Shattered Souls
Jenna's dead. I have no reason to live. At least, that's what I think. Everyone else would have me believe it's all about distractions, but I know better. I already lost my wife—I saw her get killed by Damon for God's sakes. Now I lost my girlfriend.I kept thinking, for some odd reason, 'Wouldn't it be easier to shut out my emotions like a vampire?' But I knew I would never be able to do it. I saw what that was like, the monster I would have become, through Klaus. He shut out his humanity some reason, I kept thinking of when he took over my body. He hadn't left any memories of what I/he had done, but he left some remains of his twisted mind. I saw killings, endless killings, and the need to shut out humanity and emotion, so as to save myself from pain and all this through Klaus' mind made me scared of what could be, but it also intrigued me, I'll admit. So when I became a vampire, it didn't surprise me that all I wanted to do was kill and not feel.I was walking home from the bar one night, a couple days after the sacrifice, when I felt someone watching me. A bit drunk, I though noting of it until someone grabbed me.I had only seen Klaus twice, but I could tell it was him immediately. He didn't speak, just fed me his blood. After that I can't remember anything, but I have a pretty good idea of what happened. He killed me.I woke later, but I'm not sure how much later. Klaus was there. He already had a human ready for me."What? you want me to just...become a vampire?""Yes, unless you'd rather die," he said innocently. He knew which I would choose. I slowly bit into the human's neck. I drank all the blood from her body."I don't want this life," I said, more to try to convince myself, though I had already chosen it."But if you had this life, you could easily turn out the pain you're feeling from losing your girlfriend," Klaus said.I shook my head. "I don't want to become a monster like you..." but I trailed off. Already the offer sounded appealing, and more so each minute I tried to convince myself otherwise. I would be able to forget Jenna. And Isobel. I would be carefree, my only concern would be who would be my next victim—no! I wouldn't succumb to that had another girl with him. He cut her throat, and she remained where she was, obviously compelled. I couldn't resist the scarlet blood that stained her neck. I drank as I made my choice, letting the humanity leave me as the blood filled me. When I looked up I felt no pain, only power, as I joined Klaus in my rightful place in the world.