Jacob didn't just kiss Bella in Eclipse, he betrayed her trust in the worst way. The Cullen's return from hunting to find a heart broken and now distant Bella, will they find out what's wrong?

This is my first Twilight fanfiction, so, go easy on me? I apologise if there is similar stories- I wrote this when I watched Eclipse but I never did anything with it. However, other writers might have uploaded theirs. I apologise to Jacob fans too. I like him, but that kiss wasn't fair in Eclipse. This is probablt the worst chapter, but it is the introduction to this story. Please, read, enjoy and review :) Thank you!

*Italics = thoughts

Bella's point of view:

"Bye Dad, bye Billy" I yelled as I raced down the stairs.

I grabbed the keys to my truck and opened the front door, but stopped when Charlie called after me. I sighed and walked into the room where he was watching a game. I never saw the amusement in it- people running around throwing a ball to each other. But it kept him happy and occupied him for a while. Plus, it gave Billy a chance to come here or for Charlie to go down to LaPush, giving me a chance to see Jake. It wasn't something Edward agreed on but he couldn't tell Charlie that he was protecting me from horse sized wolves.

"Yeah?" I mumbled as I glanced to the door.

I was anxious to see Jake. This was the first time in weeks that I was able to see him, due to how overly protective Edward was being since his return. I had convinced him to go hunting for a few days. That left me until Friday (It was Tuesday now) until all of the Cullens returned.

"Where are you going?" he asked without taking his eyes off the screen.

I rolled my eyes.

"To see Jake, remember? You and Billy watch the game, I go see Jake in LaPush... I haven't seen him in a while. I told you yesterday" I added, hoping to remind him of our conversation.

"Yeah yeah" he muttered, his full attention back on the game.

"Bye Bella, tell Jacob to make you some food" he laughed before he turned to the Television himself.

I smiled before I ran to my car.

"Bella" grinned Jacob as he jogged to my truck.

I grinned back at him before I got out. He quickly pulled me into a bone crunching hug- almost like Emmett's, but not as strong. It wasn't a child like.

"Hey Jake" I laughed as he put me down.

"It has been too long Bells, that blood sucker needs to let you out more" he half joked.

I sighed but I let it go and continued walking with Jake into his house.

"I am being serious Bella, he needs to let you live a little. I understand that he wants to protect you and all, so do I but I am not the enemy. He is the one who is dangerous" growled Jacob.

"Stop it Jacob" I warned. "I haven't seen you in weeks and the first time I do, you have to ruin it" I argue.

"He isn't good enough for you" protested Jacob.

I groaned, I knew where this was going. "And you are? I love Edward. Jacob. I love you too, but not enough" I resorted.

"You can't say that, you haven't tried to love anyone else. You haven't given me the chance" he yelled.

"Because I know I want Edward" I declared.

Jacob grabbed my wrist and pushed me up against the wall, my head and back forcefully connected against the hard surface.

"Jac-" I started before he cut me off.

"Shut up Bella" he ordered. "It isn't fair, I wouldn't be fair nor would he, if he didn't let you try different things out. You can't declare your love for him until you have been with other people. How do you know he is the one? I love you Bella and you might love me back if you tried to be civil about it. I am not ready to hand you over to that blood sucking family- you deserve a normal life" he ordered once more before he crushed his lips to mine.

I tried to move my face out of the way but he grabbed my head with both hands and held it in place. He pressed his body against mine, forcing me to stay there. My whole body was frozen in place.

"Jacob" I shrieked as he pulled away for air. He smiled quickly before he kissed me again.

He stopped as he looked down at my shirt.

"Stop Jacob, please don't do this" I begged.

I cried as he unbuttoned my shirt. He pulled his off quickly and threw it on the floor where mine was.

"Don't cry Bella, you can enjoy this" he promised as he unbuckled his jeans.

I tried desperately to remove myself from his grasp, I pulled my knee up to kick him, I hit him over and over again but I only hurt myself. I heard the bone crack and I felt the pain in my wrist, but I never stopped hitting him.

"Shhh Baby" he soothed as he pulled my jeans down.

"No, Jake no! Please Jacob, please" I begged.

I stumbled out of the house and raced to my truck. The tears were falling freely down my face as I jumped inside and locket the door. I knew I shouldn't drive due to how unstable I was and for my weak vision. I could barely see through the windshield from my crying but I wanted to be as far away from him as possible. I quickly drove out of LaPush, not caring about the speed or how dangerous I was being. I drove until I passed my house and pulled up outside the Cullen's.

I couldn't explain to Charlie what had happened. If he believed me, he would kill Jake. If he didn't, I don't know what I would do. But I couldn't ruin his friendship with Billy for this. He barely had anyone, I couldn't do that to him!

I found myself in the bathroom where I began to fill the tub up with scorching hot water. I could feel him on me, he was etched on my skin.

So dirty... So dirty... Not good enough for Edward...

I quickly stripped from my clothes, not looking in the mirror from fear of what I would see and I sunk under the water. I grabbed a sponge and some bubble bath before I started to scrub my skin. I could feel my body protest, from the burning water and the cuts and bruises from where he was too rough but I blocked it all out and forced myself to become numb. I stopped myself from crying and concentrated on cleaning myself. Parts of my skin begain to bleed from where I scrubbed myself but I continued to scrub, determined to remove any trace of him.

So dirty... so dirty... All my fault...

I had to fight back the tears. Part of me wanted Edward here. I needed him to comfort me, to tell me it would all be okay because he would protect me from him. But part of me knew that would never happen. Edward wouldn't want me now. He told me Jacob couldn't be trusted and I never listened. I betrayed him- I was dirty and he wouldn't ever want me now.

I climbed out of the water despite still feeling him on me. I knew I wasn't clean, but being in the dirty water didn't help. It kept him on me. I forced myself to look into the mirror. I had a slight bruise on each cheek bone from where he grabbed me, darker bruises on my wrists and thighs. I could feel the tenderness on my lips as I forced them shut. I didn't have my toothbrush with me so I settled on mouth wash instead. I ook my time swirling it around my mouth, forcing it to remove any last trace of him. I used more and more until I found the bottle empty, onlythen did I stop. I grabbed my old clothes and placed them on the hall way, before I went into Edward's room and grabbed some of his sweats and a shirt. I went downstairs afer grabbing my clothes to put them in the rubbish bin. I didn't want any reminders of what happened. I didn't have to tell Edward- he didn't have to know. And he wouldn't find out because Alice wouldn't have seen it and unless I decided to tell him, she wouldn't see it either.

I walked to the kitchen and pulled my phone out of my pocket before I text Charlie to tell him I was staying at Alice's. I didn't want him to ask Jacob where I was, I didn't want to deal with anything. I left my phone there without waiting for the reply and I made my way into the living room.

I slowly walked to the couch, lowering myself down and covering myself with Edwards duvet cover before I startd to cry again, this time, allowing myself to sleep.

Okay, so that was the first chapter. I would love to know your thoughts on it! Even if it is continue just so I know :) Please? I didn't want to go into too much detail on the rape, but Bella will have flashbacks/nightmares/reminders as the story progresses- If it does. Thank you!