I tell others that i don't love you

I even convince myself of this lie

But for some reason you own my heart

I just cant seem to understand why

Maybe if keep telling myself this

Then maybe one day it will come true

That ill wake up one sunny morning

And suddenly i won't love you

I know deep down the truth be told

That my feelings for you will always be there

I cant just stop loving you

I don't have the choice whether or not i care

You may have broken my heart and my world

But my soul came through still intact

And while i have a soul to feel betrayal

I'll never be able to turn my back

You'll never learn from the mistakes you made

Rather i was the one who learnt

You were the one who came through unbruised

I was the one who got harshly burnt

But now the time has come to finally go our ways

Ill say goodbye but with no good

Because turning m back will never feel quite right

I'm just doing what i think i should

I gotta hide it,

I can't let you see,

I can't let you know,

You're killing me.

No tears to cry,

In front of you,

You'll never know,

What you're putting me through.

You'll think I'm happy,

I'll look just fine,

But this mask you see,

Is only a lie.

You'll never know,

Of the pain inside,

You'll never know,

The tears I've cried.

You'll never know,

Because I won't let you see,

You'll never know,

That you're killing me. This quietness is killing me slowly

but I am the fault

I am the one who started all of this

Only if I could end it as well

I shamly look back at what I have done

Things in which I hoped I'd never do

I went and hurt you

Something I wished not to do

You are okay, and for that I am glad

If I see you laughing, I smile inside

For the outside, I cannot hide

I smile beneath, I know its for the best as you say

Half of me is still holding on

The other? Telling to let go

Holding on is the easy part

Letting go the hardest

I have done many of things and have said

Said and done things I wish to be only a nightmare

We've been broke apart now for quite a bit

It doesnt seem so far away though

As opposed to when you held me; feels as if it was forever again

I do miss you, I admit

For I am not the one to lie

Still holding on, trying my tries to let go

I do not want to say goodbye

You must think I am a bad person

Think it, for it is the truth

You've game reason on what I did wrong

I should've caught and fixed my problems before you took notice

but once again, I am slow at this

Things did feel okay to me

It's as if I'm trapped; not to be freed

I feel as if I must die to let go of you

For you and I are no longer be.

It has taken me 2 weeks, 3 days and 22 no 23 hours to get over you

It has taken me 52 cookies, 12 cups of coffee, and 9 large pizzas to get over you

It has taken 300,000 tears, 53 sad poemsand 21 love songs to get over you

But it only took a second to fall in love with you