computer desk a lot of things ran through my mind; Wonderwice, my Birthday and that damned Jackass. Ugh. I shook my head and glanced at my bed. Wonderwice had fallen asleep, a smiled emerged on my face, I wasn't going to move him—he looked too peaceful. As soon as I fell asleep, my mind drifted towards Grimmjow. I cursed myself for my thoughts…thus stayed awake all night—waiting for the morning to come. My emerald eyes gaining another layer of darkness, another sleep deprived night—just this time over that damned Jackass.
I didn't want to drag my ass to school tomorrow…
Well how was it?
I know not much did happen in this chapter but I assure you that there will be more coming up.
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~Emmy