For the challenge "What if?" by xXKissingSinXx
My prompt was: What if the Marauders reacted badly to Remus being a werewolf?
It was now or never. I could let them figure it out and hate me or I could just tell them, and then I could at least say that I didn't keep it a secret from them. I was pretty sure they'd understand though, they had always been there for me before, so why not now? Still, it was a nerve-racking thought. I bit my lip as Sirius entered the room. Now the three of them were all in the same room at the same time, I could try and tell them.
"Hey guys?" I asked timidly. James, Sirius and Peter all turned to look at me.
"What?" asked James.
"I have something to tell you," I said slowly, avoiding eye contact. Sirius was sitting on the edge of my bed within the next second, grinning at me.
"Secrets, eh?" He said, nudging me. "Who is it? Who's the lucky girl?"
I sighed. This was going to be difficult. "There's not a girl."
"A guy?" he asked, shocked.
"No. I mean there's nobody. It's a different kind of secret."
"What is it then?" asked James, who was now making his way over to my bed, accompanied with Peter.
"You have to all promise me that you won't hate me forever," I said. My heart was beating so fast and hard that it felt as if it was about to burst out of my chest.
"We promise," said Peter, smiling at me reassuringly. I nodded, and took a deep breath.
"I don't visit my mum every month," I started.
"Then where do you go?" asked James.
"I'm not like everyone else."
"How?" asked Sirius, looking quite interested.
"I don't know if I can say it," my voice broke.
"Aw, c'mon Remus!" James said. "You got us all excited."
"It's not something to get excited about. It's something to be disgusted about. Something you'll hate me for." I said, looking down.
"Can't be that bad," Sirius said.
"Trust me, it is."
"Just tell us Remus," Peter said impatiently.
"Fine," I gave in. I'd never get them off my back otherwise. "I'm a.. a w-werewolf," I said in barely a whisper. I saw the same expression on all of my friends faces; disgust and shock.
After a few seconds, Sirius spoke. "A what?"
"You heard what he said," James replied, staring at me as if I was a monster (not that I wasn't one anyway).
"I'm sorry," I pleaded, leaning closer to them. Sirius backed away, repulsed.
"Don't touch me," he said angrily.
"But, you said you wouldn't hate me," I said desperately trying to fight back the tears.
"Yeah, well... That was before you told us you were a... a... MONSTER!" James shouted.
"I can't help it," I said, looking at Peter in hope he'd understand.
"Why're you looking at me, freak?" He sneered. It was as if my whole world crashed down.
"Y-y-you guys d-don't want to be my friend any m-m-more?" I asked, now with tears rolling down my face.
"Do we need to answer that?" Sirius asked, walking back to his own bed.
"Fine," I said, defeated. "But you mustn't tell anyone."
"Why not?"
"Because I could be killed if people find out there's a... werewolf at Hogwarts," I said looking at them.
"Is that a bad thing? You should all be killed! Blood-thirsty monsters!" James said angrily.
"I've never hurt anyone," I said.
"Yet," Peter added.
"Bet you were waiting on the right time to attack us all? If you didn't want us dead , you wanted us to join your disgusting pack?" Sirius accused. I blinked. Was that what he really thought of me?
"B-but you were my first friends."
"And your last," James sniggered. I gave up. I pulled my curtains together and threw the covers over myself.
"S-silencio," I mumbled, to block out the nasty things my friends – well, "ex-friends" were saying about me. I closed my eyes, and tried to pretend that it wasn't real. I tried to pretend that I'd never told them. They couldn't only ruin my friendship, but they could get me put in Azkaban, or worse, I could be killed.
Didn't they understand that it wasn't my fault that I became this monster? Like I actually want to transform into a murderous creature every single month... I don't exactly find it fun to tear myself to shreds because I don't want to hurt people. And to think Sirius thought I'd want to attack him! Them! I'd never dream of hurting them, they were the greatest people I'd ever met. Well, until now, of course.
I cried myself to sleep, dreading the horrors of tomorrow morning, hoping with all hopes that maybe I'd get to stay at Hogwarts, and maybe I was pushing it to hope that my friends would be my friends again.
Wondering whether to do it multi-chap or not?
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