It happened so fast but with one fluid moment, Eddie's lips were on mine. More like they crashed there. And it felt right. Like fate had brought this moment together. Then fate stepped in, and the door crashed open. We fell apart, un tangling our arms, and lips.
That was the first moment I'd remembered Fabian. As he spoke.
"What the HELL Nina?", he asked, confusion and anger in his eyes. Eddie smirked.
"Fabian, I-uh um", I started, not sure what to say.
"Fine I'll tell you, after everything we've been through? You kiss him!", he's angry. And I feel guilty.
"Fabian, it was a mistake. It's not like you didn't kiss Joy or anything?", I ask, and he calms. He knows I know.
"That's what this is about?", he asked. I nod.
"You and Joy over break? Yeah I know I asked Eddie to help out. Patricia knows", I say. His face relaxes and becomes embarrassed.
"So I'm done here?", Eddie asks, as he leaves the room.
"So what now Nina?", he asks me. I shrug.
"I don't know what should happen?", I asked. He shrugged.
"Let's stay together", he says slowly, and I force a smile. He kisses me. One-two-three-four-five, nineteen seconds. He pulls back. I time everything. And everything is planned. Like that kiss with Eddie, fifteen seconds. He leaves my room and fall back on my bed taking out my journal.
I turn to the back pages. The journal has tabs on it marking every section. The back section is entitled Fabian. "19 seconds", I write under other times, and how far we went each time. They all read first. Fabian was great he was just nice, a nice guy who wouldn't take advantage of me.

"Fine!", a voice yelled outside my room, Mara. I listen to this conversation.
"Obviously you not fine", this is Jerome he is yelling also.
"So?", she asks, angrier louder.
"Mara, I'm sorry, okay?", he says, quietly.
"You can't just say your sorry and make it all better!", she screams slamming a door.
"Damn it!", he yells and I here a thud. I think he might of kicked a wall. Then I here retreating foot steps. I wonder what its like to be Mara, have a guy fight with you, disagree. Possibly push you, somebody to want you. Passion? Amber runs in the room, laughing.
"Did you hear there fight?", she laughs.
"Most of it", I say, not telling her about the whole Eddie and Fabian thing, she'd yell and say I was messing with her Fabina.
"I'm surprised they haven't broken up already, officially. I mean I heard Mara met another guy, and thats what they were fighting about", Amber laughed, pulling out her Bubble-gum pink nail-polish and reapplying it.
"Enough gossip, I'm going to bed", I say rolling my eyes at Amber and switching off my light, leaving Amber's on.

I wake up the next morning, finding Amber already up, fixing her hair.
"Morning Nina!", she says happily. I get up and get dressed, in my uniform. And checking my profile.
"What are you doing Nina?", Amber asks. I roll my eyes, and go to my email. It's from this guy I've been e-mailing. I met him, well not really him, on a chat room for kids with family issues. The counselor suggested it. We started talking and I decided to keep talking to him. I read the e mail.

Cursed-and-quiet777,
Theres this girl I know
Most logical thing in the world
I want to get her to stop counting moments
And just fall into one moment-
Thinking of You-Chat Tonight- 8ish?
-DarkGuyLookingForLight21

I smiled reading it. "Nina, you okay?", Amber asked. I forgot she was there.
"Huh? Um yeah. Come one lets go to breakfeast", I say logging out and shutting my computer. When we got to the kitchen, I saw Fabian and Joy. Joy was leading Fabian to his room by the hand. And Fabian more than willingly followed.
"What do you think they're doing?", Amber asked, more like a sneer. I shrugged uncaring now.
"What do you mean, by shrugging. Did you two break up?", she asked.
"I don't know, but we should", I say laughing leaving Amber confused in the hall. I looked at Mara, she looked happy, glowing even. Jerome looked torn. Mm, I wonder what that means? "Latest news?", I asks Patricia. She laughs.
"Slime-ball and goody-two shoes broke up. Goody-two shoes ins't so good. She cheated on this lug", she says. Wow. Okay.
"Sorry", I say to Jerome, before turning back to Patricia.
"Ready to go?", she asked. I smiled and headed out. Grabbing my notebook as we headed out turning to the Jerome section. Mara broke up with him :(. Then I turned to Mara, and wrote, Dumped Jerome :( keep eyes on her, can she be trusted?

Patricia looked down at the notebook in my hands and just shook her head. She snatched it away from me and turns straight to my Fabian enteries. "19 seconds", she read, "losing it, I don't feel anything anymore", she finished. Then she trued to a different section, "Wait who's Dark Guy Looking For Light?", she asked.
I blushed.
"Who is he", she pestered.
"Just some guy I've been e-mailing." I say with a laugh.
"You know Nina if you keep planning every moment you won't live life", she says getting serious.
"What do you mean?", I asked already knowing.
"This book? I mean come on, you time your kissing with Fabian?", she asked.
"I need to do something, he bores me. He won't do anything. He's so careful with me. I hate it.", I finish.
"So you want someone like Jerome, when he's not with Mara? Bad boy, prankster. One-night stand bound", she asked.
"I don't know, I want just want somebody who won't treat me like I'm made of glass.", I answer, "I want to find my wild-side and maybe let it out for a while", I say sighing. we approach the school and head to first period.

At 8o'clock. I go to my room. I've showered, and am in my shorts and a tee-shirt. I quickly log-on to my computer, and go to instant messenger. He's already on. I smile and type him a message.

Cursed-and-quiet777: You should write more, I loved your last email!

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Yeah sure.

Cursed-and-quiet777: I'm serious. Your talented. :)

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: If you say so. Anyway, we broke up. :(

Cursed-and-quiet777: What happened? You two were crazy about each other. :(

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Turns out I was the crazy one. Moving on hows you and your boyfriend? Living in Paradise?

Cursed-and-quiet777: :(

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Sore subject? It's cool. So hows you planning going?

Cursed-and-quiet777: Same as usual.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Can I ask you something?

Cursed-and-quiet777: Sure...

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Are you really uptight as you seem to be?

Cursed-and-quiet777: More.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: That's it. I Have a Challenge For YOU!

Cursed-and-quiet777: I'm scared.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: You should be. ;)

Cursed-and-quiet777: *insert eye roll here*

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: ha-ha I got to go. Roommates getting to me. I'll have your email up about this challenge. And you have to do everything on it. EVERYTHING. Oh and if you want you can give me a challenge too.

Cursed-and-quiet777: Maybe. ;) Talk to You Later. Bye

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Bye.

He logged off after that. And I went to sleep wondering what he would put on the list. Man I was scared.