Author's Note: I'm alive! Hehehe haven't written anything in a while, because all the plot bunnies have abandoned me. only have 110 more things to write this summer. but anyways, there never really is any mention of Cagalli's mother in the series (or if there was, I missed that episode). So heres my nice little angsty thing on it. And it ends up somewhere I didn't intend for it to go, but I suppose it works…
Disclaimer: Dont own Gundam Seed or anything remotely related to it. If it did, i'd be Japanese. and last time i checked, i wasnt. so dont sue me. i have no money. (needs a job)
I remember a time when I thought that it was normal to only have a father and nannies. But I had lived at home for the beginning of my life, isolated from any influence that would have told me different. I was safely secluded in the Athha mansion, in contact only with my father and our servants, who avoided any mention of my missing mother.
But then my father decided at last to allow me to attend a small, private school. On the first day, we had to talk about our parents. I said I didn't have a mom. The boy next to me laughed. I punched him.
Later that night, my father asked me, obviously disappointed, why I had punched the boy. But I ignored his question.
"Why don't I have a mom?" I asked instead, my eyes fixed on him as he instantly became flustered.
"Why…she's…on vacation…"
I knew he was lying. "She's not on vacation," I remarked, glaring at him. "If you won't tell me, I'll ask someone else!"
"Cagalli…I just don't want you to be hurt…" he began slowly.
I had known then that it wouldn't be an answer I would like, but being the stubborn young girl I was—and am told I still am—I hardly was put off.
"…your mother…was never a very stable woman. Something…happened…that put her over the edge and…she…killed herself."
I blinked, started. I hadn't heard any mention of this in any of my years, and only now was it confirmed that I had had a mother at all. I hadn't known quite what to feel. Anger at my father for withholding this. Sadness that my mother was gone. Confusion as to why she had died. But most of all, I'd lost trust in my father, who'd always told me to speak the truth. He always said he told the truth, yet he'd lied and hidden this from me. If he hid this, then what else did he hide?
As I grew, I found more such instances, the last being the fact that he was helping the Earth Alliance, a fact confirmed by a visit to Heliopolis.
I wonder about my mother something. I've never learned why she committed suicide, another secret my father kept from me. I have never completely trusted him since that day. And now, filled with anger over his most recent lie, I wonder what else has been hidden from me, what else I need to know.
xxravenwingxx