I Don't own DBZ I swear I don't!!!

Ok warnings are here: Lemon in later chapters, maybe some drug use, and there will be alcohol mentioned and if all those that want Gohan to be sweet and innocent and are VERY against him being bad don't read this, this is a VERY out of character Gohan, so hope you enjoy if you do please review cyas!

Chapter 1. Anger and Tears

Why?
Gohan didn't know why the laughter came out of his mouth he was deeply upset about his father, it had just hit him again, he practically killed him, his own father. 'If only I had listened to him, he would be here now, it's my fault and all I can do is laugh?!' Gohan Soon stopped laughing and soon saw black as he passed out.

The next thing he remembers is waking up on the look out and Dende calling the dragon. Gohan tried to act happy, but really he felt paralysed, like he had lost his soul but worse was the ache in his heart. The first wish has been successful, but Gohan couldn't shake off a feeling that something wasn't right. And he was right the dragon told them he couldn't bring back his father 'I've defeated him truly now… he can never come back, all because of me!?' Gohan Turned his head away from the group so they couldn't see the tears spilling down his cheeks. The Rest of the group tried to get the dragon to grant their wish but still to no avail. Gohan was about to breakdown in more tears when he heard a voice he never thought he would hear again.


"Hey guys! Listen I've been thinking a lot lately, all the evil on earth was after me, so if I come back I will just bring more danger to the people again and again, you gonna have to find another wish my home is here now." Goku told them truthfully from his heart.


"YOU LIAR YOU BASTARD!! THAT A LIE AND YOU KNOW IT!!!!!" Everyone was more than shocked to find out Gohan was yelling at his father's sacrifice.


"What's up? Im trying to do the best Gohan!" Goku stated but unsure on what to say after hearing his son's tone.


"Really?! Did Garlic Jr come for you?! No he came for me! Did Vegeta and Napa come for you?! No they came for the Dragonballs! Yes Dr Gero created the androids to defeat you, But he's a lunatic!! And yes Radditz did come for you but if he didn't Vegeta wouldn't have come and if he hadn't trunks wouldn't have been born and right now id be the only saiyan alive and I was killed in the future so that future would be permanently destroyed aswell as this one since if he wasn't created he wouldn't have come! Things happen for a reason how can you leave us like this I need you and mum needs you aswell!!!! You must hate me if your leaving like this!!! and what has mother done so wrong?!!!" Gohan screamed at his father.

"Gohan, im doing something right for a change another evil will...." Goku was cut off by Gohan again.

"Wait a second... there's training isn't there?!!!!"

"..... well I will get special training from grand Kai himself..."

"See! So that's why your leaving us! Fighting and food you care more about that than family, stay there go to hell for all I fucking care!!!" Gohan tried to run but was stopped by piccolo. "GET OFF ME!!!!"

"You need to calm down!!!!!" Piccolo shouted at his only pupil.

"Why so my dad and train and leave me to be a fucking hero to the earth! Im only 11 years old!? I shouldn't be training so hard I should be a normal kid I don't want to be a hero I don't wanna save the earth again its too much pain to loose somebody again and again!!!!! He needs a wake up call piccolo he cant leave for training again, I understand about it when Napa and Vegeta was gonna attack he had a reason to be dead but on Namek he choose to fight frieza and die than live with us!! After that he went training for so long! He ditched us to train! And now he's gonna remain dead to satisfy his needs to fight! Im sorry but when he married my mum he signed more than a piece of paper he signed to be with her but he hasn't! He hasn't even been there for me much he's ALWAYS training even when he isn't dead! I may be 11 but at least im more grown up than his unreasonable ass!!!" Gohan screamed and flew down from the look out zooming all the way home, he didn't really wanna go home but at least there no one other than his mother would bother him.

He flew threw rocks hoping it would take away the anger in his heart but it didn't. He soon arrived home he was too angry so he walked in slammed the door. His mother who was waiting to congratulate was crying when she saw him, all day she had been worried about him dieing but he ignored her cry's and ran straight to his room. He had something to say to his mother before getting to his destination.

