Before Hogwarts I had family, I had my duty and my blood to rely on. I had Hogwarts to look forward to.
During Hogwarts I had Rodolphus, I had hope for a new world order and a life of changing the world.
In askaban I had my thoughts and hopes and dreams of my dark lord, my lord who promised me the world.
After askaban I had nothing, even my everlasting pride was snatched from me in death, after years of beating the best duelers in the world, defeated by a housewife...