Natsume, how are you doing?

Are you having fun?

You know what, baby? I am deeply sorry.

I first learned of your Alice when you were a little more than a year old.

Truth be told? I knew that my child having an Alice would be a huge possibility. But despite that, I was shocked when I discovered that you were, and are, a fire-user just like your father.

It scared me a little, not knowing if you had the Limitless Alice Form. I was afraid that maybe you'd end up suffering, just like me—which is why I gave you the Healing Alice Stone that my best friend, Yuka Azumi Yukihara, gave to me.

Natsume, I am deeply sorry for not having the chance to play that big role I was supposed to play in your life. I was supposed to be your pillar of support, your protector, your guide, your mentor; I was supposed to be your mother. And yet I'd done nothing for you.

I felt terribly guilty when I left you and Aoi with your father all those years ago. I did it for your sake, but I'm so sorry for having to have left you when you were so young.

But I had to, you must understand that. If the academy found me in my current situation, everything I've done would have been pointless. I couldn't let them take you or Aoi. I would never let them.

I also want to apologize for your suffering that wouldn't have turned out as it has if it wasn't for what I did to the Academy. I know they're targeting you. I underwent similar trials at that young age, and I know you're going through the same. You've sacrificed so much, darling, and I'm proud of you for being so selfless.

I don't blame you if you see me as a despicable mother. But I want you to know that if I was given another chance, I'd do anything in my power to protect my family.

Natsume, I really want you to know that I love you. I love you so much with all my heart. No matter what got in my way, and no matter how much sacrifices were made—by me protecting you and Aoi, or by you protecting your friends because of me—I want to let you know that I never regretted having you as my son, and I never will.

If you're angry with me, or hate me, or feel whatever negative feelings you could possibly feel towards me, I completely understand. I can accept that. I will continue loving you, not because I want your forgiveness, but because I am your mother and that love can never go away.

I pray for your happiness, Natsume.

Love always,

Your mother, Kaoru Igarashi Hyuuga

PS: I hope you're acquainted with Yuka's daughter. She's about your age and her name is Mikan.

Again, my deep gratitude to Fran-fran, Ridley Silverlake, for taking the time to edit this drabble :)