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I never imagined during all of those childhood years that I spent staging my death- that I would eventually succumb to something as…as ordinary as cancer. I always thought that the bullet would ultimately be the end of me, but now I realize that nature had other plans.
Cancer. The word itself is a death sentence.
I could have lived, I would have, but in the end love- a love that I never realized was so powerful, was suddenly more important than my own life (irrational as that sounds).
January 13, 2027
Harper,
If you are reading this, it means that today is your sixteenth birthday and I am not there to share it with you. I am so very sorry that you have had to know grieve in your short 16 years, and I am even sorrier that I have probably caused a lot of your pain. Please know that I love you more than anything I have ever loved. I am sorry that I didn't get to be there for your first steps, your first day of school, your first kiss or your first broken heart. I wish the world for you. I know that you will grow up to be a smart, beautiful woman. Never settle for anything less than extraordinary, because you can change the world for the better…the world is already a better place with you in it.
I met you today for the first time, and I knew right away that I loved you more than anyone I have ever met in my entire 35 years on this earth. You are the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. You have my eyes, a nice bright blue…but I know that you already have your father's warm and open heart.
Shortly after I found out that I was expecting you I was told that I had a very aggressive form of brain cancer (imagine that- brain cancer) the part of my being that I was most proud of, my brain, was what would eventually kill me. I imagine this is some kind of irony, although I have never been very good at interpreting irony myself. In order for me to make sure that you were born healthy and without complication, there was not much that I could do to kill the cancer cells.
Please know that neither I nor your father do or ever will blame you for what happened to me. You are the best of both of us, and I did this for you. I only wish that I could be there to watch your grow and become an intelligent and beautiful woman. I wish I could be there on your high school graduation day, or to help you search for the perfect school. I wish I could be there on your wedding day or when you have your babies.
I hope that you can feel comfortable and welcome talking to Angela or Cam when it comes to questions that only a mother can answer. I know that you wish that I could be there to answer your many questions, but know that Angela and Cam love you very much.
I also know that you probably will come and talk to me every once in awhile with your father, and even though I never put much stock into religion- I will be here listening (Metaphorically) and I hope that knowing that can bring you some kind of comfort.
Please take care of your father and Parker. They are going to need you, make sure they know everyday how much I love them, and tell them that it is okay to move on. To be happy.
Harper, I love you so much. You are the greatest thing I ever accomplished in my life.
Love always and forever,
Mom
The young girl walked through the fields of stones to the familiar place beneath the willow tree. She placed the daffodils on the grave as tears slowly fell down her cheeks.
"Hey mom, these are for you, I know they were your favorite. Daddy gave me your letter today and I just wanted you to know that even though I never really knew you, I love you mom. And I hope that I am making you so proud."
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