Watching myself hurt my friends,
And the girl I secretly love.
I watched it from a distastance,
Over her and the others.
Wanting to show myself,
Knowing I couldn't.
Shared their triumphs and defeats,
And never told a word to them,
About how I was upset, in love, and scared.
I hope that I will change,
Into a better person.
I hope she loves me,
As much as I love her.
I hope I will never again,
Face that terror I once faced.