Title: Her Saving Grace
Author: Tay/JethroGibbsMistress
Category: wrestling
Characters: Lita, John, Stacy, Trish, and many others. Brief appearances by Mickie James
Disclaimer: All characters you recognized belong to the WWE and themselves. The ones you don't belong to my crazy mind
Distribution: my myspace blog, otherwise just ask first
Rating: M
Spoilers: Not a single solitary one
Summary: Her best friend is gone. She's lost. How will she ever make it through. Deals with suicide, death, severe depression and probably drugs later on.
Her Saving Grace
Prologue
Mickie layed on her bed crying. She'd been depressed for over 2 years now. It all started when her son Kyle died. Her precious baby boy. Her pride and joy. One of the biggest reasons for being gone in the blink of an eye. She didn't know how anyone could be so cruel. She remembered it like it was yesterday.
(Flashback)
Mickie was standing in the kitchen of her beautiful Victorian house doing the dishes from their lunch that day. It was a beautiful sunny June day. The perfect day for an outing to the park. Kyle had been running around the living room getting his tiny two year old hands on anything he could reach and he was getting quite restless anyways so she figured why not let him run off some of that energy at the park. So she grabbed her purse and put her young son in his stroller and walked out the door.
Kyle looked and pointed at all the amazing wonders of the world giggling with the innocence of a child. They got to the busy park and saw Mickie's friend Lita there with her niece and nephew Nero and Moore. Nero and Moore who were twins spotted Mickie and Kyle and ran to them exclaiming, "Annie Misi, Kyle!" Mickie wrapped them up in her arms and gave them a hug, "Hey there Sugar and Boo how's my two favorite little girls doing today." "Good Ann Misi," they both replied. "We was pwayin on the swide and Annie Li pusheded us on the swing and we pwayed in the sandybos an an an," Nero excitedly rambled, "Annie Misi can Kyle come pway in the sandybos wif us pwease? "Yes mommy pwease tan I," Kyle said with a pouty look on his face, "pwetty, pwetty pwease Mommy?" "Of course you can," Mickie replied taking him out of his stroller.
Kyle, Nero and Moore ran to the sandbox and started building sandcastles as Lita and Mickie followed after them. They took a seat on the edge of the sandbox and started chatting. "So, where's Shannon and Laura today?" Mickie asked Lita. "They um," Lita looked at the three toddlers playing in the sand and quietly finished, "Laura had a doctors appointment today." "Oh." was all Mickie said with confusion flashing in her eyes. "Yeah," Lita replied with a smile, "They think they are expecting again, but um don't tell em I told ya. They want to surprise everyone" "I can understand that." Mickie said.
They both turned their heads just in time to see the three toddlers putting sand in their pants and laughed. "Hey, guys, I thought the sand was supposed to stay in the sandbox." Lita said with a chuckle. "It is Annie Li. " said Nero. "Yea see it is. We still in the sandybos so it's still in the sandybos cuz we are too." Moore said with an innocent voice. Both girls chuckled loudly.
They were startled from their laughter by loud popping sounds coming from somewhere close. There was screaming and shouts of fear coming from all over the park. The girls looked around to see people running around madly and then they saw it. A man with an automatic riffle standing at the edge of the park letting rounds and rounds of bullets off at everyone there. On instinct they both turned around to shield the three young toddlers from the bullets.
As Mickie turned around she saw a small body lying in the grass beside the sandbox a red spot slowly expanding on his shirt. Her mouth went dry and tears sprang to her eyes and she heard an ear splitting scream not realizing the noise was coming from her own body. She ran to the little body and picked him up. His shirt was now covered in blood. She looked into his eyes. She saw nothing. There wasn't even the slightest sign of life. She instinctively grabbed his tiny wrist and felt for a pulse. Finding nothing she pinched his nose with her fingers and blew into his mouth.
She heard screams and cries all around her but shut them out. She had to save him she thought. She then gently pumped his chest a few times and put her ear near his mouth and checked to see if there was any breathe coming from him. Hearing none she repeated her motions. In the distance she could hear sirens but she tuned them out. Thoughts of her precious bay running through her mind.
After doing this for 5 minutes she said, "come on baby. Breath for Mommy. Breath for Mommy Kyle." She kept doing this and pleading with her baby to breathe. She felt a pair of strong hands grabbing at her shoulders and tried to fight them off but he was stronger than she was. Mickie felt herself being pulled away and forced out of the way.
She saw Lita standing there with Nero and Moore crying and sobbing in fear and grief. She looked back at the little boy lying on the ground and starting crying collapsing to the ground. The paramedics were working on Kyle trying to get the small child to breathe again. Mickie could feel her heart shattering into a million pieces. She couldn't believe that her baby had been shot. The paramedics placed the tiny body on a gurney and wheeled him to the ambulance. Mickie quickly followed behind them shattered.
The ride to the hospital was painstaking. What was only 5 minutes felt like 5 hours? A nurse ushered her into a small waiting room and she sat there dazed. She heard the door opening but didn't look up. She could hear someone talking to her but she couldn't make out what they were saying. She was lost. She finally came to as she felt a pair of arms wrapping around her. She looked up into the teary hazel eyes of her best friend.
