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Vampire Slayer.
She sat there all alone in her "new room." It looked the exact same to her except
for that there was no ugly chick living with her anymore and that the security wasn't as
bad. She had been moved there for good behavior. Though the brunette still knew the
guards were going to hurt her, she liked that the lady in her other cell wasn't there to
watch and laugh, or join in herself. The brunette never fought back. She knew that she
everything they did to her. Ha, she thought that she deserved this forever because of
what she did to all those innocent people, not to mention her friends. She had hurt the
one person besides her first watcher and Angel that she truly cared for.
Buffy was like a sister to her. No, more than a sister. She figured it was probably
just a bond they had because they were slayers, but she knew that part of it was just for
Buffy the person. She loved the way Buffy acted when they knew each other before the
murder. Faith knew that they had a connection, and even if Buffy wouldn't admit to
feeling it, she did. Faith knew she did. That's why Buffy always wanted to go and hang
out with her, that is, unless she had to hang out with the scoobies.
That was one of the only things that Faith hated about Buffy, not the scoobies
themselves, but that she was never considered "good enough" to be the ones they held
those meetings in the library for. The "important" slayer. Faith would even be happy
with just being invited to one of those meetings and having, in her mind, some value to
the group. They never gave her that satisfaction, which is probably what helped push her
over the edge and turn people away after the murder of Finch. Who knows, maybe if she
had felt more wanted she would have been able to let other people in, but she never felt
wanted. Not in her whole life had she ever felt wanted besides when her first watcher
was alive and when Buffy wanted only to patrol with her.
Not that she was trying to blame other people for her wrong deeds. She knew that
she deserved every bit of what had happened to her. If it were up to her, there would be
much, much more suffering. Actually she was better at taking pain than she was at taking
some insults and especially rejection. She had told her therapist about her childhood and
she concluded that Faith was particularly afraid to be insulted and rejected because her
parents always told her degrading things when she was a child. They beat her and so she
slept around. Just taking after her mom she guessed, but it was also the fact that her
parents always told her she was nothing and that no man would ever want a tainted (her
father helped take care of that-her virginity was gone to the man who help create her)
little whore. When they first called her these things, she had no idea what they were
talking about. She was only 5. All she knew was that her daddy had hurt her and her
mom helped. She also knew that what they were saying wasn't very nice, but she
believed them, and in many ways has never stopped. So she lived up to the whore part of
it and proved her parents wrong about the "No one will ever want a tainted whore."
Many men wanted her.
She was beautiful, she never really realized it, but she really was. So Faith slept
with any man that showed any interest in her, all of whom just wanted her for sex. She
finally had gotten away from the abuse when she met her first watcher. She was like a
true mother to Faith. That was the happiest she had ever been in all of her 17 years. That
is until it was all taken away by Kakistos. After her watcher was killed, Faith ran. She
heard about another slayer in a place called Sunnydale from a vampire. So she decided to
find her. Then she found Buffy and everything was ok until Finch. That's what led to
her becoming evil, joining the mayor, killing, hurting B, getting her in a coma, and
eventually getting herself in prison.
Angel had visited her a couple of times, but he was the only one. One day he
came and told her that a lot of things were going wrong and that he wouldn't be able to
come for a while. It had been a year since then and she had celebrated her 21 birthday
with one of the worst beatings in her life. So now after everything she's done and
everything she's been through, all she has left are memories, guilt, and a little hope that
someday she will finally be able to make amends with all the people she's hurt, especially
Buffy.
Author's note: Hi, um, this was my first attempt at any writing outside of school, so please no flames. Constructive criticism is cool though. I'll update soon, unless people tell me it sucks, and I promise there will be more action. I was just trying to set up the story. So, um, thanks for reading, even if you didn't like it, I guess.
She sat there all alone in her "new room." It looked the exact same to her except
for that there was no ugly chick living with her anymore and that the security wasn't as
bad. She had been moved there for good behavior. Though the brunette still knew the
guards were going to hurt her, she liked that the lady in her other cell wasn't there to
watch and laugh, or join in herself. The brunette never fought back. She knew that she
everything they did to her. Ha, she thought that she deserved this forever because of
what she did to all those innocent people, not to mention her friends. She had hurt the
one person besides her first watcher and Angel that she truly cared for.
Buffy was like a sister to her. No, more than a sister. She figured it was probably
just a bond they had because they were slayers, but she knew that part of it was just for
Buffy the person. She loved the way Buffy acted when they knew each other before the
murder. Faith knew that they had a connection, and even if Buffy wouldn't admit to
feeling it, she did. Faith knew she did. That's why Buffy always wanted to go and hang
out with her, that is, unless she had to hang out with the scoobies.
That was one of the only things that Faith hated about Buffy, not the scoobies
themselves, but that she was never considered "good enough" to be the ones they held
those meetings in the library for. The "important" slayer. Faith would even be happy
with just being invited to one of those meetings and having, in her mind, some value to
the group. They never gave her that satisfaction, which is probably what helped push her
over the edge and turn people away after the murder of Finch. Who knows, maybe if she
had felt more wanted she would have been able to let other people in, but she never felt
wanted. Not in her whole life had she ever felt wanted besides when her first watcher
was alive and when Buffy wanted only to patrol with her.
Not that she was trying to blame other people for her wrong deeds. She knew that
she deserved every bit of what had happened to her. If it were up to her, there would be
much, much more suffering. Actually she was better at taking pain than she was at taking
some insults and especially rejection. She had told her therapist about her childhood and
she concluded that Faith was particularly afraid to be insulted and rejected because her
parents always told her degrading things when she was a child. They beat her and so she
slept around. Just taking after her mom she guessed, but it was also the fact that her
parents always told her she was nothing and that no man would ever want a tainted (her
father helped take care of that-her virginity was gone to the man who help create her)
little whore. When they first called her these things, she had no idea what they were
talking about. She was only 5. All she knew was that her daddy had hurt her and her
mom helped. She also knew that what they were saying wasn't very nice, but she
believed them, and in many ways has never stopped. So she lived up to the whore part of
it and proved her parents wrong about the "No one will ever want a tainted whore."
Many men wanted her.
She was beautiful, she never really realized it, but she really was. So Faith slept
with any man that showed any interest in her, all of whom just wanted her for sex. She
finally had gotten away from the abuse when she met her first watcher. She was like a
true mother to Faith. That was the happiest she had ever been in all of her 17 years. That
is until it was all taken away by Kakistos. After her watcher was killed, Faith ran. She
heard about another slayer in a place called Sunnydale from a vampire. So she decided to
find her. Then she found Buffy and everything was ok until Finch. That's what led to
her becoming evil, joining the mayor, killing, hurting B, getting her in a coma, and
eventually getting herself in prison.
Angel had visited her a couple of times, but he was the only one. One day he
came and told her that a lot of things were going wrong and that he wouldn't be able to
come for a while. It had been a year since then and she had celebrated her 21 birthday
with one of the worst beatings in her life. So now after everything she's done and
everything she's been through, all she has left are memories, guilt, and a little hope that
someday she will finally be able to make amends with all the people she's hurt, especially
Buffy.
Author's note: Hi, um, this was my first attempt at any writing outside of school, so please no flames. Constructive criticism is cool though. I'll update soon, unless people tell me it sucks, and I promise there will be more action. I was just trying to set up the story. So, um, thanks for reading, even if you didn't like it, I guess.