"By the way your husband is remaining dead yet again to train! Don't worry its nothing different!!!!!!!!!" After he slammed the door so hard it fell of the hinges and broke in half but he threw it back up in anger so that it could cover and hide his room.

Gohan fell on his bed and allowed the tears to fall from his face.

While his mother stood in shock before letting the word's sink in, her husband was gone.

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"You guys I changed my mind! Wish me back please!" Goku begged the Group after his son zoomed off.

"How? The dragon wont let us." Krillin sighed not wanting his best friend dead.

"Go to Namek!" Goku suggested.

"How we cant use instant transmission like you can." Yamcha pointed out.

"Space ship?" Krillin gave a suggestion.

"Yea! Goku you will have to be patient till we arrive on Namek ok?" Dende asked the saiyan warrior.

"I don't mind as long as I get back! Thanks you guys!" Goku said gratefully, but he found it hard to be happy after hearing his son's last words to him 'stay there go to hell for all I fucking care!!!'

those words kept repeating in Goku's head, he knew it was going to take awhile to get his son to talk too him.

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Gohan curled up in his covers he didn't want to eat he didn't want to drink he didn't even want to get out of bed, it had been a whole 24 hours since he zoomed away from Kami's look out. His mother was next to his bed shouting at him, he tried not to listen but it was pretty hard.

"Listen life goes on, you need too study! You wont get into college sitting on your ass young man! You need to use your brain and I want you to use it!!!!!!! And at least eat something you will get sick!! Please Gohan…"

"SHUT UP!!!! LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!!!! GET OUT OF MY FUCKING ROOM OR I WILL BLAST YOU OUT!!!!!!!!!!" Gohan screamed at her he was fed up of her, study, study, study that's all she wanted him to do she hated him to fight, but he truthfully loved to fight but fighting to save the world was a completely different thing, it has deaths and its too painful. 'I NEVER want to experience that pain ever again I will never fight like that, NEVER!!' Gohan told himself but he was also thinking about his mother how she was going to react now after he swore at her.

Chi-chi was truly shocked but she didn't hesitate to raise her arm and slap Gohan across the face with the back of her hand. Gohan was now the one to be shocked he never thought she would hurt him like that, he had done everything she had said since he could talk today was the only day he had said no and she smacked him. Gohan looked up to talk to her when another smack hit his face. That was soon followed by another and then another.

It wasn't the slaps that hurt, but his heart that did, his own mother wants to hurt him because he wants to take a day off studying. 'Doesn't anybody love me for me?! All I do is train, study, sleep and eat, this cant be a real life I have never had spare time to run around and have fun, not including when piccolo took me to train, but still I have done everything she's asked me too, and I don't get any freedom from her, I cant take this live anymore! I hate it!! If no one can love me for what I want to do and be then I don't see any point remaining here!' Gohan jumped out of Chi-chi's way and flew out of the window not knowing where he was heading as long as he was away from everyone.

He didn't want earths future on his shoulders anymore, he didn't want to study nearly every single minute of the god damn day, he didn't want to be responsible for any deaths yet again, if he had done what he would have been told to do at 6 years old Tien, Chaozu, Yamcha and piccolo may not have died, if he had listened to his father he would be alive, but he still couldn't forgive his father for not coming back to him, that was a pure evil neglect. Gohan continued to fly places he had never seen before, but slowly Gohan's power was running out. He was weak from the lack of food and water, he hadn't slept all night it was slowly taking away his power, soon enough Gohan couldn't see very well and tried to find a safe place too land, he never got the chance as his eyes rolled back and the darkness took over.


Well its kinda short I know but oh well! Please review if you liked it!!

Like I said Gohan is WAY out of character but that's the plan!

Next time…

~ New Faces~

"But will my choice effect everyone I ever cared about? I ran away to not loose another person close too me I cant go home but I cant loose everyone I loved." Gohan looked down still unsure of which path to choose he got up to take a walk. He went round a few corners and out on the back garden only too see somebody who was more than likely able give him a answer on the right way for his future.