She saw her friends Jeff , Matt and standing there with red teary eyes. "Have you heard anything yet," Lita wearily asked? Mickie shook her head. Matt and Jeff took a seat beside the girls. Jeff put his arms around Mickie and hugged her with all of his might. They sat there like that in virtual silence. All's that could be heard were the quiet sobs of four heartbroken friends.
"Oh my God. I, I forgot. Ho- How are the girls. We-were they hurt." Mickie quietly asked. "No. They're just really shook up but um they, they um, weren't hurt." Mickie was about to say something but the door opening quieted her thoughts. They saw an older man with a white coat apprehensively walking into the room. Lexi started to cry.
"Ms. James. I'm Dr. Gould. I'm the doctor that was working on your son. Your son had been shot 3 times. One was through the heart. Ms. James. We tried everything we could. But the damage was too severe. There wasn't anything we could do." "What are you saying Dr. Gould?" Jeff asked, "Are, are you saying that Ka-Kyle didn't make it." "Sir, I'm really sorry but Kyle couldn't be revived. He died on the operating table." Mickie starting screaming. She fell to her knees and started pounding on the carpeted floor.
Her son was gone. Her precious boy. He was gone. She'd never hear his laugh again. Never see his smile or see him grow up. She'd never get to put him on the bus on his first day of school. Or see him in a cap and gown walking to that pulpit to get his diploma. He'd never be a husband or a father. His life was gone before it really ever even started.
Mickie started to cry even harder. She rolled over and stared at the pill bottles on her bed stand. She knew that all of the pain she felt could be gone in an instant. All's she'd have to do was swallow those pills. But did she really have the courage to do it. She saw a picture of her precious angel and she knew what she had to do. She grabbed the bottles and opened them pouring the entire contents of both into her mouth and swallowed them. She lay there for awhile and she felt herself getting tired. She picked up her cell phone and dialed a number she knew by heart. She heard it ringing and then a message came on. Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
"L-Lita, it-it's me. Li I've done something. I had my pills. I-I um, I took them all. I'm sorry Li. I just wanted this pain to go away. It still hurts so much. Kyle is always on my mind, Li. And I can't deal with it anymore. I miss him so much. Li, I'm sorry that I've hidden my pain from everyone. I didn't want any of you to worry about me though. I had to Li. I just couldn't bother you all with my problems. Please don't be mad at me. My heart is gone. The Mickie you knew is gone. She died that day in the hospital. Li please don't be sad. I'm gonna be happy now. I'm finally gonna be with my little angel again.
Li will you tell Jeff, and Matt and Shannon and everyone that I loved them and that I'm sorry that they are gonna be hurting. And tell Lana and Maureen that I love them. Tell them all that I needed to do this. That it was my only choice. And don't let Lana blame herself. And don't you blame yourself either hun. Because it's not any of you guys' fault. I didn't want you to see my pain. Didn't want to bring anyone down with me.
Li tell my sisters that they were the best sisters a girl could ever ask for and that I love them so very much. Tell Lana not to let her life pass her by. That she should tell Christian how she feels. Because life truly is short. Lita you truly are my best friend. Thank you so much for always being there for me.
You aren't just my best friend Li, you are my sister. Thank you so much for being such a great friend. I love you Li. And I'm so sorry for doing this to you. To all of you. Tell my dad that I love him. That even though he wasn't ever there that I still loved him. And also tell him that I forgive him. And Li don't ever let an opportunity pass you by. Actually tell everyone that. Tell everyone to never let an opportunity pass them by. And not to put off the things that you can do today until tomorrow. Because tomorrow may never come. Tell the people that you love that you love them because you never know if you'll ever get the chance to say it to them again.
Li it's getting so cold. It's hard to keep my eyes open. But Lita. Oh Li please don't hate me. Oh God everyone please don't hate me for this. I had to do it. I couldn't handle it all anymore. Please understand why I'm doing what I'm doing. Hmmm it's so peaceful now. Please don't cry for me. I'm going to be in a better place.
Li please give my precious little nieces a kiss for me. Ask Shannon and Laura to never let Nero, Moore or HardyLyn forget me or forget how much their Annie Misi loved them. When they get old enough to understand it all tell them that I never blamed them or loved them any less. Tell them I'm sorry for not being the aunt I should have been. It hurt seeing my baby's bestest friends knowing I'd never see my baby again but that I never loved them any less.
It's getting really bright now Li. I'm getting so tired. I think I'm going to go to sleep now. But before I do. Just remember that we aren't really gone. That even though we aren't here in body that we are here in spirit. We will both be watching over you all and keeping you safe. We'll be the sunshine in your hair, the moonlight shining down. When the wind blows on a nice summer day that will be us whispering our love and encouragement to you. Kyle and I will be in your hearts forever and that will keep us alive.
I love you all. Please don't ever forget Kyle or me. Lita please sing Someone's Watching Over Me at my funeral for me. I love how you sing that song.Goodbye my friends, my family and to everyone I loved." Mickie's eyes slowly shut. She could see a bright light shining down on her. And at the top of the light was a small toddler standing there with a big bright smile on his face. "Mommy," the little boy said with a twinkle in his eye. "Kyle," Mickie murmured as the phone slowly fell from her grip and fell to the floor.
Author's Note: After reading a story by CEO of Rebellion I realized that this story needed to be changed. So I went through and changed the names of Alexis to Mickie and Amy to Lita. The changes don't affect the story at all but it just had to be done.