17.11.2010

In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love.

Diego Marchi

In life we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream and an unforgettable love. And for Katherine Beckett they all had the same name: Richard Castle.

For most people her unspeakable secret wouldn't count as such but for her it did. She'd fallen in love with him the very first time she met him. She could not tell anyone the truth or for that matter act on her feelings because she simply was afraid. She had lost too much that meant the world to her to just fall I love with a best-selling author who's private life constantly was the centre of attention. He had been married twice for god's sake, and she would not be foolish enough to become his next conquest.

If she only had known that his unspeakable secret was his love for her.

Her irreversible regret was to let him go. If she had gathered up her courage just a day earlier he wouldn't have walked away arm in arm with his ex-wife. No. She may have spent a whole summer with him – maybe finally ready to reveal her little secret. But she'd messed this up – too afraid of telling him anything when his ex-wife showed up. She could have changed it; maybe – just maybe- if she had told him then and there he would have left with her and not with another woman. But she didn't.

If she only had known that his irreversible regret was not leaving with her.

How she wished to see him again but she knew it was impossible. He'd left, quit his following her around, and moved away – with another woman. She would do anything to have him back, to see him again, to tell him how she felt and to finally have a relationship. But all this will remain her unreachable dream.

If she only had known that his unreachable dream was to share his life with her.

Somehow she managed to move on, to start her life all over again. She'd eventually found someone to spend her life with – someone she deeply cared for.

But every now and then, even after all this years, her mind wandered back to "could have been's". And it is then when she realizes that he will ever be her unforgettable love.

If she only had known that his unforgettable love also ever will be her.