author's note: hi everyone! here's my brand new one-shot, emptiness! i got this idea during religion class (which is amazing because i don't pay attention during religion). anyways, i hope you guys enjoy!
author's note two: this story is a one-shot. it will not be multi chaptered.
summary: Why didn't they understand? Why was it that only the people who were the same as me could understand? Why was it that it hurt so much, even though it goes against my very nature? Why is it that only two people could come close to knowing? Why is it that I can't give up? Why? Why? Why?
Emptiness
Kingdom Hearts
Emptiness.
It's dark.
Lonely.
Black.
A void.
It's nothing.
Blank.
I hate it.
No one really understands what it's like to be empty. To have nothing inside of you. To feel as if you are missing something.
No one does.
Nobodies understand, naturally. After all, we are just shells of others. Others who are whole. Who aren't empty. Who are something. Who are somebody.
It disgusts me, how they think we're the enemies. How we are the ones that need to be defeated. Annihilated. It's sickening. It's revolting.
They don't, and probably never will, understand what we, Organization XIII, are trying to do. We're trying to become them. We're trying to not be empty anymore. We're trying to become what we once were.
We're trying, to get our hearts back.
I think Sora and Riku understand, even if it is just a little, how we feel, how I feel. They are both empty, even though their emptiness doesn't come close to mine. They are both missing something: each other. But, they can easily get each other back, and fill up the hole in their hearts.
I wish it was that easy for me. I wish I could just chase what's missing and kept it when I catch it.
But that can't happen. I can't chase after my heart and keep it when I finally get my hands on it. My heart is gone, lost when I turned into a Nobody, a heartless.
It hurts, feeling this emptiness. It's indescribable, what it feels like. You're constantly searching for something. It's never ending. You're always looking for something to fill the void inside of you. It's annoying, frustrating, upsetting, depressing, heart breaking, painful, devastating, mind bending, confusing and a whole other flurry of emotions that I can't put into words.
I just want to get rid of it. I just want to escape from this listless and lifeless existence I'm currently surviving through. I just want it all to end already.
But, I'm too selfish for that. I'm too selfish to let myself die.
I NEED to find my heart first. I NEED to become somebody. I NEED to know what it feels like to feel, to have emotion.
I want to be happy. I want to be sad. I want to be angry. I want to be content. I want to be irritated. I want to be flustered. I want t be loving. I want to be all of that and more.
I just... I just... I just want it all.
Is that really too much to ask? To want all of that? I think not, but others do, and I'm constantly fighting them in order to try and achieve my goal.
Emptiness.
It's dark.
Lonely.
Black.
A void.
It's nothing.
Blank.
I just want to get rid of it.
author's note: well, here's another angsty story of mine for kingdom hearts. there's no specific character talking, so, you can just imagine who it is; just put your favorite organization xiii character in there and, boom! that's who's talking. i imagined, as i was writing it, that it was either xemnas or zexion.
author's note two: please review and tell me what you think! any grammar or spelling issues that i missed? anything that you would have liked to see done? a friend of mine said that it should be longer, but, i don't know how to do that. any suggestions? i hope you guys have a great day!